3.04 am.
I woke up suddenly at 1.30 am.
Because I had a nightmare followed by sleep paralysis.
I don’t want to talk about it.
I just want to forget it.
If I dwell on the dream and analyse it, I’ll remember it forever.
So usually when I have nightmares.
I push it out of my mind and consciously not think about it till I forget it completely.
It works.
I’m unable to go back to sleep.
I miss Ginny so much.
My heart aches.
I keep hugging my blanket and pretending it’s her.
I miss her so much sometimes I start to cry randomly.
I create fake scenarios in my head.
About Ginny obviously.
I’ve been doing it since we met.
She’s always on my mind.
I’m so fucking tired.
I can feel my body and mind shutting down.
I reached my breaking point last week.
I need to see a doctor immediately.
My mind is not functioning properly.
I’m unable to go on.
I cannot do this anymore.
