rachana rajan <3

This is in response to what I read online.

If you think I’m not nice, that’s fine with me.

I’m not interested in being nice to people who don’t respect me.

I’m a good person, I don’t feel the need to prove it.

You can think whatever you may.

I don’t give a fuck.

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I like and keep people in my life who sit with me in the rain and prove their love.

I have no love for people who treated me like worse than a shit my whole life and start kissing my ass when I’m at the top.

Also, I’m not interested in people who force themselves in my life and say they love me just because I’m shiny.

But their behaviour and actions doesn’t reflect any love and care.

I’m really good at reading people and studying them. I can see right through them.

I know what’s right for me and what’s not.

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Just because I said I don’t like certain people who mistreated me doesnt mean the world has to also say things like, they don’t like me and hurt me on this basis.

I haven’t done anything to deserve this dislike and hurt.

People treated me poorly so I don’t like them, which is quite normal.

Everyone reading this dislike certain people in your life, I’m sure of it.

It is quite normal.

Please stop this stupid shit.

The way I’m behaving is quite normal. stop the hypocrisy please.

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My dislike is justified.

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I have never opened up about anything to Kreacher. We barely spoke about anything.

We just spoke for few minutes couple of times. We never met outside and never connected.

Also, after whatever happened when we were barely friends.

Our inability to understand each other.

The betrayal, sadism, disrespect for my boundaries, the entire drama and trauma.

It’s extremely clear that friendship won’t work between us.

I’m sure she has much more profound and deeper connections and people in her life.

She should nurture that instead of chasing me when it’s only been shit though and throughout.

And the world should stop trying to fix something that’s beyond repair.

I have love and care for everyone as a human being from a distance.

I’ll be happy for her successes and achievements.

But I cannot engage on a personal front with her after the experience that I had which was utterly traumatic and unnecessary, when all I was doing was minding my own business.

After the suffering that I went through when I wasn’t at fault, my behaviour and anger is justified.

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