rachana rajan <3

I messed up the timeline a bit.

Ginny said she’s in love with me on 2nd june 2023.

At that time I was in talking stage with Nishant, but after she said that I couldn’t speak to him properly.

In the end we stopped speaking.

I asked Ginny what does that reel mean but she didn’t respond.

I kept asking her if she is really engaged and she said yes.

I tried moving on and tried getting married as well.

I was also in talking stage with Deepak GS and ashwin.

But I wasn’t interested in them too.

I couldn’t be present.

I met Leslie aswel.

He was really cute and interested, he kissed me in the lift and I pecked him back.

But after that I started crying because I was thinking about Ginny.

Leslie called me home, I said no.

He sexted me, I wasn’t really invested in it.

I asked him if he wants to be friends, he said no.

Later we phased out.

Deepak GS and ashwin was a disaster.

I already told you about them.

Later in July is when I stopped dating completely.

It started making sense to me that Ginny is really in love with me.

I was happy and started feeling better mentally.

Since I was going to die, I was okay with the fact that she was engaged.

I let her go.

I remember having a crush on krishna for a day I guess.

It was not serious.

I don’t know how that happened.

I went on a date with someone on oct 8th (i just checked the date on instagram) I forgot his name, you can get it from instagram.

I tried kissing him because I wanted to check if I can kiss.

I couldn’t.

He touched my boobs and it started hurting because I wasn’t turned on.

I came back home.

He wanted to date, I said no.

He was good but I was in love with Ginny.

Also, I was going to die.

I remember texting Ginny too much because she asked me if I can have threesome for her sake.

Because I can’t say no to her.

So I completely lost it.

I think it was in march 2024.

After that she stopped speaking to me.

My health finally improved in june 2024.

That’s when I reached out to her to say that I love her.

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There were so many things that was wrong.

There were so many problems.

My parents were torturing me inhumanly and also the world.

My health was fucked up.

So I just couldn’t speak to Ginny.

I was dying.

I was okay with her being engaged.

When I was finally ready in june 2024. Things weren’t good but I was ready to speak. Mentally and health wise.

But shit happened again in August when everything worked out finally.

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I don’t know what was happening to Ginny during this time and what she was going through.

I don’t know if I hurt her unintentionally.

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There were so much miscommunication.

Also, my life was a huge pile of shit.

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Now things seem to be finally cleared.

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I don’t know what Ginny had to face during all this.

Just thinking about the fact that I might have hurt her, even if it was unintentionally, I don’t know I don’t feel good about it all.

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I hope all this ends soon.

You can check with the people I spoke about.

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