Note.

You can listen to my calls with my therapist since we started speaking in 2023.

I have made numerous mistakes.

Even on my youtube.

Listen to everything again.

I was being tortured inhumanly.

Also to add to that.

Speaking is not my forte.

Because I learnt how to speak a couple of years back.

So I’m not good at it.

I’m always confused about the words to use and how to form sentences.

I don’t know how to write as well.

Whatever I know now. I learnt it by myself.

I’m always confused between.

“in” and “on”

“from” and “since”

“on” and “at”

Etc.

Same way.

“Act” and “behave”

No one taught me how to speak and write.

I learnt it by myself.

Hence the confusion.

I find speaking extremely exhausting.

On top of it.

When I’m being tortured inhumanly.

I struggle a lot.

The call in which I used the word “act”. I immediately say “not act sorry, behave”.

Because I’m always confused between those two words.

I don’t remember the context in which I used it.

If you listen to the call with my therapist and my youtube videos from the beginning.

You can clearly notice the pattern.

I was just doing my best.

Since I started telling my side of the story.

It was beyond difficult.

I was laser focused on my goal to finish writing.

You can observe that, no matter what happened.

I did not stop writing.

Because only I knew the truth and I was desperate to say it.