I know how my mind and thoughts work.
I know how to make my mind and thoughts work in my favour.
I’ve been doing it since childhood.
My words are helping everyone.
So you can clearly understand from this.
Why I’m still alive.
Also.
Ginny played a really important role in all this.
Even if she doesn’t know it.
There wouldn’t be a story without her.
I would have died in 2023 itself.
Also in September 2024.
That’s why Doctor Mahesh Meda and my mom saved my life.
She gave me a reason to stay alive and fight.
It all comes down to her.
Also.
My therapist Kruti.
I would not be here without her constant help.
She went above and beyond.
More than what her job description requires her to do.
I will forever be grateful.
Also
Doctor Mahesh Meda.
He saved my life 4 times.
Also.
I was really angry in the beginning of 2023 and the end of 2022.
I was constantly shouting at my parents.
I was going to die of anger.
I prayed to God and begged him to help me.
That night.
I had a dream where God told me my mother didn’t do anything.
My anger disappeared after I woke up.
I don’t know if it was God.
I don’t know who it was.
The face wasn’t clear.
I feel it was God.
I don’t know.
I don’t know why I had that dream.
Also.
I read the book invisible life of Addie in 2024.
Exactly at the right time.
I had DNFed it in 2023 because it was triggering me.
But I decided to read it in 2024 out of the bloom.
I don’t know why.
And it saved my life.
It helped me to navigate this weird reality that I’m existing in.
Also.
Random people on the internet helped me.
Also.
My community stepped in and helped me in 2024.
Also.
Music, books, movies etc.
This is how I reached here.
It was definitely a team work.
I didn’t do it alone.
rachana rajan <3 