rachana rajan <3

When I joined Shaadi.com initially 3 years ago,

I started receiving requests from profiles with pictures of really good looking men.

But when I spoke to them, I found out that they were fake profiles.

There were so many like this.

Back then, men weren’t interested in me like how they are now.

That’s when I received a request from Ginny.

As you know, she looks really good.

So I thought, oh it’s a fake profile again and ignored it.

After couple of months, I saw Ginny again on bumble and we matched.

There were so many fake profiles on bumble too.

So initially I had my doubt, because I couldn’t believe someone who looks so good was interested in me.

So I asked her to call me on video and after seeing her, I couldn’t believe she was actually interested in me.

We spoke on call and texted for 2 weeks and she came to meet me.

I fell in love with her when I saw her.

I stopped speaking to all other men.

Later I changed my dressing sense.

I started getting a lot of attention from my male friends after that.

I would speak to them because they were my friends, but I wasn’t interested.

I was in love with Ginny.

I had so many problems.

I didn’t have privacy to speak on call because of parents and later she stopped calling.

We would speak all the time on text.

We met couple of times.

She was on leave for a week during her birthday and we spoke continuously and got really really close.

I had too many problems in my life and I was a mess. I was little crazy too, as you know.

We were mostly friends.

She asked me why I didn’t accept her request on shaadi, I didn’t know what to say so I lied to her.

The last time we met, she asked me if I can keep it casual and I said no because I love her.

That was the first time I said that to her.

She said that she has a crush on me indirectly, but I didn’t understand it at that time.

I was stupid.

She friendzoned me after coming back home.

I was so irritated. I thought she was playing me, that’s why I sent her shake it off.

I was really stupid and I didn’t understand things.

I was immature and I didn’t know anything about relationships and dating back then.

I started speaking to other men and for some reason I started getting too much attention.

Maybe it’s because I was hot.

I met a guy who was really good. We kissed and he wanted to date and take it further, but I just couldn’t say yes.

Sid suddenly was way too interested in me and asked me to marry him, I said no.

I couldn’t stop thinking about Ginny.

Later, I realised Ginny has a crush on me and that’s what she said that day and I realised she is in love with me.

I’m a bit slow.

I immediately texted her.

She said she is going to Canada.

I begged her to meet me, but she couldn’t.

She said she doesn’t love me.

I couldn’t handle it and I dated a lot of men.

I kissed couple of them but I wasn’t interested in any of them.

I kept thinking about Ginny.

My life was a mess and going down the rabbit hole.

I kept texting Ginny saying I miss her.

I got tonsils and I was being tortured inhumanly by parents and everyone.

I was on the verge of dying.

That’s when Ginny said she is in love with me.

But she said she’s engaged.

I was happy she is in love with me. I stopped dating and also, I was sick and going to die.

I met few people. I was looking for friends but men just can’t keep it platonic.

I went on a date just once to check if I can kiss, I tried to but I realised I couldn’t.

I was going to die.

In the middle of all this I had a crush on krishna for a day or two.

I didn’t die. My doctor saved me.

I started feeling better day by day.

I met 2-3 people to ask if they want to be friends but they didn’t.

That’s why I met Deepak GS, but he forced me to marry him. I said no.

I started feeling much better. I could eat everything again.

I texted Ginny again.

She said she’s getting married. I said I’m feeling better.

She wanted to speak after a month.

That’s when I got the rose tattoo.

I texted after a month, she asked me to move on.

And the world spoke to her.

Everything worked out and shit happened.

And I was going to die.

But I didn’t.

I fought relentlessly.

Now I’m fine again and I’m waiting.

She is the star crossed love of my life.

She liked me and saw me before anyone else.

Now I’m waiting and everyone are saying that the stars have aligned and I’m just waiting.