rachana rajan <3

Maybe we have time, maybe we don’t.

No one knows.

I’ve had so many near death experiences these last 2.5 years.

I’ve had them my whole life, but these last few years a lot.

It made me realise anything can happen at any moment, life is so unpredictable.

It made me value and be grateful for what I have and my life.

It made me realise what’s truly important in life.

Ginny, my family and close friends.

When I was on my death bed I didn’t think about my past problems, failures, rejection, material things, success etc.

It didn’t matter or even cross my mind.

I was just thinking about Ginny and things I wanted to say to my family.

I kept crying and begging God to keep me alive because I wanted to be with Ginny.

I wasn’t really living before I met Ginny.

So before meeting her I would close my eyes and cry, during those incidents. I use to just accept.

We like to hope that we have time and we’ll take that trip, meet that friend, watch that movie, hug the person we love forever and so many other things.

It’s this hope that keeps us going.

I don’t want to give you the worst case scenarios by saying our time is limited. I’m sorry that wasn’t my intention.

I’m trying to say, no one knows.

I’m trying to bring you to the present moment and now.

I hope I will live till my hair turns grey and I get that blue highlight.

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