Today morning mother was trying to make me angry by doing things intentionally.
God only knows why.
I didn’t react though.
I raised my voice little bit and they started preaching, not to shout.
My energy was drained in the morning seeing father’s angry face and mother trying to stab me.
The way I reacted is normal reaction to my parents.
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Everytime I get ready to go out, I start getting scared if father will stare at my body and mother will cross my boundary intentionally and keep stabbing me for a reaction.
They haven’t done it in a while.
But I still get scared when I get ready.
I think as long as I live with them, I will always be scared.
I start getting scared when everything is going good too.
Like whatever they did in the morning.
They have been doing little things since a while now, I just don’t react that’s it.
…..
Everytime someone does something and I react, the world hurts me for the reaction.
I always get hurt twice.
Always.
Even now after saying everything since last two years.
I get hurt twice.
How is it okay when someone hurts me, but it’s not okay when I speak about what really happened and tell my side of the story.
It’s never okay to tell the truth, but it’s completely okay when I get hurt because of someone’s evil.
Also, when the truth finally comes out people call it smooth.
They would have known the truth if they had just “asked me” 10 years ago and 5 years ago and 2 months ago.
I have been repeating the same things since a decade but people kept silencing me and wanting me dead again and again and again.
They never learn from their mistakes.
It’s because people waited so long that they feel it’s smooth. Because my reputation was spoilt all this while.
They are unable to accept that I am infact innocent.
They find it easier to reject the truth and continue to hurt me, instead of accepting the truth that’s staring at them and they know I’m innocent.
WTF man.
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I don’t know what people are waiting for, everything is out in the open.
It’s high time things fell into place.
People are just taking advantage of me now and trying to exploit and hurt me like a lab rat and dissecting me like I’m an alien.
There’s no other reason why this would prolong.
rachana rajan <3 