Note.

Honestly I do not know what people want from me.

I don’t know if people think I’m manipulative or they are calling someone else in my life as manipulative.

I do see things.

I’m not being smooth as well.

This is how I think and speak.

And there’s nothing much that I can do about this situation because I’ve done and said everything that I can do and say.

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I’m going to write the things that I deleted again because I don’t know if everyone read them.

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Hugging your so called bestfriend longer than normal amount when you are extremely suicidal because the whole world is torturing you, is not wrong.

But your so called bestfriend asking you if you want to be fingered instead of asking “what happened” like a good friend would, is definitely wrong.

I clearly said to Dhruv that day that I feel shitty and I’m happy to meet a friend because all I’ve been doing is dating.

I repeated it two times.

He is a disgusting boy with a mind full of filthy perverted bullshit.

He looks as disgusting as his mind.

I’m not interested in anything to do with him.

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I’m not deprived of physical intimacy.

I was a serial dater.

I’ve dated a lot casually since 2019.

I’ve met a lot of men who were interested in me after it ended with Ginny too.

I did things with some of them because I was fucked and wanted to numb my pain.

I was extremely heartbroken and suicidal.

(You check my last year youtube video where I’m saying that I relate to Magnolia in Magnolia Parks.

She does the same thing. I didn’t say a detailed why in that video. But now you know.

I’m speaking the truth.)

If I want it I can easily and effortlessly get it.

I don’t need anything from these disgusting people who are blaming me.

I don’t know what they think they are.

They are just bitter because I spoke the truth about them, so they are turning the table.

It’s super convenient for them because I’m different and because of my past misunderstandings.

These people aren’t my type and I don’t find them even remotely attractive.

Even Draco.

I don’t like him in any way. I have never found him attractive in my life.

He didn’t have a problem with me when I was doormat and under his foot.

He started having a problem only after I changed and started talking back.

He always has an extremely constipated and angry face.

I don’t like him in any way.

Dhruv’s face looks like shit.

Even Winni, I don’t find anything attractive about her.

They are blaming me for no reason and speaking lies, so I’m retaliating that’s it.

I have a standard and my type when it comes to my romantic liking.

These people don’t even come close.

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