Note.

I picked up the invisible life of Addie from where I left off.

I don’t understand why I’m reminded of the same thing over and over and over again in books.

I do understand that I’m being taunted by words like slide, smooth, grey, cat, pleasure, promise, biting of lips, tracing freckles, lie, paved etc.

I was taunted in emily henry’s newsletter too where she mentioned she is reading lies of someone.

It’s becoming too much to take because I have already spoken about everything and clarified every minute thing word by word.

I don’t understand what more do people want from me?

I cannot handle this anymore than this.

I’m extremely suicidal and I don’t even have money to talk to my therapist and I’m made to wait this way and continuously taunted in books.

Even after speaking about everything.

What kinda cruelity and hell is this?

I’m a human being and there’s only so much a person can handle and the limit was crossed a decade ago.

What is expected from me?

The cruelity that I’m facing just because I’m bisexual even after explaining and speaking about everything is beyond cruel.

After the life I’ve had, this is beyond cruel and inhuman.

I wasn’t interested in her at all. I’ve said everything.

She was forcing herself in my life and lusting like a unstable vulture.

I have not made any promises at all.

She forced me to message her even though I was clear that I was not interested to speak.

She was forcing, lusting and projecting.

I did not bite my lips in her presence.

I started biting my lips because of the scrutiny that started 5 months ago.

She is a liar.

It’s extremely clear she is a liar because of the lie she said 6 months ago.

I have spoken about everything since then, every minute detail and given valid proofs that I was not interested in any way.

She is beneath my standards and not my type. She is filthy and disgusting and creepy and psychotic.

Also, I’m straight since a long time and also most importantly, I’m not interested in women in real life.

I don’t understand why this is prolonging and why I’m made to repeat the same thing over and over again.

She looks like a filthy psycho aunty.

She was forcing me.

I have spoken about everything multiple times since August.

This is insanity.

I don’t deserve this even after speaking about everything.