She was my first friend.
We were best friends since High school.
I just didn’t function without her.
We were really close.
I loved her a lot as my best friend.
That’s why when the conflict happened during engineering second semester exams.
I couldn’t handle it.
I broke.
I didn’t know how to speak.
I didn’t know how to explain what happened.
I didn’t know how to place words to my feelings.
I was tortured inhumanly.
I couldn’t understand what was happening.
I was forced to speak about masturbation.
When I had no idea what it was.
I didn’t even know the word for it.
In whatever English I knew back then.
I said to Dumbledore.
“Voldemort is speaking about me.
Why are people speaking to me that way?”
That was the crucial piece of the puzzle.
I was on the verge of dying for more than a decade.
I went through insurmountable pain and suffering.
I kept repeating the same question.
Again and again and again.
I couldn’t understand my story myself.
When Nikita Metha told me why at the end of 2022.
Everything clicked.
It took me 4 years to clear every single miniscule thing.
Please understand what’s happening at least now.
rachana rajan <3 