Note.

Sometimes when I see father,

the trauma of all the sexual assaults washes over me and engulfs me.

As long as I’m in this house in close proximity with him, the trauma will resurface and remain.

Every time he looks at me, I relapse and try to push down the pain and suffering and be normal.

I need a lot of distance from that man.

I need a lot of distance to forget everything.

Also to appreciate him in his old age.

I don’t really have any complaints with mother because she isn’t doing anything to trouble me these days.

Mother is always easy to be with.