I’m the kinda person who lets a lot of things slide, give the benifit of the doubt and see the good in people.
I continue to love.
I always ask for a clarification before letting go.
But once the damage is irreversible there is no going back from there.
I can go back when there a strong foundation to that relationship and there is something good to hold on to like good memories.
But if there is nothing of that sort, I cannot do it.
Also, if I see efforts, love and care then I can think about it.
Words don’t mean shit.
I need to see it.
If I’m letting someone go it’s because I have not seen that.
I definitely don’t respond to force, control and desperation.
That’s abusive.
When there was nothing good between us, I don’t know why I have to continue speaking about the same shit and dissect it.
I’ve already spoken this multiple times.
My truth isn’t going to change.
Also, not everyone deserves my forgiveness.
I have healed from it, put the burden down and moved past it as well.
I don’t want to go back to BS, so that it can hit me like a wave and disrupt my peace.
I definitely don’t want to go back to it when there is no efforts from that person and I don’t feel or see it with my eyes.
Also, sometimes I just don’t like some people because of the conversation we had or their behaviour.
That’s quite normal.
Not everyone is for everyone.
I do have love and care for everyone as a human being from a distance.
I don’t want to betray myself by caving into the force and pressure of the world and do something I do not want to do.
I definitely can’t fake it as well.