I remember this is around the same time that I was texting Ashwin.
The guy from shaadi.com.
(I already told you about him.)
I wasn’t really interested in him.
I was casually texting him.
I vaguely remember, he asked me what turns me on.
I gave him a random list.
Little context.
The thing with me is that.
When I text these random men from bumble and matrimony apps.
I’m not entirely honest.
Because I won’t be interested in them.
I don’t really see a future with them.
Nor do I like them.
It’s just casual.
So I say white lies.
Sometimes I flirt.
Sometimes I sext.
If I’m in the mood.
It doesn’t really mean anything.
Because they are just temporary people.
It’s mutual.
Because I don’t think they see a future too.
I ghost everyone after sometime.
So when he asked me that question.
I gave a random list which wasn’t true.
I don’t remember exactly what I said.
But I do remember adding boobs to that list.
I remember this was around the same time that everyone suddenly started showing me their boobs.
And tried to lure me.
So I guess they were reading my messages to him.
(It kinda makes sense now.)
Whatever happened was extremely scrutinizing and inhuman torture.
I just couldn’t handle it.
Because I was not fucking interested.
Luring is a form of sexual assault.
It was inhuman.
rachana rajan <3 