Note.

I’ve been getting negative thoughts since I was betrayed.

Everytime I was betrayed in the past I’ve had negative thoughts.

I feel like stamping them and slapping and hitting and pushing them from the edge of the cliff.

etc.

But I don’t materialize my negative thoughts.

I control my anger and try to heal it.

I channelize it by writing about it, I go out for walks, listen to music, take a shower, talk to my therapist etc.

I press my lips together and bite the inside of my lips to control my anger because whatever is happening is happening indirectly.

I haven’t been speaking properly to my therapist since January because I don’t have money.

I’ve been dealing with it alone.

I’m doing my best to.

And waiting.