rachana rajan <3

I do think about things from every perspective and POVs.

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I do understand where Winni is coming from.

When I was her age, I used to get attached to everyone who spoke to me and called them my bestfriend too.

Now that I’m older and I have this experience of people not being permanent.

I don’t really get attached like that to everyone I speak to.

I feel it’s her age because I was like her in that age.

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I might understand the misunderstandings with Dhruv too.

It’s because of his age probably that things turned out rubbish.

He is in college after all.

I think I should have known better and I should have been mindful.

But I didn’t have any such thoughts in my heart and my intentions were clear so I never imagined all this would happen.

He needs to work on himself some more and also, I feel after he grows up and has more experiences in life.

He will automatically grow up and change.

Now that I know what I need to be mindful about, I have changed because of that experience too and learnt what I should avoid.

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The thing is, with every person we meet, there are good conversations and bad conversations.

When the bad is more, it overpowers the good and the good tends to get clouded and tinted with bad.

That’s when relationships break and we tend to let go.

You can’t force in such situations because when you force, the person tends to move further away.

You need give it time and put efforts if you care and keep putting efforts based on how much you care.

Your efforts might pay off if it is meant to be.

Otherwise you can be satisfied in knowing that atleast you tried and did your best.

And you can let go in peace.

If you don’t care enough.

You can sit with it and wallow for a while but you need to know and understand when the relationship has run it’s course.

Let go and start a new chapter.

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Please stop obsessing and forcing on forgiveness.

Focus on healing.

You can put the burden down and move on without forgiving because it is subjective.

It will happen when it has to happen organically some day.

You don’t really have to force yourself to forgive if you don’t feel like it.

Don’t put that pressure on yourself and beat yourself up.

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If you have wronged someone. You don’t have to carry that with you forever.

If it didn’t cause any major repercussions.

Just understand that you didn’t know it will turn out this way when you made that mistake. You didn’t think through about the consequences.

You are not defined by your mistakes.

You need to forgive yourself before anyone else forgives you.

You are a good person who made bad choices. People do fuck up sometimes.

We are not good in everyone’s story.

To some we are the hero and some remember us as the bad guy and some as someone else.

So many of them are in different universes and we know nothing about them.

You only know you well. So first and foremost love yourself and forgive yourself.

You know how much you’ve grown and how far you’ve come.

You know all the changes in you and how much you are trying.

Give yourself more credit for how far you’ve come and how strong you are.

If you care about the person you have wronged, reach out and make it right.

If you think that’s not in your best interest. Don’t wait for forgiveness from them.

Forgiveness is so overrated.

You need to learn from your mistakes and change.

And keep doing you but it’s you 2.0.

Like an upgraded and better you.