I didn’t know to hate before, I loved everyone unconditionally.
I think that’s because I didn’t have an understanding about this world.
No matter how many times people hurt me or did me wrong. I stayed and continued loving everyone.
I called everyone my friend and continued loving them.
I got betrayed badly so many times.
But after I grew up and started understanding things.
I no longer love everyone unconditionally.
I think I should be that way only to my partner.
I do have a lot of love in me though so whenever someone talks to me, I love them, help and keep the conversation going.
That’s just how I am. I’m not pretending to love or anything of that sort.
But when they do me shit and I understand that that’s shit, I stop and I give the shit back.
Mostly I don’t understand it’s shit until some time has passed, because I’m slow and I do not understand social settings and norms.
I take time.
After that I don’t love them. It depends on a lot of things.
Even if I call someone my friend once I realise and understand what happened, I stop. After I reflect on it, I realise that wasn’t friendship.
So I say, we weren’t friends.
Also, from quite sometime now I have stopped giving that label to everyone who speaks to me.
I always speak the truth.
I not afraid to say it as it is.
I always speak to people like how I speak on my YouTube, that’s the real me.
Everyone always likes me and mostly gets attracted to me.
It ain’t my fault.
I don’t get attracted though. They are simply blaming me.
In my mind there’s only been Ginny since I met her.
I have spoken about everything.