Note.

I live with my family, so I’m not really alone.

Even if we don’t talk most times, their presence is always there in the house.

I play with my nieces whenever I have the energy and stamina.

Otherwise I’m mostly in my room recharging, music or doing something.

When I feel like it’s getting heavy or I feel like speaking to someone, I schedule a session with my therapist.

She is my therapist and not my friend, I’m aware of this. But we have a rapport and I feel comfortable with her.

Also, she went above and beyond her job description to help me initially because I was a mess. She has supported me through and through.

Now it’s manageable.

But yeah, even if she isn’t a friend, I do trust her like a friend.

And I don’t feel the need for a partner and to get married because I’m in love with Ginny.

Because of this reason, I don’t have any needs too. Physical or companionship.

After she told me she loves me last year, everything calmed and the noise vanished.

My life that was going down the rabbit hole took a U turn and drastically improved.

I stopped dating men for company and stopped with the whole serial dating shit.

And I’ve been waiting.

Whenever I step out, I do things alone and come back.

When I have something to say, I say it here or on my YouTube.

The point is that,

I’m not really alone alone as of now.

I’m good. I’m happy and content with how things are.

I don’t feel the need for anything more right now.

And just because I’m not interested to engage with creepy vultures doesn’t make me a lone wolf.

I like socialising, but since people don’t know how to behave around me and the scary experiences that I had, I’m not interested in it as of now.

….

For now I’m waiting for my money because my money is over and waiting for Ginny.

Apart from this, I’m content with my life.