When I met Nishant in 2023 june, we were speaking about our exes and I said to him Ginny was really good.
He raised his eyebrow and made an expression like “really?”
I kinda liked Nishant, he was really cute.
I didn’t have any feelings.
I was trying to be present and see if I can fall in love again.
We were speaking.
Nishant was doing night shift and he gave me so much anxiety.
That’s when Ginny said she loves me.
After that I just couldn’t and we phased out.
I guess he didn’t like me either because he made a face when I spoke about Ginny and I was posting about her on Instagram.
He was a good person though.
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I met Abhith on a date around Feb 2023. I think it was around that time.
During my serial dating phase.
I kinda liked him. He was fucking hot and we had amazing rapport on the phone.
When I saw him, we immediately kissed because of the rapport.
The first date was good.
I asked him if he wanted to hang out and watch TV on the weekend.
I explicitly said to him 2 times, “I don’t want to have sex. Just hang out.”
He agreed.
So we met at 5 star hotel in the afternoon.
I thought we would speak and just hang out.
He started kissing me and he immediately went to put his dick in me.
I said, “What are you doing, no”
He said, “why”
I said, “No”
Then added, “You’re not even wearing a condom”
He said okay.
Later we spoke for a while and watched TV.
He got up and said he’s going out.
He came back and started kissing me and then he showed me condoms.
I said, “Oh you went out for this?”
He said, “It’s so difficult to find here.”
I said, “You can just order from Instamart if you need it”
(I was educating him)
He put the condom on and went to have sex.
My brain froze for a minute and my voice didn’t come out.
After one minute I started screaming, “No no no no no”
He immediately stopped and went to the loo.
He came back and said that he’s leaving after eating.
I said, “I’m leaving now.”
He said, “Why did you say you’ll get it in Instamart”
I said, “I’ll think about it on my way home”
I wore my clothes and left.
I came back home and messaged him.
“I’m sorry I have to be in love to have sex”
He replied, “I’m sorry let’s go our separate ways”
And it ended.
He is fucking hot and filthy rich btw.
His family is affluent.
We had chemistry too.
If I wanted those things I would have dated him and maybe we’ll still be together.
But I didn’t.
Because I couldn’t love anyone after Ginny.
rachana rajan <3 