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I’ve been shaking inside since the incident at McDonald’s.

I have clearly explained everything that happened, so I don’t understand why people are doing this.

This is so twisted and wrong.

I’m a human being.

After the life I’ve had, I don’t deserve this.

That Satan was the one who was lusting on me since day one and I spoke about everything that she did.

And she exaggerated that one innocent incident when she got caught and now I’m being sexually assaulted so badly.

This is happening since september.

And also, since a decade.

I’ve gone through so many sexual assaults my whole life, I don’t really know anymore.

Nor am I able to fight back anymore.

Today I lost my voice after the first incident and started shaking.

I tried to calm down at Starbucks by closing my eyes.

And they gave me a stupid drink and two people did it again when I was already shaking.

I think one person is called Sudha. If I remember correctly.

I tried memorizing their nametag.

I was fucked up during the movie and shaking inside and I buttoned up my cardigan.

While leaving the lady at the reception had my gum.

I kept pointing at the drawer and the man near her spoke about me disrespectfully in hindi.

Instead of saying “unko” he said “isko”.

The lady didn’t hand it to me properly, I guess that was an accident.

I don’t know anymore.

I was literally so fucked.

Except for the cab ride home and the movie and my burger and fries and the bookstore visit.

Everything else was like walking in storm and fire.