I spoke the truth on day one itself.
Each time.
But I was silenced each and every time.
When whatever happened with Voldemort.
I clearly said.
“She’s speaking about me.”
But I was silenced.
People ganged up and tortured me and tried to kill me.
When whatever happened with Lucius.
I clearly said.
“She betrayed me.”
But I was silenced.
People ganged up and tortured me and tried to kill me.
When whatever happened with Varsha Vinod.
I clearly said.
“She called me a dead body.”
But I was silenced.
People ganged up and tortured me and tried to kill me.
When whatever happened with Pettigrew.
I clearly said.
“She is not my friend. I’m not attracted to women IRL. Please ask me what happened.”
But I was silenced.
But people ganged up and tortured me and tried to kill me.
I couldn’t understand what was happening since day one.
Unless you tell me what’s happening.
How the fuck am I supposed to know what’s happening?
I was kept in the dark and silenced and tortured.
I asked Dumbledore on day one itself.
“Why are people speaking to me that way”
That was the crucial piece of the puzzle.
I just couldn’t understand.
I was on the verge of dying my whole life.
I kept repeating the same question.
Again and again and again.
I was told I was sick.
That’s why I’m asking that question.
Again and again and again.
In the end.
I accepted that I’m sick.
It was after I spoke to Nikita Metha and my therapist Rahul in 2022.
That everything clicked.
And I woke up from sleep.
If I knew why on day one.
I would have explained what Voldemort did on day one itself.
Unless you tell me.
How the fuck am I supposed to know?
I was on the verge of dying for more than a decade.
I was tortured inhumanly.
Physically, sexually, mentally and psychologically.
No one will choose the insurmountable pain and suffering and the torture that I went through for more than a decade willingly.
Unless you tell me.
How the fuck am I supposed to know?
Even when whatever happened with Pettigrew.
I couldn’t understand why people were sexually assaulting me and torturing me and trying to kill me.
How the fuck was I supposed to know she lied?
If Doctor Mahesh Meda and my mom had not saved my life.
I would have died in September 2024.
How the fuck was I supposed to know she lied?
I understood she betrayed me in October 2024.
I’ve already proved that she’s a liar.
rachana rajan <3 