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There’s nothing left to say. The truth is already out a long time ago. Please stop wasting my precious time.

Why are you showing me the lyrics of mastermind. How much will you drag this unnecessarily? The truth is already out. It’s over. What exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

I want a normal and conventional life. I want credit, convention, recognition and respect for my work. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. I’ve cleared, proved, clarified and explained every single miniscule thing. I’ve gone to the root of the problem and explained it. I’ve repeated myself millions of times…

I’m a friend to my community only on my public platforms. I have my problems and limitations. I’m not like everyone else. This is the most and the best that I can do. On a personal front, I’m not your friend. I’m a public figure. It’s not humanly possible for me to be friends with…

I want injustice to be answered with justice. I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice. That is the only way I will find peace. Also. I’m setting an example to the world. I’m teaching people how…

What the fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

I’ve said it multiple times before. I’m saying it again so that the message sinks in. I humbly request the world to stop dehumanising me. Based on my reaction to inhuman abnormal torture. Stop referring to me as a cat. I’m not your fucking pet. If you are taking pictures of cats or adopting cats…

I won’t be keeping quiet to help anyone ever again. You reap what you sow. If there’s any shady unethical behaviour from anyone. I will be extremely vocal about it. I will also be taking legal action. I expect my personal space, boundaries and privacy to be respected strictly.

The truth is out. It’s over. There’s nothing left to say. I’ve repeated myself millions of times since August 2024. It’s over. I’m not interested in repeating the same bloody things every single day forever and ever.

There’s nothing left to say. The truth is already out long long ago. How much will you drag this unnecessarily? How much will you waste my precious time? Is this how the legal system works? You need to do some rethinking and restructuring. Because it sucks. What a fucking waste of precious time.

The truth is already out long long ago. There’s nothing left to say. Do you want to explain to me why you are dragging shit unnecessarily? Why are you wasting my precious time? Why are you showing me Dobby and the lyrics of mastermind every single day. The truth is already out man. When people…

I want justice for turning my life into a Truman Show. I have spoken about everything that the person who was controlling my surroundings and content did to me. I want justice.

There’s nothing left to say. The truth is already out long ago. Please stop wasting my precious time.

The truth is already out long long ago. Why are you showing me the lyrics of mastermind? How much will you drag this unnecessarily?

There’s nothing left to say. What the fuck am I waiting for? How much will you drag this unnecessarily? What’s going on man?

There’s nothing left to say. The truth is already out long ago. The liars are already in front of the world. I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence and sanity. I’ve given irrefutable solid proofs. It’s over a long time ago. Please stop wasting everyone’s time, efforts and energy. Please stop wasting my…

I’ve already proved that Pettigrew is a liar and her words cannot be trusted. She has lied about so many things since this started. She is just trying to save her ass by using the word friend. I’ve already cleared why she’s using the word friend. I’ve repeated it millions of times since August 2024.…

What’s going on man? The truth is already out long ago. What the fuck am I waiting for?

What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

What exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

Does anyone want to explain to me what exactly am I waiting for? Why is this being dragged unnecessarily? What’s going on man? The truth is already out long ago. What the fuck is going on? Why are you wasting my precious time?

If a certain way of speaking wasn’t working out. Why was it continued? And why the fuck was the whole world made to speak that way? I was kept in the dark, silenced and tortured inhumanly my whole life. I was made to question my own reality. My life was sabotaged in the name of…

There’s nothing left to say. I’m just repeating the same things. What’s going on man?

I was fighting against Voldemort and the death eaters. Honestly. I had nothing against Pettigrew. I was keeping quiet to help her. I don’t speak against people from the weaker sections of society. When she said “sorry I will lose my job”. I felt sorry for her. She had just gotten a promotion. I was…

“I’m about to play my ace” is from the song new romantics by Taylor Swift. I was doing the same with the word checkmate. It’s just an analogy and play with words. You can check the date of this blog. I was using it for Voldemort and the death eaters. Author’s Note. (edited)

I’ve been using the analogy of chess even before the incident with Pettigrew. I was fighting against Voldemort and the death eaters. Please refer to below. Author’s Note. (edited)

The truth is already out long ago. How much will you drag this unnecessarily? What the fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

What’s going on man?

What the fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

I want to be present in front of the perpetrators in the court room. When I get justice for what happened to me. I want the satisfaction of looking at them when I get justice. I want the closure.

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What’s going on man? What the fuck am I waiting for?

I don’t understand why people personalize everything that I say. Why are people hooking on to every single word and desperately trying to relate to it? I mean. Everyone has their own individuality and uniqueness. Everyone is different. Everyone cannot possibly be the same. Where’s the fun in that? Stop being a fucking clone. Stop…

I was watching Eli Rallo’s reel the other day. She was speaking about how her mother doesn’t wear makeup. Which had me thinking. That’s just how it is. Some people don’t wear make up. That doesn’t make them a pick me. Also. That doesn’t mean I hate women who wear makeup. No. I love it…

What the fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

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Your time on earth is precious and limited. So if you are deciding to spend that time with someone. It has to be a fuck yes. Otherwise, it’s a no. This applies even to platonic love. I’m not interested in wasting my precious time. I value my peace of mind more than anything else. I…

What the fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

I’ve spoken about this and repeated myself millions of times since August 2024. I’m not interested in speaking about the same bloody things every single day. It’s over man. I’m not interested.

Also. Please stop disgracing Dobby’s name. Dobby is one of the best friends of history. You are giving me trauma. Please stop dragging this unnecessarily. Stop wasting my precious time.

I’ve had an extremely social life. I’ve spoken to and texted countless people. When I don’t want to speak to someone. I delete their number and unfollow/block. And they get the message. They stop speaking after that. This is an extremely clear non verbal boundary. When someone calls you home. And you ignore their words…

I was pushing her from day one. I was constantly drawing non verbal boundaries. I don’t know if she did not understand it. Or she did not want to understand it. She lacks comprehension and social skills. She has behavioural issues. She was constantly approaching me. Honestly I don’t know how to dismiss a person…

Also. When she gave me something to eat when I was hungry. I tried being friends. But she wasn’t interested in being friends. She just wanted to fuck me. She was constantly forcing me to go to her house. She would force and moan. No matter how many times I declined her invitation. She kept…

I’ve already cleared why she is using the word friend. She has a para social relationship with me. I’ve explained every single thing. I’ve repeated it millions of times. Some people have extreme cases of para social relationships with me. You can clearly understand this from the behaviour of. Aggressive stalker and Dudley’s father. People…

When people wanted me dead and tortured me based on lies and manipulations. Everything happened so damn quickly. At that time no one dragged shit. Why the fuck are you dragging shit now? Unnecessarily. The truth is already out long ago. What the bloody fuck is going on man?

The truth is already out. There’s nothing left to say. How much will you drag this unnecessarily? Please stop wasting my precious time. I’m not interested.

There’s nothing left to say. Please stop wasting my precious time. I’m not interested in repeating the same bloody things. I’ve repeated it millions of times since August 2024. It’s over. I’m not interested.

The truth is already out long long ago. Does anyone want to explain to me why this is dragging unnecessarily? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? Why are you wasting my bloody time?

What the fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me.

Please ask Varsha Vinod why does she care if I don’t like any women at the office. If she is “straight” it shouldn’t bother her.

When I complimented the barista at Starbucks. She said “thank you” like a normal person. Whenever I compliment strangers. They say “thank you” like a normal person. Whenever I compliment my family and friends. They say “thank you” like a normal person. “Thank you” is the normal response to compliments and helpful statements. Not “come…

What exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

Love this so much. We are so back. They have done it again.

I just discovered this new word. So turns out I’m a flexitarian. I’m a vegetarian who eats meat occasionally, sometimes, rarely. I stopped eating meat drastically in 2023. I’ve been sober since December 2022. I feel great. My body and stomach feel so good and lighter. I’m happy with my decision. I’m waiting to continue…

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What the fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

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What the fuck am I waiting for?

This is so stupid. I’ve been downloading reels/shorts and uploading here. I realised yesterday that I can just copy paste the link and it becomes a video format. Gosh! I was so busy fighting and consumed by what was going on. I didn’t think of it till now. So stupid. I’m a grandma when it…

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He’s looking at/talking about her boobs contextually. These things are normal in friendships.

The truth is already out long ago. What the fuck am I waiting for? Why are you dragging this unnecessarily? There’s nothing left to say. The truth is out. It’s over. What’s going on man?

What’s going on man?

Some days are really bad. I’m unable to hold on. I need to see a doctor. My parents are also sick. What’s going on?

ICYMI 4th point. Also. Lmao.

What’s going on?

When I went out for a walk last night. I saw two couples walking in front of me holding hands. My heart ached with nostalgia and melancholy. Thinking about the time when Ginny and I held hands while walking in the Koramangala street at night. Was it really four years ago? Why does it feel…

What the fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

The truth is already out long ago. You don’t need to show me what exactly happened. Stop dragging it unnecessarily. I’m not interested in speaking about this topic anymore. I’m done. It’s over. Move on please.

I miss Ginny so much. I think about her every day. I’m so fucking tired.

I need to see a doctor. I don’t know how I’m holding on. Most days are okay. But some days are really hard. I’m mentally and physically and psychologically exhausted and fucked.

I’m really sick. So are my parents. Since last August. I’m so fucking tired. What’s going on man? What the fuck am I waiting for?

Contextual eye gesture.

Taylor Swift says in the song vigilante shit. “I don’t start shit. But I can tell you how it ends.” This is what I meant. I’m not playing games. I’m ending the game. There’s a difference. The devil is playing chess. Voldemort threw mud on my name. She paved the way. The Death eaters effortlessly…

The truth is already out long ago. There’s nothing left to say. It’s over. What’s going on man? Is this how the legal system works? What a fucking waste of precious time.

I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. The truth is already out long ago. The liars are already in front of the world. How much will you drag this unnecessarily? Why are you showing me the lyrics of mastermind and Dobby? Why are you wasting everyone’s time, efforts and energy? Why…

Taylor Swift talks about playing solitaire in the song “Dear Reader”. She talks about playing poker in the song “New Romantics”. She’s not actually playing games. It’s just an analogy and play with words. Literally all writers do it.

What the bloody fuck is going on man? What the fuck am I waiting for?

The truth is already out long ago. How much will you drag this unnecessarily?

The truth is already out long ago. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for man?

Why is the aggressive stalker and Dudley’s father not given a restraining order? If the same things had happened to Taylor Swift or any other public figures. They would be in jail. Why is no action taken till now? What’s going on man?

What exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

Contextual eye gesture. No one talks about these incidents because it’s contextual.

I have to start taking the additional medicine before meeting Ginny. I don’t get turned on without the help of those medicines. I will have a hard time dating her if I don’t take those medicines. I have to speak to Dumbledore. I honestly don’t know what’s going on. I don’t feel good. My mind…

Tomorrow is my birthday. I don’t celebrate my birthday. It’s just another regular day. But I wanted this to be over before my birthday. I’m so fucking tired. Anyway. Good Night. x

I want to give my parents a comfortable life in their old age. Where they don’t have to worry about money. We’ve struggled our whole life because of money. I hope this gets over soon. They are really old and also sick. If something happens to them before that. I’m not going to be happy…

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I don’t accept people in my life easily. I don’t trust anyone easily. I learnt the hard way that people can’t be trusted. I have basic platonic love and respect for everyone as a part of my community and society. But from a distance. I put people through multiple tests before accepting them in my…

I never forget betrayal too. Some betrayals I take to my grave. I hold grudges like a fucking crow. I’m petty AF. Forgiveness is subjective and overrated. I’m at peace even without forgiving. You don’t have to forgive to find inner peace. I have forgotten about their existence. When I do remember them sometimes I…

I will never forget help. I don’t value people who help me with the intention of gaining my love, respect and affection. You know “the performative help” that comes with ulterior motives. No. That’s not the boy with the bread. I study, observe, notice every single thing. I value people who help me unconditionally. Without…

What’s going on man? What the fuck am I waiting for?

I miss Ginny so much. I keep crying. I don’t feel good. Sometimes I miss Will, Draco and Rohit too. I don’t know. I’m so fucked.

I don’t feel good anymore. My mind and body is fucked. I need to speak to my therapist. I need to see a doctor and a dentist. I’m feeling really bitter and salty. Sometimes when I open Instagram, I start projecting. So I close it. I don’t know. I’m just a lump. An unattractive and…

The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on man? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

What the fuck am I waiting for?

The truth is already out long ago. What the fuck am I waiting for? I hope this gets over before my birthday.

I’m not interested in socialising till I have a normal life. I’m not interested in speaking to anyone. Other than my close circle. Once I have a normal life. I will consider making new friends. If the need be. I’m not sure. Depends on how I feel at that point.

I have a close-knit circle. My close circle is sacred. It’s a temple of trust and safety. Note.

My boundaries are non-negotiable. No means No. No is a full sentence. I take absolutely no responsibility for someone else’s insecurities and projections.

There has been no one else. Note.

I treat people based on my personal first hand experience with them. I have not forgotten anything that anyone said and did. I don’t have amnesia. And I’m not Jesus Christ to forgive endlessly. Stop trying to force a non-existent relationship/friendship with me. I’m not interested. Stay the fuck away.

I have known Meghana since 11th grade. She has never texted me and asked “how are you?” Till now. Never. She was absent throughout my life. She was never there for me when I needed her. She treated me like shit so many times. (I’ve already explained everything.) Now that I’m successful, normal and in…

We are all adults here. People clearly know and understand what they are doing. There’s no misunderstandings and doubts. They are doing it for sadistic pleasure, false superiority and as a weapon to provoke and rage bait. Because if someone was a good person and a friend. They will behave like one. They won’t take…

As long as I exist in this reality and double life. Shit will continue forever and ever. Because I’m helpless and vulnerable. I have explained every single thing. People take advantage of my situation and play twisted games. Most people are creepy fans with a leverage. They suck. They lack empathy and remorse. Half the…

I want injustice to be answered with justice. I want justice for every single thing that happened to me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice. I’m setting an example to the world. I’m teaching people how to treat me. I want the world to clearly understand that.…

But for me. It’s always a double edged sword. Whenever something happens. The world gangs up and starts to torture me and silence me. They even try to kill me. I’m not only faced with the problem. But also public scrutiny. No one asks me what happened and my side of the story. No one…

Perpetrators have this mentality that they can cross my boundaries and do whatever fuck they want. Because with me they don’t have to face any consequences. They wouldn’t dare to do it with anyone else. They do whatever fuck and conveniently turn the table. And the world conveniently believes them. The world also supports and…

These people wouldn’t dare do these things to anyone else. But with me? They don’t have to face any consequences. They cross my boundaries and do whatever fuck they want. And conveniently turn the table. And the world conveniently believes them. Voldemort paved the way. The death eaters effortlessly followed.

The truth is already out long long ago. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

Why is the aggressive stalker and Dudley’s father not given a restraining order? I highlighted something extremely serious. What’s going on man? The aggressive stalker belongs in jail. He is just a random neighbour and a stalker. In August 2024. One day suddenly he started aggressively stalking me and pouncing on me. Violently and vigorously.…

Not only does Dhruv’s face look like a lizard. But it also looks like an insect pooped on it. He looks like a fucking deranged hyena. The way he keeps looking at my body with his mouth open and eyes bulging out of the sockets and psychotic expression. He is beneath my standards. I know…

Not just her. But other monsters like. Dhruv, Rahuul Rishav, monster at social, Anna, monster at crochet class, aggressive stalker. Etc. Were also lusting at me and harassing and assaulting me. They are monsters who lack empathy and remorse. They have a dark triad personality type.

Just because I was regular to that restaurant. It is not an invitation for the staff to encroach on my personal space and boundaries. And force friendship and force conversation with me. This is not a college party for her to approach me because I’m a familiar face. When someone is saying NO and drawing…

I was tortured inhumanly for more than a year because of this. Do you see how ridiculous this whole thing is? Pettigrew is a lonely sex addict. The only thing I asked her to do was take my picture. She stuck to me like a parasite and leech. She was lusting on me since day…

Do you see how he’s looking at her dress contextually? Everyone in this world does it contextually. When you are talking about something and draw attention to it. It’s normal to look at it. No one talks about these incidents because it’s contextual.

What the fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on man? Why are you showing me the lyrics of mastermind?

The truth is already out long ago. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

The truth is already out long ago. How much will you drag this unnecessarily? What’s going on man? When you wanted me dead and tortured me. Based on lies and manipulations. You didn’t drag shit. Everything happened so damn quickly. Why the fuck are you dragging unnecessarily now?

I think everyone in this world clearly knows why I’m still alive. I’ve already shared everything that I do and the way I think and see things. It’s helping everyone. So you can clearly understand why. There’s literally nothing left to say. You’ve squeezed the life out of me. I’m barely alive. I keep spiralling.…

I didn’t speak to anyone during my formative years. I was lost in my own world speaking to God. Hence I don’t have certain human emotions. Everyone else are the same. I’ve noticed a pattern. I’m good at reading people to a certain extent. I’m not like others. Also. I don’t play any games like…

I’m speaking the truth. Everything that I have said here is the truth. There’s literally nothing left to say.

I don’t think anyone in the history of the world had to prove themselves so much. There’s literally nothing left to say. I’m physically, mentally and psychologically exhausted. I’ve lost a lot of weight. My mind is constantly fucked. I’m going through immense psychological pressure. I need to speak to my therapist badly. I’m unable…

The truth is already out. There’s nothing left to say. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. I’ve given irrefutable solid proofs. The liars are already in front of the world. What more do you want?

The truth is already out long ago. How much will you drag this unnecessarily? Why are you showing me the lyrics of mastermind? What the fuck is going on man?

What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on man?

What exactly am I waiting for?

What exactly am I waiting for?

Please remove the feature where you show account suggestions on the story strip. It’s so fucking annoying. I cannot explain how annoying it is. Also. I’m unable to view my second and third Instagram account from my main account. And the other way around. I have no idea why. It’s not showing up at all.…

Stop showing me Dobby. Everyone in this world clearly knows that she is not Dobby. It’s called friendship only when it’s mutual. It’s not called friendship when one person is constantly forcing it. You can clearly understand from her actions that there was no friendship. This is not how friends behave. This is not friendship.…

Normalise using words like. Acquaintances, colleagues, neighbours, classmates, casual friends, gym partners, relatives, team mates. Etc. Don’t use the word friend loosely. A friend is a valuable and precious word. It weighs in gold. Not everyone is your friend. A friend to all is a friend to none.

There’s nothing left to say. What’s going on man?

How much will you drag shit unnecessarily? When you wanted me dead and tortured me. Based on lies and manipulations. You didn’t drag shit. The truth is already out long ago. Why the fuck are you dragging shit now?

The truth is already out. There’s nothing left to say. Stop wasting my precious time.

Stop showing me Dobby. Pettigrew is not Dobby. The truth is already out long ago. Why are you dragging this unnecessarily?

Why are you keeping me in the dark? What’s going on man?

The truth is already out. How much will you drag this unnecessarily?

What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

Note. I considered meeting her. But our values don’t match. So I just ghosted her.

I humbly request the world to stop dehumanising me. Based on my reaction to inhuman abnormal torture. Stop referring to me as a cat.

The biggest irony of my life is that people thought I liked them because of my childhood. When in reality I rarely like people romantically. FML.

Not just Indian women. But most women in general are vulgar and repulsive. Also. Men. Idk. I hardly like people romantically. It’s very rare. Ginny doesn’t really have to worry about me cheating. Because I don’t really like anyone easily. So I will never cheat. Perks of dating me.

Dating was a nightmare. I’m so glad that I didn’t give up. Because I met Ginny. Meeting her is worth the pain and BS.

Will got married. So I gave up and lowered my standards. That’s why I dated those disgusting creatures. I wasn’t interested in them to the very least. There were no feelings. Also. Guy with an ugly dick doesn’t really have a dick. It’s just a matchstick covered with cobwebs. At least a matchstick is hard…

When Psycho divorcee invited me home to meet his mother. I asked him if I should bring flowers. And he looked at me like I was crazy. People here don’t really have that custom. I honestly hate all the men I’ve dated. They are trash.

Ginny is not like those typical Indian men. She is different. She has the rebel bad boy vibes. That I really like.

Indian men aren’t really my type. Most of them are extremely closed minded. I rarely like someone. I’m extremely picky with my romantic liking. After I started dating, I spoke to around 250 men. I fell in love just 2 times. So you can imagine. I like men who are kinda like a rebel and…

People here also lack empathy. They aren’t really expressive. You can clearly understand this from the way I was tortured my whole life because of false empathy. The shit that I went through my whole life because of my bisexuality was also crazy and barbaric. People are extremely narrow minded. Things are changing now. So…

Everything online and everywhere else is just a copy of me and my words. Everyone seem to be my clone. Honestly, it’s no longer flattering. It crossed that line long ago. I don’t enjoy it anymore.

In India, people don’t really give each other flowers. On a date or to friends or anything else for that matter. It’s very rare. Flowers are mostly used for worship, welcoming people as a garland, worn in the hair as an accessory. Etc. Since I grew up watching/reading and being exposed to the western culture.…

Continued. She asked me if I wanted her daughter’s clothes. Because she said her daughter’s clothes would fit me. She was trying to demean me and body shame. Because I was really thin many years ago. She was doing exactly what Dudley’s mother was doing. They would shit talk about me in front of me…

They have not changed. I’m 100% certain they haven’t. Don’t believe people’s facade and fake words. They are jokers in a white cardigan. I’m pretty sure they are burning behind their facade. I hope they burn forever. They are dead to me.

I know Dudley is reading this. I want Dudley and her monstrous mother to know. I’m better than her and I’m always going to be better than her. This truth is engraved in the pages of history forever. My legacy is going to haunt them till their last breath. Because I know my words are…

Jasmine chechi texted me in 2022. I told her how I felt and she apologized. I tried speaking to her. But honestly. There’s too much history of BS. So I let it go. I’m not interested anymore.

I pray to God every single day. Dudley gets her karma. I want a restraining order against Dudley’s father. I want Dudley’s mother to get her karma as well. I hate them. Period. I have already explained everything that happened.

Now that I’m successful, normal and in a good place. They are forcing a non-existent relationship with me. Honestly. I’m not fucking interested. Jasmine chechi is the one who came to my house yesterday. Now you understand why I didn’t meet her. Because. We have no relationship.

That was the favourite pastime of my cousins and relatives. They keep complaining to mother that I don’t speak to them. Mother would then cry and create a scene. Get angry at me. Firstly. I have absolutely no relationship with my cousins and relatives. We have never had an open one of one conversation. Till…

Anyway. Because of this reason. Jasmine chechi used to text me and say things like. If I wanted her daughter’s clothes. Her daughter is 2 decades younger than me btw. She was doing exactly what Dudley’s mother was doing. Jasmine chechi and I have no relationship. We are cousins. But we have never really had…

My whole life. Dudley’s mother’s favourite pastime was telling everyone who would listen. How much Dudley is better than me. She would keep telling people she’s taller than me, more social etc. She would keep telling this to Jasmine chechi in family functions. In front of me. This is the reason Dudley never saw me…

I want injustice to be answered with justice. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital.

I’m not interested in socialising with anyone. Till I have a normal life.

I’m a friend to my community only on my public platforms. On a personal front, I’m a public figure. I’m not your friend. Please do not approach me. If you encroach on my personal space and boundaries. That makes you a creepy fan. If you do it in the name of love. I will be…

I have not had an open one on one conversation with my relatives and cousins. Till date. I’ve barely spoken to them. It doesn’t make a difference to me even if they exist or not. No one has been good to me as well. It’s just been shit. I’ve tried speaking to Dudley and Jasmine…

Guilty. I was in love with Will. It blurred all lines. I couldn’t stop. Both of us are at fault for what happened. Both of us have moved on years ago as well. It’s been platonic since many years now. He’s my best friend. And I miss him as my friend.

I cannot wait to read the hunger games series. I’ve just read the first book. I’ve seen random reels online. I’ve been listening to “can’t catch me now” every single day since it came out. I love that song. I’m already so fucking obsessed. I CANNOT WAIT. Aaaah.

This is my sister. Exactly.

Fuck it. I’m coming to Canada. I don’t know how. But I will find you.

It’s okay if you feel guilty when you say no. I feel guilty every single time. But I stay strong.

My cousin and husband had come home today. To meet my parents and nieces. She wanted to meet me. But I closed the door and stayed inside till they left. The storm raging in my head is so heavy. I’m not in the mindspace to socialize. I’m not in the mood to answer gaslighting questions.…

I really need to see a doctor first before I go to Canada in search of Ginny. I don’t know how I’m holding on. Good Night. Take care. x P.S. I was making up fake scenarios in my head talking to the officers at the Visa place. Do I tell them I’m going there to…

I’m feeling really bitter and salty. Waiting this way. That’s why I was ranting about the book community and random people in India getting perks because of me. I’m unable to think straight. I wake up everyday with storms raging inside my head. I cannot go on like this. I’m unable to calm down sometimes.…

I humbly request women to stop behaving questionable. Note.

Why are you keeping me in the dark? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

What exactly am I waiting for? What the fuck is going on man?

I want people to be held responsible for their actions and behaviour. I want justice for every single thing that happened to me. I want injustice to be answered with justice. I want justice. That is the only way I will find peace. Also. I want the world to clearly understand that they cannot cross…

Please don’t support the perpetrators. When you support them. You are enabling their behaviour. You are teaching people that when they cross my boundaries and misbehave. They will get public support. Please stop supporting them.

I want justice for what Rachel Catherine and her kitty party did to me. I have spoken about everything. I want justice.

Moana shree and Dudley just wanted the attention, glory and perks that came attached to me. They were using my helplessness for ulterior motives. Dudley wanted a permanent position in her company. Moana shree wanted the attention and glory. I want justice for what happened. I want justice for what they did to me.

What makes you think I will add value to such a community after all this BS? I refuse to be a part of it. You can copy my work. But you cannot copy my creativity. Goodluck. God bless you.

People say they are supporting the author. Well, some of them are. But most of them are not. Most of them are like Rachel Catherine. They desperately need something against me to satisfy their demons. Because I shine too bright for their liking. Everything is performative. They constantly need the drama and want to just…

I’m allowed to do whatever the fuck I want in the comfort of my house. I have a right and free will. Just like everyone else in this world. People don’t really have the ability to grasp that concept. Are you really that thick? People were watching me and assuming shit and going crazy. Do…

The book community needs to stand in the corner and think about what they did. They need to take a nice long look at themselves. Introspect and reflect upon their actions and behaviour. In my honest opinion. (Based on whatever I have noticed.) Most of the book content online is shallow and surface level. Also.…

Whatever the book community did to me is betrayal. Period. I won’t be creating book content in any shape or form henceforth. I refuse to add value. I stopped consuming books related videos long ago as well. I refuse to be a part of it. The book community is aggressive, hypocritical and extremely toxic. This…

What exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

I know she’s reading this. I love you. There hasn’t been a day that you haven’t crossed my mind. I miss you so much it hurts. My heart aches and aches and aches. All the time. I miss you. I still see you when I close my eyes. I hope you still feel the same…

I’ve lost a lot of weight. I don’t feel attractive anymore. I don’t feel good about myself anymore. I’ve lost my spark and allure. I feel like an old cardigan under someone’s bed. I feel like a song that someone played on repeat way too many times and now it’s no longer doing its thing.…

Don’t ask me why I’m thinking about death. My mind works in mysterious ways. I think about every possible thing. Creating fake scenarios in my head is one of my favourite passtimes. I’m always in my head. Also. In my feels.

I keep thinking if something happens tomorrow and I die. I will die in this invisible life. Without having experienced normal. Without getting the credit and recognition for what I have worked hard for. Without meeting Ginny. My words will live on. But I won’t experience normal. I was going to die in September 2024.…

I’m just so fucking tired.

I don’t know what Ginny has been up to these last few years. I haven’t seen her in almost 3 and half years. I haven’t spoken to her in almost a year and half. I don’t know if she still feels the same way about me. I don’t know if she’s in Canada. I don’t…

If people here do care about me. I’m sorry but I don’t see it. Everyone I’m speaking to is playing twisted games. Everyone who is speaking to my family is playing twisted games. I don’t see it. How people treat me now. When I’m helpless and vulnerable. Tells me everything that I need to know.…

After everything that we went through together. A random fucking stranger lied. And this is what people here did. Without asking me what happened and my side of the story. I clearly said on day one itself. “I’m not interested in women IRL please ask me what happened” And this is what you do man?…

This is how these people are treating me. This is how these people treated me my whole life. This is the reality of how I’m being treated. Why is the world giving so much attention, glory and perks to them? Why?

I worked my ass off and fought relentlessly for years to reach where I have reached. I fought through death and thunderstorms. I put in my blood, sweat and tears. And random ass people who don’t even fucking deserve it are getting attention, glory and perks because of me. Effortlessly. Why? Because they are from…

Why are you keeping me in the dark?

What the fuck is going on man?

How is everyone in this world sitting and reading this and choosing to stay quiet? What’s going on man?

People clearly know and understand what they are doing. My whole life people were using “special way of speaking” as a weapon against me. Because there were no consequences. Now they use gaslighting. Because again. No consequence. It is always handy. They are doing it for sadistic pleasure, false superiority and as a weapon to…

Everyone I’m speaking to is playing twisted games. Everyone who is speaking to my family is playing twisted games. I don’t understand how everyone is sitting and reading this and choosing to stay quiet. Teni Thomas was intentionally gaslighting me recently saying, I’m not good at poetry and storytelling. And I’m not funny. To protect…

My annoyance towards India is valid, normal and justified. Note. Note. Note. Note. Note.

What the fuck am I waiting for man? I don’t understand how everyone in this world is sitting and reading this on a regular basis and choosing to stay quiet? What’s going on?

The whole world is benefitting out of me and creating content out of my content. India is getting all this attention because of me. Random people in India are getting attention, glory and perks because of me. When they don’t fucking deserve it. I’m here suffering existing in this reality and double life. Without money…

I don’t understand why random people in India are getting attention, glory and perks. When they haven’t done anything significant to deserve it. They have not worked for it. They are getting this attention, glory and perks because of me. And because of my hard work. Because these people are from the same place as…

What’s going on man? The truth is already out long ago. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? When people gang up and torture me and try to kill me. Based on lies and manipulations. Everything happens so quickly. When people want to benefit out of me and create content out of my content.…

What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

Why am I being kept in the dark? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man? This is affecting my mental health really badly. I’m going through immense psychological pressure waiting this way.

Why is the aggressive stalker and Dudley’s father not given a restraining order? I highlighted something extremely serious. What’s going on?

What’s going on man? The truth is already out. What the fuck am I waiting for?

The truth is already out. What the fuck am I waiting for man? What’s going on?

What’s going on man? What exactly am I waiting for?

What’s going on man?

What’s going on man? What exactly am I waiting for?

The truth is already out. What exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

Even Taylor uses examples and fancy playful words in her songs. Below is the lyrics of her song New Romantics. It’s pokerHe can’t see it in my faceBut I’m about to play my Ace Just because she said this. Doesn’t actually mean she is playing games in life. She is just playing with words.

My boundaries are non-negotiable. Note.

My boundaries are non-negotiable. Note.

Note. If you encroach on my personal space and boundaries that makes you a creepy fan. If you do it in the name of love, I have to get a restraining order. I don’t respond to force and desperation. No means no. No is a full sentence.

Note.

Note.

What exactly am I waiting for?

Please don’t develop a para social relationship with me. I expect my personal space, boundaries and privacy to be respected strictly.

When someone doesn’t want to be your friend or in a relationship with you. It’s not betrayal. Betrayal cuts deeper than that. We feel what we feel. You cannot force feelings. Unless and until someone does you dirty. It’s not betrayal. Millions of people in this world. Everyone is not for everyone. That’s completely okay.

It’s okay to dislike and hate people. Even if it’s because of something petty. It doesn’t make you a villain unless you do them dirty. Millions of people in this world. Everyone is not for everyone. That’s completely okay.

My boundaries are non-negotiable. Note.

My boundaries are non-negotiable. Note.

Note. Please keep it platonic. Don’t make it weird.

The truth is already out long ago. What exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

I take absolutely no responsibility for someone else’s insecurities and projections. Period.

I’m speaking the truth. Everything that I have said here is the truth. Please put an end to this. I’m unable to go on. I’m physically, mentally and psychologically exhausted.

I’m not okay. I hope I don’t die. I don’t want to die now. Things are finally good after a lifetime of suffering and pain. Ginny is going to come back. God I hope I don’t die. I’m glad I was able to clear my name. I’m okay with dying. But not yet. I want…

I don’t feel very good. I need to speak to my therapist. There’s tightness in my chest. A raging storm inside my head that doesn’t seem to settle. I’m not okay. The last time I was close to okay was in 2022 when I was speaking to Ginny. I’ve been fighting relentlessly since then. I…

What’s going on man?

The truth is already out. What exactly am I waiting for?

If you want to take revenge. Always make sure you take the ethical road to revenge. Don’t get your hands dirty. And waste your precious life for temporary jokers. You can think whatever you want. But don’t materialise it. Before doing something unethical and shady. Think about the consequences and think about things from a…

2 questions to ask yourself every time you have a problem. If it’s either. Suck it up and stop being a pussy. Life is unfair. Everyone has shit going on. Have a little tolerance for pain. If it’s neither. Then fret about it.

YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN

It was Dumbledore’s decision. Not mine.

It was Dumbledore who asked me to stop the additional medicine that helps me feel horny. In the beginning of 2023. It was Dumbledore’s decision. Not mine. I told him about the side effect. The white thing in my underwear. So he asked me to stop. My throat was completely fucked. I was extremely sick…

What exactly am I waiting for?

I make up fake scenarios in my head. Cry and listen to music. Till I fall asleep. The world is so quiet at this time. Not a deafening quiet. More like a peaceful lull that lets my mind wander. I’ve even thought of what to do if in case Ginny cheats on me. Welcome to…

11.27pm. My heart aches so much. I miss Ginny. I listen to music and cry around this time. Most nights. I’m just so tired. There’s a storm inside my head that I try to heal with music. It gets really heavy sometimes. I’ve been dealing with everything alone since January 2025. I want to speak…

The term “trauma bonding” is being used as a “get out of jail free card” for people who are actually being predatory or abusive. It’s been thrown around online and normalised in vocabulary. It’s not always the case.

In most cases. There’s no such thing as trauma bonding. Don’t support and normalise the behavioural issues of lonely sex addicts. By calling it as trauma bonding. They lack social skills like social experiences and interactions. They lack the ability to respect people’s boundaries and respect NO. They lack the ability to regulate their emotions.…

Night x * I’d rather die.

The truth is already out. How much will you drag this unnecessarily? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

The symbol for. NO, I refuse to conform.

Note. Hypothetically even if he assumed we were dating. He has no right to kiss me without my consent. When I was being extremely clear that my throat was hurting. And I was regularly going to the emergency ward. Also. We were not dating. He was just a casual friend and neighbour. I have not…

The truth is already out. What exactly am I waiting for?

How much will you drag this unnecessarily? There’s nothing left to say.

This was an inside joke between Teni and I. I honestly don’t know what happened between us. The friendship breakup doesn’t make sense.

I cannot keep repeating the same things everyday. Till you are satisfied. The truth is already out. I have finished. I cannot help if you are still horny. Please stop trying to do anal. I gave you consent only for missionary.

Please stop wasting my precious time. The truth is already out long ago. It’s over.

The truth is already out. When you wanted me dead and tortured me. Based on lies and manipulations. You didn’t drag shit. Everything happened so damn quickly. Why the fuck are you dragging shit now? How much will you drag shit unnecessarily? The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on man?

The truth is already out. There’s nothing left to say. I’m not interested in repeating the same things everyday.

The truth is already out. What exactly am I waiting for? How much will you drag this unnecessarily?

What’s going on man?

Please stop making me repeat the same things everyday. I’m extremely tired. I don’t know how I’m holding on. There’s nothing left to say.

The truth is already out long ago. How much will you drag shit unnecessarily? When people wanted me dead and tortured me. Based on lies and manipulations. You didn’t drag shit. I kept screaming “please ask me what happened”. But everything happened so damn quickly. Why the fuck are you dragging shit now? The truth…

Note.

Note. Note.

Note. Note.

Note.

Note. Note.

There’s nothing left to say.

There’s nothing left to say. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. I’ve given irrefutable solid proofs. The truth is already out. The liars are already in front of the world. I’ve explained, cleared, proved and clarified every single miniscule thing. More than enough and necessary. I’ve gone to the root…

The truth is already out. How much will you drag this? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

What’s going on man?

The truth is already out. Why are you dragging shit unnecessarily? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

What’s going on man?

I love watching edits on Instagram and YouTube. I’m like always lost in different fandoms.

The truth is already out. What exactly am I waiting for?

Who remembers coming back home from school and listening to Avril Lavigne on MTV?

I’m mentally, physically and psychologically exhausted. I don’t feel very good. Also I have period cramps. I don’t know how I’m holding on. I’m really tired. I was thinking about the time I was going to die 2 years ago. I’ve been fighting ever since. Without any rest. My nieces are so active. They were…

Please watch this again. This explains what I was trying to communicate with the chess analogy. I’m not playing the game. I’m ending the game. There’s a difference. Please read below again. All sentences are positive in the blog. I used it positively. You are cherry picking the word checkmate, taking it out of context…

The truth is already out. How much will you drag this unnecessarily?

What’s going on?

The truth is already out. What exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

The truth is already out. How much will you drag this unnecessarily? I’m really not okay. I’m barely holding on. It’s over man. What’s going on? What are you doing? Please stop wasting my precious time. Please stop wasting everyone’s time, effort and energy.

I’ve been thinking about Teni’s betrayal. Whatever he did says everything about him. And nothing about me. My success was making him feel inferior. He was downplaying my value and worth to exert false superiority. So that he can protect his fragile ego. This shows how insecure he really is. It doesn’t say anything about…

The truth is already out. What exactly am I waiting for? Why are you dragging shit unnecessarily?

The truth is already out. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? Why the fuck are you showing me lyrics of mastermind everyday? What’s going on man?

What exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

I was kept in the dark, silenced and tortured my whole life. I was called crazy and made to question my own reality. My life was sabotaged in the name of help. I was tortured in the name of empathy. I asked Dumbledore on day one itself. “Why are people speaking to me that way”.…

I wish Voldemort would have spoken to me like a normal person. I had absolutely no interest in Ashwin Srinivas. He used to keep calling me ugly. He harassed me so much. I lowkey hated him. I liked him as my friend though. Because back then I liked everyone platonically.

What exactly am I waiting for?

In 2023 and 2024. My throat was completely fucked. I was going to die because of my throat. I was extremely sick, suicidal and going through something very serious. Everyone in this world knew about it. It wasn’t a secret. That’s when these monsters like. Dhruv, Pettigrew, Rahuul Rishav, monster at social, Anna, monster at…

Note. This is what Dhruv did when I was sick.

The aggressive stalker belongs in jail. He is just a random neighbour and a stalker. He started stalking me in 2023. I ended it peacefully after a few days. In August 2024. One day suddenly he started aggressively stalking me and pouncing on me. Violently and vigorously. No matter how many times I said no.…

Note. Whatever the monster at social did is called attempt to murder, sexual assault, unethical behaviour and stalking. I was extremely sick and dying because of my throat. She intentionally gave me manipulated food and started smiling when I was suffering. After that she came running like a buffalo and pounced on me with full…

Rahuul Rishav was my neighbour. I started speaking to him because I wanted to go to the bookstore. We went to the bookstore and went to Koramangala social while coming back. He was just a neighbour and casual friend. We went to BLR once. I kept telling him again and again. That I was extremely…

Whatever they did is called. Unethical behaviour, defamation, false accusations, verbal abuse, cheating me with my money.

When I went to the crochet class “tsala studio”. I had cramps because of the first day of periods. I was also anxious because it’s a new place. I was talking to the teacher and she closed her nose and moved back and created a scene. I didn’t have bad breath. My mouth was dry…