How many times will I be taunted about the same thing over and over again in my books?
By using words flick, cat, gawk, stare, unabashedly, smooth?
How many times?
Even after clarifying and speaking about every damn thing.
How long will this go on for?
Why is no one taunting my family and friends of past for staring at my body, chest and ass to compliment my clothes.
Why is no one monitoring them like a lab rat?
Why?
So many women and most of the men, stare at my cleavage and legs whenever I step out with a creepy expression.
Like literally gawk.
If I start saying who all, a lot of people will be in trouble.
Why is no one questioning and monitoring them?
Torture them all and see how they react to torture.
And if their eyes become like a cat.
Torture them inhumanly some more by calling them cat throughout their lives and keep questioning them till they die.
Why aren’t you doing that?
Torture a mute person by doing the same things that was done to me.
See how they react.
Go on.
Whoever is responsible for this is so invested in torturing me even after explaining everything.
Go out on the street and conduct a social experiment on everyone.
Go on.
Did you question why Peter Pettigrew was gawking at my thighs for full 5 seconds?
Whatever I did was within context and less than a fraction of second to check the color.
Did you question why Dhruv stares at my body with his mouth open?
These are called gawking fyi.
Whatever I did was a reaction and contextual.
….
I have already spoken about everything.
What more is expected from me?
Even after clarifying and speaking about everything that happened.
Why is this still going on?
Because I’m not dead?
Is that what this is?
Does someone want to answer me and give an explanation for why I’m still taunted this way.
Because I’ve had enough.
I’ve had enough and the limit was crossed more than a decade ago.
I don’t remember a single day that I wasn’t suicidal.
rachana rajan <3 