rachana rajan <3

It’s getting colder by the day.

I love winter so much.

Christmas is round the corner. I hope this gets over before that.

I’m tired of waiting.

My throat feels a bit weird sometimes even now.

It doesn’t hurt like before. It’s a mild pain rarely every now and then.

I need to see a doctor and do a full body check up.

Also see a dentist.

Once this is over the first thing I will do is see a doctor.

Also, take my parents to the doctor.

Then go to the temple.

Whenever I think about Ginny, which is every day, I start to cry.

I want to hug her so badly.

For now I just hug my blanket and imagine that I’m hugging her.

I miss her so much.

My heart has a lowkey ache when I think about her.

My feelings are dormant.

Everyone is wearing black online. I think that is a good sign?

I don’t really have any energy left. Everything feels like it’s happening somewhere far away.

I still see her when I close my eyes.

Her memories are so distant though.

These last three years feel like a lifetime.

I’m so tired and beyond fed up.

I’m so grateful to God that everyone helped me.

I’m finding it hard to keep my eyes open.

Goodnight.

I love you x.