Note.

I don’t understand why people are obsessed about me so much and every single detail this way.

I did admit that I used to sext men I was talking to and dating.

I was young and naive. It was fun sometimes.

But yeah, sexting is different from real life.

In real life, I don’t like or even feel like having sex, unless I’m in love.

I’ve already taken names of everyone I wanted to have sex with in real life.

I have given a list of all my crushes as well.

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Also, I remember biting Bellatrix’s ears once or twice, yes.

I don’t understand how that is important?

But yeah, I admitted long ago that I did few things to please her.

After whatever happened with Voldemort, I had extreme abandonment issues.

Bellatrix was saying she loves me, so I got attached to her.

I couldn’t end things, even though it was hurting me to the extreme.

She was using me, abusing and harassing me.

I couldn’t leave because of the abandonment issues and I was attached.

Instead, I did things to please her so that I kept getting that love even though it was wrecking me in the process.

I didn’t have an understanding of what was happening or what she was doing because I was a toddler in my mind.

I loved everyone unconditionally back then.

I understood I was assualted and raped after one or one and half years, when I read about it online.

I read this article of rape happening in marriages.

That’s when it made sense and I blocked her.

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