rachana rajan <3

I have never said any book is bad.

I have just mentioned it triggers me and I don’t enjoy it.

Just because I don’t read it, it doesn’t loose it’s value, right?

It’s good on it’s own and everyone have their own preferences.

Also, it used to trigger me because of the life I’ve had.

I’ve had an extremely difficult life and I was in trauma for many years.

It’s not a secret.

So I was sensitive to it back then.

But that doesn’t make the book bad.

Which I clearly stated many times that there’s no such thing as a bad book.

I have clearly stated the reason behind it too.

Also, now I read everything.

So yeah it was all for nothing.

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Also, the make up thing.

I was talking about me, my anxiety and my habit of rubbing my eyes.

I did say it’s bad and I don’t like it.

I like it but I can’t wear it. That’s two different things.

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Even the white color was the same.

I had anxiety towards it in the past and also, all clothes doesn’t suit my face.

Just because some clothes doesn’t suit me or I can’t wear certain things for certain reasons, doesn’t make it bad.

Now I do wear white.

All for nothing again.

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I’m scared of dogs but I don’t dislike them.

I love them.

That’s two different things.

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I don’t understand the whole psychology behind this as to why people fret like this when I state a personal liking and throw it on my face.

I don’t expect anyone to follow me like sheeps.

If you like certain things. That’s wonderful isn’t it?

Difference in opinion is quite normal is it not?

Everyone can’t be the same.

Everyone is different with their own individuality.

I have never criticized or undermined the value of something.

I just say I don’t wear or use or read it for so and so reason, which is quite valid reasons.

But why is everyone getting offended because I did not say it’s bad and pathetic and not worth it. Right?

The value retains irrespective of the fact if I use it or not.

People behave like they are in kindergarten sometimes.

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Also, I removed so many books from my TBR few months ago because I was getting overwhelmed.

I was going through serious shit and I was stuck with one book for months and seeing books on my TBR was overwhelming, so I removed them.

Now that I finished few books, I’ve added everything back again.

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Honestly people are invading in my life too much without giving me space to breathe and going beserak over nothing.

I would be doing things and saying things because of a certain reason or something else totally.

And because everyone is invading so badly and watching so closely.

Somethings might seem like a question mark which is normal. Even if it was someone else in my place.

The world needs to understand this.

Also, give me my space because this is beyond cruel and infuriating.

No one else can survive this shit.

It’s like the movie saw.

But I’ve learnt to navigate it, so I’m existing.

But this needs to stop.

Atleast now that everything is cleared and done.