rachana rajan <3

I don’t know why father was staring at my body in the past.

I don’t know if he wanted me dead.

Or it’s because he’s from the boomer generation.

Or if he really did sexually assault me.

I don’t know his intentions.

But because of whatever he did.

I have that trauma even now.

I’m unable to get past it.

That’s why I don’t want to wear shorts at home.

Right now things are fine with him.

I feel it’s better to dress the way I want to after I move out.

I don’t feel comfortable wearing it at home.

I still have the residual trauma.