rachana rajan <3

I started writing here because there were so many things that happened in my life that I had not spoken to anyone about.

Like so many things.

Also, after I realised I’m normal and I don’t have any perception problem and also that people were misunderstanding me and there was this immense bullshit that was going on.

My intention was to prove my innocence and sanity and untangle things one by one.

That’s the only reason I continued writing.

I persisted inspite of the my health issues with my throat and near death incidents.

Also, I was really angry because everything that happened to me was unfair and there was so much bullshit.

I kept writing in the best way I could put it across.

Also, I was going through a heartbreak so I wrote about that as well.

I kept making YouTube videos because I wanted to be a YouTuber which I have spoken about before.

It’s only after watching the movie Jawan that I knew that people are watching my videos and reading my blogs

After that I continued fighting to prove things with the knowledge that people are reading it.

Also writing here was cathartic because it was helping me.

It’s few months ago that I started realising things, like the impact of my content and words. People making content out of my content and things like that.

Also, I finally started understanding what really happened because all my questions were answered and I saw so many things online.

So I decided to stop my ideas in an attempt to take control of things because nothing else was in my control.

I was doing the best with the situation at hand.

That was the intention behind that Instagram post.

Also, at this moment I’m not really capable of direct credit and recognition because of my anxiety.

Maybe after sometime has passed and after I work on myself some more I would be able to handle it.

So I thought about it and made a list of things I want because I do understand my value and the value of my words.

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I don’t speak shit about anyone.

People were misunderstanding my retaliations because no one knew what happened with those people I’m abusing.

So I clarified it here by giving an overview.

That’s it.

Even if I’m using harsh words it’s just 10% and sometimes 50% of what that person did and how much I suffered because of that person.

They hurt me, so I retaliated.

People made me speak about them by misunderstanding me, so I was just clearing my name.

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There is really no motive behind what I did.

If I’m hugely successful it’s because I’m good at writing and my work is good, which I didn’t realise until recently.

If I wasn’t good, all this wouldn’t be.

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If Ginny loves me or she doesn’t, it’s because she feels it. These things are beyond anyone’s control.

The only thing I did was write about my feelings for her so she can decide what she wants.

There was a lot of things which I didn’t say, so I put it here.

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If there is a truth which is contrary to what I’ve written here about the people who did me wrong.

As I already explained.

I don’t see it.

They are staying in the shadows and speaking behind my back and betraying me instead of coming forward.

That says a lot in itself.

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I’m advocating for myself and fighting for my truth because there is no one else in this world who would do it for me.

I’m not dead because my consciousness is clear and my life is precious for me.

I know I didn’t do anything and God was with me this entire time and even he knows the truth.

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I’ve showed the truth to the world too and everyone knows it but they are choosing to ignore it.