rachana rajan <3

Lockhart(aka Anurag Alva) didn’t come between mine and Lucius’s(aka Nida Sebha) friendship, that’s false information.

Lucius was never a friend. I was too stupid to understand that.

Lucius used to meet me only and only if he needed something from me.

He was a negative emotional vampire who would text me only when he was traumatized by his family and was suicidal or going through a break up to dump his trauma.

He said he does that because I’m the only one who replies to his messages.

Rest of the time, there was absolutely nothing.

Lucius knew that I was normal and about the rape. I told him everything. I even said everything about Lockhart and that I loved him.

After I introduced them, Lucius told me he likes Lockhart.

When I went to his house, he told me he likes Lockhart because he is successful and he is pursuing Lockhart.

Then when the world got involved he created immense bullshit and misunderstanding to make it look like I’m doubting him and made me look like a psycho.

Lucius kept talking about Lockhart and when I asked him if they were speaking, he would start shouting saying I’m not talking to him.

He did everything in his power to remove me from the picture.

My so called friends at that time kept asking me to let Lucius have Lockhart because Lucius is pretty and I’m creepy.

They also said I’m wrong in doubting Lucius because he is innocent.

They kept saying Lockhart never liked me and it was my delusion.

Lucius told Lockhart that I was seeing him as a rebound guy, when Lucius knows clearly that Bellatrix was a rapist.

Lucius continuously tried bringing me down and did everything to remove me from Lockhart’s life.

And the world helped him.

Everyone wanted me dead and there was so much harassment.

Whenever Lucius would talk to me after that, he would directly say he wants to meet me and he is missing me but indirectly hurt me brutally.

I kept abusing him.

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Meanwhile Lockhart and I were dating for a year.

Lockhart met me twice during that time. Both the times he asked me to kiss him and I didn’t, so he stopped meeting me.

He used to tell me he likes me and would sext me all the time and send hearts etc.

He even said while texting him we would talk about kissing etc but I don’t kiss him when we meet.

After Lucius came into the picture, Lockhart put me under the bus and said we never dated and there was nothing there.

Suddenly out of the bloom when I was feeling suicidal because of the harassments Lockhart asked me to meet him and put his hand inside my jeans. I jumped and looked at him. He said “you don’t want that?”

When I said to him that I don’t make the first move, he kissed me and I kissed him back, he said no with his hands to make it look like I’m behind him, I looked at him confused and he whispered people are watching.

While walking back he asked me to go to a hotel with him.

He even said he wanted to eat me on the road.

After that he kept leading me on continuously.

Then suddenly he stopped talking to me and avoided me so badly.

After that I cut him off.

He reached out to me couple of times.

Last year he kept calling me beautiful and asked me to text and call him and tried to rekindle.

I abused him and blocked him.

He texted saying he is sorry.

I continued abusing him.

It ended after that.

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This is what happened.

Now that I think about it, I didn’t love Lockhart. That wasn’t love.

There was honestly so much bullshit and manipulations and fake maliciousness from both of them.

I went through so much.

If Lucius and Lockhart liked each other, that wasn’t wrong but what they did to me and what I went through because of them was wrong.

They made me look like a psycho and manipulated and twisted the truth.

This wasn’t a high school fight.

What they did and what I went through was evil and inhuman.