(from Harry’s POV)
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Harry takes his earphones and goes out to the park in the midst of the betrayal because he couldn’t cry at home and Lily Potter follows him and tells him he is mentally sick that’s why he is crying.
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Harry keeps saying all he needs is a friend to talk to and he ll be fine and everyone blames his mind and doubts his intentions behind friendship and calls it sexual.
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Harry reaches out to his brother’s wife in the middle of the betrayal for help and she tells him, his brother and her are busy and he should not call them and he will never get a job anywhere because his exit was not good at Askaban.
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Harry just wants the world to leave him alone because he didn’t really do anything and he was loosing Ginny.
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Harry cries hard because Ginny ended things and Lily Potter comes to the room and doesn’t let him to even cry and forces him to eat.
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Harry tries to just sit somewhere with his thoughts so that he can make peace with what happened but everyone keeps hurting him again and again.
Dudley keeps bullying him.
Voices,
“Ginny wouldn’t have spoken to you if she had met you in real life and not on dating app because you’re ugly.”
“you are a psychopath who has schizophrenia”
“your house isn’t spacious.”
“anyone can write what happened to them, you aren’t good at writing.”
“you are jealous.”
“you need therapy for crying about someone who doesn’t care. you are the red flag.”
“you have no talent to do YouTube.”
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Harry has tonsils and he feels like he is going to die but everyone around him blames his mind and calls a psychiatrist. Harry’s family keeps tormenting him and tells him, his throat is fucked because he didn’t take his psychiatric meds.
Harry keeps repeating it’s not his mind but it’s his throat that’s the problem, but no one hears him.
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Harry is at his peak of tonsils and has no energy to get up from bed. Lily and James Potter keeps intentionally triggering him so that he gets a panic attack to prove to the world he has schizophrenia. Harry doesn’t even have the voice to speak up.
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Harry is mentally fucked because of the harassment and his throat is also fucked. He goes to the hospital and James Potter tells BS to the doctor and the doctor terms it psychosis, even though he was fine and it was just a normal reaction to harassment.
Harry sits at the park bench and the lady with her daughter immediately leaves.
Harry sits in the restaurant and asks someone for the time and they immediately get up and leave.
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The world destroyed Harry’s life in the name of help and when he rebuilt it after years of struggling, the world took away the only good thing left in Harry’s life.
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Harry is stuck in his dead end job loosing his self respect and wants to be a YouTuber, but the world doesn’t give him credit for his videos even though everyone are watching.
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Harry keeps reacting to his past traumas and can’t live with James and Lily anymore, even though nothing is wrong now and wants to move out, but he doesn’t have the money.
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God, “I’m here with you.”
rachana rajan <3 