Note.

Lockhart was the first person who called me beautiful and the first person I had feelings for.

No man has ever called me that before.

Men never saw me growing up.

I was always invisible.

They spoke to me because they wanted access to my girl friends.

Otherwise no one cared.

So when Lockhart called me beautiful.

I fell for him.

Also, we were good friends.

It wasn’t love though.

It felt like it.

But it wasn’t.

He did what all men in my life did.

He threw me under the bus and pursued my friend.

After going through hell, one day I forgot that he existed.

Will was my first love.

He was also my best friend.

But he didn’t choose me.

He broke my heart.

It’s fine because I wasn’t ready back then.

My life was in shambles.

I wouldn’t have married me either.

It took a long time to move on.

Then I met Ginny.

And my life was changed for good.

To quote Nicola Yoon,

“In the beginning there was nothing and then there was everything.”