Note.

I’m saying this based on what I saw online.

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I don’t really hit my neices. They are like my own children.

Whatever I did with Aaru is playing.

I pretend like I’m hitting and lightly nudge her and she also does the same and we start playing.

She knows I’m playing.

Also, I play with them only when I have the stamina and energy because they are extremely energetic and heavy to carry.

Sometimes I don’t have the energy or stamina and I like to simply sit in my room and recharge.

I can’t engage with children 247. I don’t have that kinda stamina.

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Sometimes in the night I feel like I’m going to die.

My mouth goes dry and my throat throbs.

I become okay after an hour or something.

Whenever I eat something that doesn’t suit me, same thing happens.

This is the after effects of what happened to my throat.

Also, sometimes my stamina sucks really bad.

I have to sit down.

Sometimes I get extremely anxious and overwhelmed. I have to sit down and close my eyes with my palm to calm down.

For now these are the only problems I have.

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These things aren’t regular and are sometimes but it’s still there.

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