Note.

Before I didn’t have the ability to understand lying, manipulations, betrayal, sexual assault, rape, gaslighting etc.

I didn’t know anything about the world.

I loved everything and everyone platonically.

I thought everyone are good.

My mind was not developed and I had the understanding of a toddler.

I couldn’t speak as well.

I felt things but didn’t know the words for those feelings.

Most of the time I didn’t know what was happening around me.

I didn’t know the code of conduct and social skills. I was extremely awkward, clumsy and different.

I was reacting to the abnormal amount of torture that was being inflicted on me.

I started learning everything couple of years ago when covid started.

Through books, therapy, music, movies and life experiences.

Now I know and understand things and I know how to speak as well.

Hence now finally the truth is also out.

The torture has stopped and my soul is at peace.

I have learnt the skills to navigate this weird situation that I’m in as well.

For now I’m waiting for what I asked for and to get out of this double life situation.

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