My close circle is sacred.
It’s a temple of trust, safety, love and care.
Friend is a valuable word for me.
I don’t go around throwing it away like candy during halloween.
There should be connection and rapport.
It takes a lot of time, efforts, actions and shared experiences to call someone a friend.
A lot of time.
A lot.
I need to see hard proof.
There are some people out there who are haters in a white cardigan.
The shade is so subtle that you’ll miss it.
I don’t trust easily.
Also,
I’m not looking for friendship.
I’m happy and content with my life.
I want a quiet life with Ginny.
I’m not looking for friendship even from my Instagram following.
I’m terrified to speak to celebrities.
I’m not good at speaking and I get anxious.
Also, the cultural differences.
I don’t know if we’ll understand each other.
I have so many thoughts like these.
So I’m scared.
I’m just a simple and quirky person somewhere in the middle of this world.
I’m a friend to my community only on my public platforms.
If I see something online, I will definitely help you on my public platforms.
If I have something of value to add to the world, I will definitely do it on my public platforms.
This is the most and best that I can do.
I’m sorry.
It’s not humanly possible for me to be friends with everyone.
I do see things online and I love you all for it.
I’m forever grateful for everything.
I’m grateful for all the support and help.
I’m not like other public figures.
I have sooooo many problems.
Sometimes I’m mute.
My voice doesn’t come out no matter how much I try.
Especially when I’m in danger.
Sometimes I forget to speak.
I’m extremely anxious sometimes.
I’m also slow. I take time to understand things.
I get tired easily. My stamina sucks.
I cannot cook or do any physical tasks.
I’m not capable of it.
I cannot speak in a group setting. I get anxious and I start sweating and I might even faint.
I find it extremely exhausting to speak.
Speaking is not my forte.
I learnt how to speak a few years back so I’m not good at it.
I learnt it myself.
I prefer writing than speaking.
I can write effortlessly.
I learnt to write myself by writing here.
I made a lot of mistakes initially and now I can do it effortlessly.
I have a lot of problems like these.
I have my limitations.
Hence I have strong boundaries.
My boundaries are non-negotiable.
On a personal front I’m not your friend.
I’m a public figure.
On a personal front, I have my own close circle of family and friends.
Please be mindful of the fact that I’m a public figure.
Everyone knows me, but I don’t know you.
To me you’re a stranger.
So you have to respect my boundaries.
If you don’t expect something from Taylor Swift or Michael Jackson, you cannot expect it from me.
I expect respect and convention.
You cannot encroach on my space and boundaries and force friendship with me.
If you encroach my space and boundaries that makes you a creepy fan.
If you do it in the name of love, I have to get a restraining order.
You cannot gaslight me, you cannot sexually assault me, you cannot try to lure me, you cannot stalk me, you cannot misbehave.
Please keep it platonic.
And please behave.
If there’s any kinda shady unethical behaviour from anyone,
I’m going to be extremely vocal about it.
I want justice for every single thing that happened to me.
I’m waiting for this to end.
I want to know what happened to everyone who did me wrong,
so that I can get my closure and satisfaction for what I had to endure because of them.
Also,
I’m teaching the world how to treat me.
I’m setting an example that you cannot cross my boundaries or lie about me.
There’s going to be severe consequences even with me.
I’m fighting for my truth, respect and convention.
I want justice.
I’ve had an extremely difficult life so far.
Hence I want a quiet life with Ginny. Away from the hustle bustle.
I will be creating my retirement life content once this is over and dusted.
I’m just waiting.
I miss Ginny so much. I keep crying thinking about her.
rachana rajan <3 