Note.

I had anxiety few days ago and I mindlessly removed songs from my playlists.

I was doing it mindlessly.

I wasn’t paying attention.

I tend to open random apps and delete things and clear etc.

I tidy my room and fold my clothes.

This is one of the ways of coping with my anxiety.

I’m like a serial deleter.

I was seeing things online and I think everyone noticed what I did.

I’m so sorry if I hurt anyone by removing those songs.

Please don’t take it personally.

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I’m sorry to the authors too.

I already spoke about my blunders of initial videos when I was a newbie.

I said a lot of things unknowingly. I would have handled things better if I had known the whole world is watching.

According to me there were just 100 or so people viewing my content.

No one said anything to me.

I was copying other youtubers initially when I started.

Most of what I did initially was cause of trauma, anxiety and stupidity.

Now I know better, so I’m careful and make lesser mistakes.

I think people are still paying attention to every single thing.

It’s little difficult to exist this way because I have to speak about every tiny miniscule thing.

I don’t mean to hurt anyone that’s why I’m speaking about it.

But yeah.

I wish I could get some personal space and privacy.

….

Also,

I don’t have money to take care of my needs or do anything for that matter.

I’m waiting for what I asked for.

I don’t understand what exactly is going on.

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