There was a person who was following me on Instagram.
His name is susheer zindage or something.
He is from my college so I said hey.
He sent me flirty messages. So I blocked him.
Because that was the time when I was speaking to Ginny.
After Ginny left to Canada, during my serial dating phase I unblocked him.
We started speaking. He said he finds me really hot. I found him attractive too.
I didn’t have any feelings or anything.
We were planning to meet but we didn’t meet because he said I’m too innocent. The only I wanted to do was kiss and cuddle.
He wanted more.
We were friends for a while then we fell out.
Last year he messaged me asking if I wanted to meet and cuddle.
I said no because I wasn’t interested in kissing anyone after Ginny said she loves me.
If I was deprived of physical intimacy I would have met him.
But I said no.
Because I’m not deprived of physical intimacy.
…
When Sid and I stopped speaking, the last thing I said to him was, “I love you as my friend and I’ll miss you”
He said, “I’m sorry rach, I really like you too as a person but I’m attracted to you, so we can’t be friends”
After that we stopped speaking.
He has never blamed me for saying that I love him as my friend or accused me for having feelings for him.
He hasn’t done any toxic shit like that.
We even kissed long back fyi.
He was a really good friend and a good person.
He is open minded like me.
This is how it should be, you know?
We both took a step back after that.
…
Shusheer was also not toxic and really chill kinda person.
We both took a step back after that conversation.
…
You can check with them.
…
I didn’t place any sexual meaning behind whatever my ENT doctor said and did because my mind is clear.
She teased me and tapped my cheek.
I don’t place any sexual meaning whenever my friends and family look at my chest and body contextually and say they love my clothes.
Because my mind is clear.
I’ve had a social life and I have tons of experience speaking to human beings and socializing.
If someone is deprived of these experiences and is closed minded and filthy minded.
And projecting, manipulating and lying.
And extremely toxic and doesn’t know the basic etiquette and mannerism and code of conduct.
It’s not my fault.
…
rachana rajan <3 