rachana rajan <3

I don’t get into a relationship easily.

I take time to trust and feel ready.

I go with the flow.

I try to build the connection and trust.

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Most of the men that I rejected.

I said no after the first meeting itself.

Or the first call/video call.

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I’ve already spoken about it.

When I’m on a date with someone, I kinda study them silently.

I notice patterns,

Do I like the way they speak? do I feel comfortable in their presence and feel like opening up to them? do I like how they think? am I attracted to this person enough to have sex with them? etc.

Most importantly, I try to imagine a future with them.

Do I see myself living with this person?

Sharing a house, a bedroom, a bed, my blanket, kitchen, bathroom, etc for the rest of my life.

Do I see a future with them?

Is this person easy to speak to, how does this person handle problems, conflicts, misunderstandings, failure, anger etc.

Is he my friend?

I notice their flaws and think,

Am I okay with their flaws or do I feel like driving off a cliff?

These are a few things that run on my mind when I study them.