It’s better to love people from far than have a fallout with them.
As I mentioned before.
Friendships only work when both of you are on the same page.
That’s why I’m apprehensive to initiate conversations with people I like and would like to be friends with.
Even Taylor Swift for that matter.
Idk if she wants to be friends with me.
But I’m not going to initiate a conversation.
I love her very much. (platonically)
But I’d rather love her from afar.
Than have a fallout.
Speaking is not my forte.
I make a lot of mistakes.
Because I learnt it by myself a couple of years ago.
No one taught me.
Hence the apprehension.
When it comes to speaking to people whose first language is English.
They are so fluent.
I do understand them.
But I cannot respond the same way and at the same pace.
I have a lot of limitations and problems.
I stopped doing youtube videos in the beginning of 2025.
So I have lost that flow of speaking.
I stammer like a bajaj scooter.
I am confident.
But I’d rather have a quiet life and stay away from the hustle and bustle.
I wanted to be friends with Teni Thomas, Chinthu and Nikita Metha.
I like them a lot. (platonically)
But we weren’t on the same page.
So it crashed and burned.
To quote Taylor Swift.
“Easy they come.
Easy they go.”
So yeah.
I’m just apprehensive about this whole thing.
I’m happy and content with my life.
I’m not really looking for anything.
I’m just thinking out loud, I suppose.
These are my thoughts.
