rachana rajan <3

Once I see someone’s true colors and I see the monster inside them.

It’s really hard for me to unsee that depending on the harm and suffering that they caused.

I’m the better judge of whom I keep in my life and whom I don’t after that happens.

Depending on their behaviour and what happens after that.

How they handle that particular conflict.

I see, notice and observe a lot. More than what people realise.

If I’m letting go of someone, it’s because I have noticed a pattern and I have thought about it a lot over the course of the relationship with that person.

I always keep quiet and let it go.

I never hurt anyone and say white lies.

I don’t talk about it unless I’m put in a spot to talk about it. The world makes me speak about it.

I always let things slide and stick it out.

I explode on that person only after they hurt me again and again and again and I cannot take it anymore.

I know for a fact everyone has imperfections and flaws.

I do know that.

I do like a lot people whom I met even after I have seen their intrusive thoughts.

It’s just different from people to people and the experience with each person.

The love, care and efforts that I see, not just what they say.

Anyone can say they love me but I keep people only when I see that love.

I’m not interested in half assed mediocracy as well.

There has been a lot of good people in my life but there hasn’t been any efforts from their end to maintain the friendship, I’m not interested in harbouring one sided shit.

So I let them go.

And there were people who were actually good but we lost touch.

Everyone aren’t bad, I do know that.

Good people do fuck up time to time.

Then there are people who try to force their place and when things don’t go their way, they turn tables.

I’ve seen and experienced a lot of things.

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I value quality over quantity.

I don’t maintain casual friendships.

I do not respond to desperation and force.

I like people who are patient with me and let things happen organically.

When something goes wrong, I want a lot of time to recover and like them again.

If hard conversation and clarification is required, I expect that.

And things like this.

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I have learnt that I should have unconditional love only for my partner, so yeah.

I’m sticking to that.

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