My parents are never going to change. Their behaviour is engrained in them.
The other day father triggered me and I stood up for myself and he said “stop barking”.
He is never going to change.
I confronted him and he denied what he said, like he has denied everything he has done to me my whole life.
My mother manipulated the whole thing and villanized me and created drama and rasam out of the situation.
I shouted at them, yes.
After everything I’ve been through my whole fucking life, shouting is normal.
My mother gaslights herself into believing father is a saint. She ignores the toxic and abuse and makes him comfortable.
Mother is toxic and abusive herself.
She started emotional blackmailing saying when they die I’ll be alone and I’ll cry everyday.
I don’t want them to die. I just want space and distance.
It completely drained me and I couldn’t do anything yesterday.
Even today I’m not okay.
I just want to place some distance between me and my family.
I’m suffering. I’m not able to function half the time.
The worst part is I’ve already made the money to get out of this situation.
Please just give me my money.
I don’t know what I’m waiting for.
rachana rajan <3 