I had so much anger inside me since when I got to know about the betrayal.
I had negative thoughts that I don’t want to speak into existence.
I poured my heart out again, went out for walks and listened to my angry playlist.
I kept biting the inner part of my lips to control my anger and the scrutiny.
Now there’s a permanent dent.
The world helped too.
My anger is healed mostly and my health has improved too.
I feel I should let go of all this anger now and of what happened.
I wanted to move on long ago, but there was so much shit that needed to be sorted.
Now I think I can move on?
I feel verbally abusing father was wrong but he started it each time.
Whatever he did was wrong and I reacted.
He apologized.
So I think I should just let it go.
He’s not staring too.
He’s changed drastically.
My parents are old now. So I keep forgiving them.
It’s hard at times but I feel once I move out I would be able to love and appreciate them better.
Also, I want to give them a comfortable life in their old age.
So hoping I get my money soon, so that I can do it.
I want to take mother to the hospital too.
I don’t know what exactly I’m waiting for.
Everything I’ve said here is the truth and I’ve given proofs for whatever I can think of.
There’s literally nothing left for me to say and do.
I’ve recounted everything from the best of my memory.