rachana rajan <3

I’m not manipulative.

Everything I have written here is true.

I do not know why people are doubting me but this is how I speak and think.

I am smart, yes.

But I am not at the same time.

I didn’t know a lot of things before like the social norms, how to speak, what to speak.

I didn’t understand situations or people.

Even if I felt things, I didn’t know what I was feeling because I didn’t know the words to those feelings and I didn’t know what exactly was happening as well.

On top of all this there was immense bullshit in my life.

I had a lot of unconditional love because I was a retard. Also, I was crazy because of the torture.

It’s after therapy and educating myself that I started understanding things.

I started working on myself since covid.

After I moved to this house, I changed everything about me. From the way I dressed to my habits and routines.

I was constantly working on myself and I was taking therapy as well.

I’m good at a lot of things since a long time but now that all my questions have been answered and I have learnt a lot of things, I feel really smart.

Also, because I’m no longer crazy and I feel really good in my head. I’m able to be mature and think with clarity.

I’m mostly sad at home because I don’t like living with my parents.

After everything that happened, it’s extremely hard.

I’m just holding on and staying strong and waiting for my money to move out.

Meanwhile, I’m avoiding any kinda conflict with my parents and trying my best to maintain peace and love at home.

I’m just ignoring things.

I have forgiven them and do love and care about them.

But it’s just hard sometimes.

My real personality is who I am on my YouTube.

There is a lot of back story to everything that happens at home, so I am the way I am at home.

Sometimes I do get really upset because I miss Ginny or when I think about things, but I do not show that side to anyone.

Sometimes I don’t feel like talking and I want to be alone and do things alone.