Most of the time, I’m thinking about Ginny or a book I read, movie I watched, songs, ideas or solving something in my head.
Sometimes I remember someone close to me and miss them.
Sometimes I remember something that happened and cry.
Sometimes I’m lowkey angry.
And other emotions too.
These are my priorities and I’m always in my head.
….
It’s not like no one cares about you and your problems.
If people knew what you are going through and your pain, they will care a normal amount.
Because everyone are lost in their own mess, priorities and life.
It’s your loved ones and people close to you that will sit with you and help.
Sometimes even they won’t be available because even they must be dealing with shit.
Or you are a person who does not like to share much.
Then you either turn to a therapist or deal with it yourself.
….
What I’m trying to say is.
People do care.
Because we as humans, love and care about everyone as a human being and care about everyone’s well being and want everyone to be happy.
We lift each other up.
But we can only do it from a distance and even if not from a distance as much as it is possible for us to give considering our own lifes, problems and priorities.
Sometimes it’s might not be possible for us to go out of our way. But we can help as much as possible and be kind.
We should never expect more than this too.
We can and should depend only on our close circle.
What I’m trying to say is,
It’s not really okay to dump trauma on someone other than someone close to you without warning.
People who are professionals and a public figure will listen to you yes, but only in the time allotted where they are available and in a mindspace to listen to you.
Even if it’s someone who is close to you, they will listen to you yes, but they need to be available and in a mindspace to listen.
We cannot impose.
Therapists are willing to listen to you and guide you because that’s their job.
But we should respect their space too and can only say it in the decided session.
You can go to support groups as well. That’s also an option.
But it all comes down to you.
At the end of the day, you are your own bestfriend and you need to find ways to channelize what you are feeling in a healthy way.
Journalling, making art, turning to social media, try to solve your problems yourself etc.
I’m saying this because of what happened to me. I don’t understand why people don’t see the fact that what happened to me was utterly wrong and beyond unjustifiable.
But yeah.
People do care,
Just that everyone has their own priorities and things going on.
You need to respect their space and boundaries is all.
Also,
Since I’m always in my head and minding my own business, I don’t really understand what exactly people want from me and what they want to know.
That’s why I say, please ask me.
rachana rajan <3 