Note.

Honestly,

I don’t even know what Will has and doesn’t have.

The entire time we were best friends, we have never spoken about money and wealth.

We were really close for a few years and I was in love with him during that time.

Unpopular opinion,

When I’m dating,

I like to go with the flow.

Because unless I know the person really well, how can I decide if I want to marry him or not.

I’m okay without marriage, so unless I get a fuck yes feeling, it’s a no.

To get a fuck yes feeling, I have to know him.

To know him, I need to date and speak for a certain period of time.

And I cannot commit because I don’t know how that’ll go.

I don’t know if this makes me a red flag but this is how I function..

Also,

At this point, I’m okay with anything.

If Ginny wants to marry or not, live with me or not, she wants a label or not.

I miss her so damn much.

All I know is, I want to see her and sit on her lap.

That’s all.

I’m okay with anything she wants.

Because when I was speaking to all those amazing men I met after her,

I kept thinking I’d rather have a labeless relationship with Ginny than marry these people.

It never felt right.

So yeah.

That’s how I knew I’m not going to fall in love again.

And I’ve been waiting ever since.

I’m okay with literally anything.

I just want to see her again.