I saw that aggressive stalker at first sitting on the park bench at night in 2023.
He smiled at me and I casually smiled back.
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After a few days, I was going out for a walk but it was raining.
When I was getting back home, I saw that man near the lift going to go for a walk.
I said to him, “it’s raining, you can’t walk.”
He said okay.
We asked each other’s names and which apartment we live in.
I said bye and came back home.
After that I forgot about the whole incident.
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One day when I was walking, that man stopped me and started speaking to me.
We spoke for 2 minutes.
He told me about his daughters and he asked me to go abroad.
After that he asked me what time I come out for a walk.
I didn’t give an answer and came home.
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After that I realised that man intentionally started coming out for walks exactly when I would go out.
And he would intentionally stand in front of me and start forcing conversations.
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I was going out for walks to listen to podcasts and music.
I wasn’t interested in speaking to anyone.
I wasn’t looking for friendship with anyone.
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He stalked me again and he started dumping unsolicited advices about my youtube.
He asked me to make travel videos.
He said no one is interested in my daily vlogs.
He said people only click on my videos because I post revealing youtube thumbnails.
He also spoke about how people smile and don’t smile at him on a daily basis.
And started cribbing about his wife.
I excused myself and came back home.
I wasn’t interested in engaging with him.
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When he stalked me again, I asked him if he knew my father.
I felt he was desperate for friendship and I wasn’t interested in being friends.
I felt it would be better if he speaks to someone his age like my parents.
I invited him home and started playing with my niece.
He started speaking to father and mother.
He dumped unsolicited advices on father and mother as well and started cribbing about his wife.
My parents were waiting for him to leave because even they weren’t interested in engaging with him.
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The next time he stalked me.
He started dumping unsolicited advices again.
He started speaking about faking happiness everyday and other outdated advices.
He said to me that he supports the war in gaza and he said he doesn’t care if people close to him dies.
After that he said he wishes that I would just die.
Because it’s better to die than suffer.
I got up and said to him, “I’m sorry this is not working, our values don’t match”
And I came back home.
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I was extremely fucked because he asked me to die when I was suffering.
I spoke to mother and she said, go to his house and say you are not looking for friendship right now.
I went to his house to convey I’m not in a mindspace for friendship.
But no one opened the door.
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After that I didn’t not see him again and completely forgot about him.
TO BE CONTINUED.
rachana rajan <3 