Note.

I think Ginny was having sex with other women when we were dating.

I saw it online and I kinda knew that as well.

I got hurt but I didn’t say anything about it because we weren’t in a relationship.

We were getting there.

We were almost there and shit happened.

When I knew that she loves me. That was kinda enough for me.

I was happy knowing that she does.

Then I was going to die. omg.

I don’t know what exactly I want but I wanted to keep talking to her and I was okay with whatever label.

I was just happy knowing she loves me and I didn’t expect anything as well.

I was just waiting to meet her again and constantly kept thinking about it.

After my throat got fixed, I wanted to date but she moved on.

I think I’m supposed to be jealous that she is with someone? But I don’t feel that emotion.

I don’t feel jealousy about anything. I don’t have such emotions.

But if we do get into a relationship. I would not want those things. I do not want an open relationship.

Since now we are in this situation that’s why I’m not jealous about her being with someone.

I think she must have needs?

Once we are officially together, I would not like it and I would get hurt.

….

I used to get really hurt when she would look at other women.

I just didn’t say it to anyone because I don’t talk about my personal life to anyone.

I had to work on those feelings myself and get out of that myself.

….

I don’t expect anything and then the world put all these hopes in my head.

Now I want to be with her because I know she wants it too.

I was hesitant and not expecting because I know I’m different and I wanted her to be sure and okay with everything about me.

Now I really want it and I can’t think of another reality.