I’ve been facing sexual dysfunction since childhood.
Maybe it’s because I had a different childhood.
I always thought I was asexual.
On top of that.
Because of the medication that I have been taking for over a decade.
My prolactin level is higher than normal.
Both together.
My vagina is always dead as a rock.
During childhood sometimes I used to get turned on in a quick burst and it would immediately pass.
I don’t know why that happened.
I’m not a doctor.
It wasn’t because of any person.
Because as I mentioned.
I was asexual for the majority of my life.
I wasn’t attracted to anyone.
But sometimes when I was outside.
I would get hit with these quick bursts.
It happened 2-3 times.
It was so many years ago.
It’s really difficult to remember it clearly.
I’ve been thinking about it a lot.
I don’t know if I was hit with that burst of feelings when I was with Voldemort and the friend group.
Or I was copying Bella.
I used to copy everything that Bella used to do.
Whenever I like a book I make it my entire personality.
I copied everything she did.
I remember clearly I started biting my lips because of her.
I remember reading about it as well.
But I don’t remember the incident with Voldemort and the group.
I keep thinking about it.
But I’m not able to recall everything.
We have hanged out so many times since High school.
But I definitely had no feelings for Ashwin Srinivas.
I lowkey hated him.
I never liked him.
I liked him platonically because he was part of the friend group.
Lockhart is the first person I was sexually attracted to.
