rachana rajan <3

In retrospect, I think Dhruv was in love with me.

I’m not sure though.

I was so lost in my head thinking about Ginny.

I was also extremely suicidal.

I wasn’t paying much attention.

I shouldn’t have said I love you to him.

I have a habit of saying it to all my friends.

All my friends say it to me too.

I wasn’t really thinking properly.

I was so fucking suicidal and my throat was fucked.

I was happy to meet a friend.

The only people I was meeting were men from dating apps.

When I finally saw a friend. I was so relieved. I hugged him and cried.

But he was attracted to me.

God.

Also,

I was so lost in my problems.

My throat was fucked, my parents were continuously torturing me without mercy, I was going through heartbreak, I was extremely suicidal, the world was torturing me.

I was focused on my goal to finish writing.

I wasn’t paying much attention to what was happening around me.

I kinda didn’t realise that Taylor Swift wrote a song about me either.

I was so fucking lost.

I had no time to process anything.

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Now finally things have settled.

So I’m able to work through my emotions and process them.