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I don’t know if you’ve noticed. But any problem in life. Like failure, rejection, gaslighting, etc. Hurts the first couple of times when it happens. But after that the body adapts to the problem and you become immune to it. You kinda get used to it. And it no longer hurts. This is how I…
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If I get to know about infidelity. I’m definitely going to tell the spouse/partner. No matter who it is. You can’t have the cake and eat it too.
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A good man is not an average woman. We assume it to be true. Because an average woman is a two face bitch. That’s just her facade. All are equal. It’s not the gender. It all comes down to the person and their character.
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How cruel is a person who knows a vulnerable information about you. And intentionally uses it to take advantage of you and your helplessness. And plays twisted games.
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Wanting credit and convention for my hard earned work is normal. Because it’s my sweat, blood and tears. I fucking deserve it. It is not a fucking power play. Someone who considers this as a power play is not my fucking friend. And does not deserve access to me.
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Thank you. Is the normal response to compliments and helpful statements. Not “Come to my house”. If someone is a lonely sex addict. If someone lacks social skills and comprehension. If someone has an extreme case of para social relationship. If someone is projecting. It is not my fucking fault.
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The barista at Starbucks Koramangala looks exactly like the actress in the movie Jawaan. When she asked me about my coffee. I complimented her and told her the same. Complimenting is like second nature for me. I compliment everyone I speak to. I’ve complimented so many strangers. You can check this information. She was working…
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Also. I don’t know if they are fucking IRL. You should probably ask Teni and his multiple side pieces.
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Someone please help me. I want a normal and conventional life. Why am I being kept in the dark? What’s going on? Please help me.
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Please don’t push this behaviour aside by calling me spiderman. It’s much deeper than that. It’s psychological. Whatever is happening is extremely serious. People in India just want the attention and glory that comes attached to me. People just want to benefit out of me. This is the brutal reality of what’s happening. And the…
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FYI to the husbands of Teni’s friends and colleagues. They are sending him nudes and getting hot. While their husbands are sleeping. Message to Teni. You play stupid games. You win stupid prizes brother.
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I keep checking Ginny’s Instagram from my second account. I miss her so much. I’m so tired. I also miss my best friend Will. I hope he speaks to me soon. I’m so fucking tired. I’m so tired of waiting.
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I want a normal and conventional life. That’s the only way to end this shit. I don’t want to be treated this way ever again. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. The truth is already out long ago. The liars are already in front of the world. What the fuck…
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Now that I’m successful. Speaking to people from the past has turned into a power play. They can no longer keep me under their feet like a doormat. Since I’m no longer a failure and I’m insanely successful. Also. I have self respect and self love now. It threatens their self worth. They don’t like…
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India is getting all this attention and glory because of me. But in reality. Indians are playing these twisted psychological games with me. To exert false superiority and sadistic pleasure and a weapon to provoke and rage bait. I was treated like an animal by a room full of doctors as well recently. I’m also…
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What the fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on? When the world wants to benefit out of me and create content out of my content. Everything happens so quickly. When people copy my work and write books and songs and make movies. Everything happens so quickly. When people want to throw things on my…
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Teni was constantly trying to diminish my value and worth. By saying things like my advices were not helping him and I’m not good. Even though he was quoting my words on a daily basis and using my advices that I write here. He didn’t want to accept the fact on a personal front because…
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When I get to know about infidelity. I’m definitely going to tell the spouse. No matter who it is. Even if it is my best friend or sister or brother in law or whoever it might be. I will definitely tell the spouse. Hypothetically. When Ginny and I get married. And if she’s cheating on…
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Initially, I liked speaking to Teni and I liked him as my friend. Until it got toxic AF. His true colours spilled out I suppose. He doesn’t really show any love while speaking. I mean, the platonic love that friends show while speaking to you. The way my other friends speak to me in a…
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As long as I exist this way. Shit will continue forever and ever. What the fuck am I waiting for man?
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I feel when a partner is cheating and you get to know about it. You should let them know. Because hypothetically. If my partner was cheating on me. I would want to know about it. It’s always better that way. I want Jane to know. This is the only way I can tell her.
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This is the reality of how people in India are treating me. I don’t really understand why India is getting so much attention from the world. Because of me. When in reality. Indians are just doing this. My whole life and even now.
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The gaslighting didn’t hurt me. It’s just the fact that people use it as a weapon against me. Always ready and handy. They know a sensitive vulnerable information about you. And they take advantage of that information to destroy you intentionally. And play twisted games. Instead of just ending things peacefully. Most people lack empathy…
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Also. I want the world to know the psychological twisted games that people play with me. Because of the reality and double life that I’m existing in. People clearly know and understand what they are doing. And they intentionally do it anyway. It’s just sad to think how low someone can stoop. But they don’t…
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My intention to write about him is because. I want his wife to know the truth. I know there’s always two sides to the story. So she should probably ask him and sort it out. I cannot keep it inside me. I feel this is the right thing to do.
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In between all this. I treated him as a friend and told him about Ginny, Will, Draco and everything else. We were friends for a while. He lent me money in January too to pay my credit card bill. It was going good until it got toxic AF. He is always so blunt with me.…
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Later. Shit started. He is always working 247. So I started telling him about how he should take care of himself and work life balance. Because friends help each other grow. I also asked him about his issues with his wife with the intention of helping him mend the relationship. But he kept shutting me…
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I started speaking to Teni Thomas in December. I already told you about him. Please refer to below. I should not have. Considering his behaviour so far. But then I felt, people change people grow. Huge mistake. Initially he gaslighted me intentionally. I stated my boundaries and he lashed out. Which is emotional immaturity. But…
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Everyone fucks up from time to time. Even the best of us. Say you’re sorry and mend your words. Do better next time. It’s okay.
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It’s okay to change your mind. It’s okay to say you were wrong and change and grow. It’s okay to redeem yourself. It’s never too late to do the right thing. Just change. Try.
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Because of the way women have been behaving with me. I’m so fucking traumatized. That’s why I’m saying whatever I’m saying. My words are justified. Based on my experience. God.
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I’m not stupid. I do understand what men are capable of. I do understand why we should be scared of them. I’m scared to travel alone in the night too. But I do know not all men are like that. Because I’ve been lucky enough to know them and speak to them. I’m just choosing…
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I’m sorry to say this. Most of the things that people see as “problems”. I don’t see them as problems. I see them as middle school first world problems. I don’t understand why people fret so much like children. Have a little tolerance for pain. Stop being a pussy. I guess it’s because I’ve gone…
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I don’t understand why people complain about ghosting. I’m completely okay with temporary people ghosting me. If you don’t like me. Please ghost/block/delete/unfollow. When someone doesn’t want to be my friend. It’s not betrayal. They are not my enemy. I wish them well from a distance. God bless them. When someone doesn’t care. Neither do…
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Rejection is a middle school first world problem. If someone doesn’t have the capability to handle something as silly as rejection. They are not qualified to get married. Because marriage is not a walk through a fresh sunflower meadow. So if they attack you when you reject them. You have your answer. Thank your lucky…
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I love being alone. I enjoy my own company and solitude. Also. Personally, I don’t think marriage is the end goal of life. I’m okay without it. So if I’m deciding to spend my life with someone. Unless it’s a fuck yes. It’s a no.
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Note. Sorry. I don’t want to stereotype. I think my words sounded like I was stereotyping. Not all women are like this. There are women out there who initiate conversations and express their feelings too. I have experience speaking to women who have too much ego and are petty AF. That’s why I said this.…
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When I see her. I forget where I am. I forget the time. The day. The year. My name. Everything. I’m just a puddle of mush and goo. And love.
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Also. She’s so beautiful. Omg she’s so insanely hot. I start feeling dizzy when I look at her. I forget how to speak and think when I’m with her. When she holds me or touches my thigh. My heart starts beating wildly and I feel like I’m going to faint. And electricity. Omg. I cannot…
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Also. Ginny had sent me a request on Shaadi.com. But I didn’t accept it. I told you this already. I was receiving a lot of requests from good looking men back then. They were fake accounts. Back then men weren’t interested in me. So yeah. I was being scammed. That’s why I didn’t accept her…
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Since last one year. Whenever I eat chicken, I get a really bad tummy ache. I honestly don’t know why. I’m a vegetarian since 2023. I rarely eat meat. Just sometimes. Once in a while. When I was dating Ginny. We were eating vegetarian food whenever we met. I met one of my friends during…
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Note. When I say I don’t have an ego. I mean I have a healthy ego. My ego is not bigger than my head.
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I don’t have an ego. I only speak to people who don’t have an ego. Everyone in my close circle doesn’t have an ego. I stay 100 miles away from people with ego. I cannot stand it.
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Women say “I don’t chase, I attract.” And they lure. Then they choose among the men who like them and pursue them. They don’t pursue the men whom they like. Because they fear rejection. Because ego. Marriage is not a walk through a fresh sunflower meadow. If you can’t handle something as silly as rejection.…
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We are all adults here. I have explained everything long ago in detail. There’s no misunderstandings or mistakes. People clearly understand and know what they are doing.
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Don’t push this behaviour aside by calling me spiderman. It’s much deeper than that. Whatever is happening is very serious, alarming and barbaric. It’s psychological.
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I have already explained the twisted games that people play when they speak to me in detail. Also. When they speak to my parents. I have explained the complexities of existing in this reality and double life in detail. I want a normal and conventional life. I want credit, convention, recognition and respect for my…
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Another reason why certain people from my past are not speaking to me is because. They can no longer exert false superiority. And keep me under their feet. You know the power play. Because now I’m successful and I’ve cleared my name. Also. Because now I have self respect and self love. And I won’t…
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According to me. Cheating is not a deadly sin. Hypothetically, if I find out my partner is cheating. The first thing I will do is ask, “What happened.” I mean it’s just consensual sex. There is two sides to the story even in cheating. I mean it’s subjective. Sometimes it can be forgiven. Sometimes we…
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I don’t think there’s anything left to say. I’m just repeating the same things. Like a crazy person. Sigh.
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Men aren’t that great either. Some of them are misogynistic patriarchal incel assholes. Some are disgusting and creepy. Some are so cheap that when you reject them, they attack you. Some of them sexually assault and I was also raped. Agh. Luckily, I’ve met some amazing men too. I’ve had positive experiences.
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I’m like a bro to my guy friends and the men I like. I value the friendship aspect. I don’t mind pursuing someone I really like. I’m honest with my feelings. I’m okay with rejection. I don’t play these stupid games. I say what I mean. I cut the drama. I see myself as Robin…
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Don’t get me started on the games that women play while dating. They are never honest with their feelings. When a man texts them. They don’t respond quickly even if they are free. They like to give the illusion of being busy. They respond after a day or two or after many hours. Neethu does…
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Women never say, “I like him.” They always say, “he likes me.” Because of their ego, fear of rejection and also they lack integrity. They always project their feelings. I don’t know if you’ve noticed. But they always choose men who like them. They don’t really care if they like that man or not. As…
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Men who are good silently take shit from society because of the men who commit crimes. They won’t say these things openly. Because they will face backlash. Also feminism comes into picture. But I’m not afraid to speak the truth. I’m speaking the truth. I stand by the truth.
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Stop hating on men and putting women on a pedestal. All are equal. There are men who are good and women who are good. There are men who are monsters and women who are monsters. I know there’s a certain percentage of men who are not good. But women are not that great either. Women…
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A good man is not an average woman. Half the women population are two face bitches. They are just hiding behind their facade. There’s nothing I hate more than two face bitches. The ones who project the persona that they are delicate flimsy angel princesses who can do no wrong. But in reality they are…
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I’m not supporting men. I’m not supporting women either. I’m not biased towards any gender. I don’t stereotype any gender as well. I stand with the truth.
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After the way people have been behaving and my experiences. My words are justified. I’m not even sorry. Bloody motherfuckers.
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Caveat. I’m not attracted to women. That’s why I find most women vulgar and repulsive. I’m not attracted to men as well. That’s why I find them disgusting and creepy. Because I’m demisexual. And bisexual only 5% of the time and only online. If it was otherwise. My thoughts would have been different. Also. Because…
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Platonically, I have love and respect for everyone. As a part of my community and society. Please keep it platonic with me. Please don’t make it weird. I never speak against innocent people. But if you fuck with me and jump. I will show you a mirror and bring you back to earth.
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I find most women vulgar and repulsive. There’s a fine line between vulgar and hot. Most women cross that line. I’m not attracted to women IRL. I’m bisexual only 5% of the time. And it’s only online. My feelings are feeble and temporary. Also. Men. I’m not attracted to men as well. I find most…
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I’m 100% sure women are doing the same things with men. That’s why I keep saying. Don’t support a woman. Just because she’s a woman. Don’t blame a man. Just because he’s a man.
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Women have this mentality that just because they are women everyone will like them. So they lure, make a move, sexually assault, force me to go to their house. Etc. Why? Because I’m openly bisexual. Also. They have so much bloody ego. When you reject them. They spread false accusations. They have an upper hand…
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If I was a man. I would have been dead long back. Even though I’m innocent. I want you to clearly understand what some bitches are capable of. When a man and a woman break up. Don’t automatically assume it’s the man’s fault. Don’t automatically take the woman’s side. Until and unless you know the…
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I’m not supporting men. But men are speaking the truth. Women do have a habit of luring. After I came out as bisexual. So many women have tried to lure me. Ugly, pathetic, constipated, disgusting, creepy looking women. Who are beneath my standards. I don’t understand why women shit talk about men. Because women are…
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I found Will’s number. When we met in 2022. He had sent me money on gpay. (his share of the bill) I found his gpay ID from my bank statement. Entered it on gpay. And found his number.
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The truth is already out. I’m not interested in repeating the same things. Please stop wasting my precious time. I’m not interested. What the fuck is going on?
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Since it’s warmer. I would like to wear shorts at home but I can’t. Because father will ogle at my body like a ruthless vulture. And it will fuck me up. Father just doesn’t stop. So I’m continuing to wear pants for my peace of mind. He really did sexually assault me in the past.…
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Don’t support people from the weaker sections of society. Just because they are weak. __ Don’t support people who are from the LGBTQ community. Just because they are gay. __ Don’t support old people. Just because they are old. __ Don’t support disabled people. Just because they are disabled. __ Don’t support a woman. Just…
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Every time I share something. People search the history to check if the same thing was said by someone else. Like something even similar. Then everyone suddenly speaks about the similar quote and resurfaces it. Even though it’s my words that are making the impact and change. The similar words by someone else were actually…
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I want a normal and conventional life. I want credit, convention, recognition and respect for my work. This is my blood, sweat and tears. I fucking deserve it. I don’t want jokers to undermine me for an upper hand in the conversation ever again. Most people are creepy fans with a leverage. They take advantage…
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It’s the weather for cold showers again. I’m extremely sick. I don’t know how I’m holding on, tbh. So are my parents. I don’t have money for anything. It’s just so tiring, frustrating and difficult to exist this way. If I had an ETA it would have been easier to handle. I’m fucking tired. And…
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Seeing your friend naked/half naked. Quite normal. Kissing your guy friend and having “a thing” with them at one point. Quite normal. Your friends staring at your body contextually. Quite normal. Your friends staring at your ass, boobs, bra etc and commenting on it. Quite normal. Making explicit jokes when you get comfortable with your…
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I’m grateful to my community for helping me and supporting me. Once this is done. And I have a normal and conventional life. I’m okay with everyone moving on. I’m so glad that the battle is finally over. And we’re here waiting. I’m happy. But also extremely tired. I’m waiting to see a doctor. Also.…
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People chase success. But they don’t realise that success is transient. The world moves on. Yes, it feels great for a while. Then it wears off. It’s not everything. Make sure your priorities are in place. Yes, you should have goals and dreams. Yes, you need enough money to live a comfortable life. These things…
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No matter how many times or how many ways. I ask father not to silence mother by saying, “can you stop” and “can you shut up” when she is speaking. He just doesn’t change. It’s not mother’s fault. The truth is that father is never going to completely change. All of us have made peace…
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If you consider your therapist as your best friend and feel safe with them. That means your therapist is “your therapist” and they are good at their job. Because as I mentioned. Your therapist can be your best friend with a boundary. But for your therapist you are not a friend. It’s one sided and…
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Setting a boundary with someone who has a huge ego turns into a power clash. If you want to know someone’s true character. Tell them no. How they handle rejection says everything you need to know about them. Also. Conflict. Very important. Anyone can be good when things are rosey and good. Don’t decide blindly.…
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When someone does something wrong to you. And you call out their shit in front of the world. They kinda tend to stay away from you. Because they don’t know how to face you. They don’t have the ability to apologise and take accountability. So they avoid. That’s why Draco and Neethu didn’t speak to…
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I don’t know who it was who decided to help me. When whatever happened with Pettigrew. I remember father saying, it was someone from outside India. For which I want to say. Thank you. Thank you for believing in me. I don’t really hate India. I like my country. I like where I live. But…
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I want injustice to be answered with justice. I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice.
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When whatever happened with Pettigrew. It’s people in the US, Taylor Swift and the other parts of the world who took my side and stopped the torture. When people in this place just wanted an excuse to go berserk like cavemen. My annoyance with people in India is legit, valid and justified.
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People in India just want the attention and glory that comes attached to me. This is the reality of how I’m being treated.
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After everything that we went through together a random stranger lied. And people ganged up and started torturing me and tried killing me. Without asking me what happened and my side of the story. Because they desperately wanted something against me to satisfy their demons and pull me down. Now that I’ve cleared my name…
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When the movie Jawaan was released. Indians were constantly saying how much they hate it. When an ugly pathetic and constipated looking woman who is beneath my standards. Switched seats in my presence. And I stood up for myself. I was attacked in the bus. These are the same aunties and behenjis who ogle at…
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When I started creating content. People in India were constantly creating content out of my content and constantly opposing me to bring me down. Whenever I say I don’t like a certain book. People would intentionally start reading that book in front of me whenever I go out. They don’t care about the book. They…
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It took me a long time to understand the concept of texting and calling. After I got my phone. Back then cell phones were a new thing. Even when I started working. It took me a long time to understand my job. At Askaban and Ministry. I’m not good at these corporate jobs. I’m not…
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Initially when I got my first phone. I didn’t know how texting worked. That’s why I sent Voldemort too many messages. Also. Ghosting those days was brutal. It took me some time to figure out how to text. Back then my mind wasn’t developed. So I didn’t know a lot of things.
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I love threads so much. It’s like word porn. I have a new found love for Reddit and Tumblr too. I scroll through them every now and then. I’ve been using Pinterest since I read about Magnolia Parks’ obsession with it. That’s pretty cool too. So yeah. These are all the fun apps I’ve been…
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I created a new Instagram account to stalk Ginny’s Display picture. I texted Draco the other day. When I checked today, it looks like she blocked me. I guess she’s not interested in speaking. Makes sense because our friendship is severed. I don’t know how to feel about it though. My heart dropped and my…
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I also look like a grandma because I slouch. I have grandma hobbies. I love writing letters and postcards. I’m old school. I have an old soul. Even when it comes to love.
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Also. I don’t know how to use apps. It takes me some time to figure it out. I’m like a grandma who just discovered the WiFi when it comes to these things. When I started using Goodreads religiously. I had no idea how it worked. I did some BS. And the world kept reacting. It…
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I started reading The Invisible life of Addie LaRue in 2023. But it triggered me. So I DNFed it. I picked it up again in 2024. And it saved my life. It’s because of that book that I learnt how to navigate this weird reality that I’m existing in. It helped me so much. I…
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My heart aches all the time. I miss Ginny so much. All I do is cry. I keep thinking if being this sick and not seeing a doctor is going to kill me. That thought is followed by, I want to see Ginny again before I die. That thought is followed by, I’m glad I…
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I’m extremely sick. I need to see few doctors ASAP. I don’t know how I’m holding on. What the fuck am I waiting for? The truth is out. What’s going on?
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The truth is already out long ago. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. The liars are already in front of the world. What the fuck am I waiting for?
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If you want to hype up books. You must and you should. Because every book deserves hype. There’s no such thing as a bad book. There’s just, right book wrong time. But you cannot invade in my personal space and boundaries. Without my consent and knowledge. Watch my every move. Assume shit that’s not true.…
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Learning how to agree to disagree is a really powerful skill. Millions of people in this world. Everyone can’t be the same. Everyone is unique and different like different colours of the rainbow. That’s what makes them beautiful. Uniformity is quite boring. Until and unless you are not causing any irreversible harm. There’s absolutely nothing…
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Psycho divorcee’s best friend’s girlfriend’s name is Rimpa. We were friends briefly. She was nice. You can get her details from my 2021 Instagram history. Please fact check whatever I said. Also, speak to Lucius Malfoy about what I mentioned. Whenever I say something. Please check.
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I love bees. I even have a bee engraved on my body. Because Magnolia and BJ. Because Jessa Hastings words are like crack. I can’t. I miss them.
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I know Lucius Malfoy was a bitch. But we were really close briefly. Whenever we meet. Her eyes are always on my clothes (body). She keeps sliding her eyes on my body contextually and compliments my clothes. She always looks at my ass contextually and compliments me. Like every single time. Because I have a…
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Psycho divorcee’s best friend’s girlfriend has seen me half naked. Because we were changing our clothes in front of each other. When I said goodbye to her, I kissed her on the cheek and hugged her. She was good. We stopped speaking after things ended with psycho divorcee. She was nice though. Even his best…
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Thank God I didn’t become friends with Pettigrew. My intuition saved me. I kept pushing her because of my intuition. I’m extremely open minded and have a sparkly personality. And she’s a lonely sex addict who lacks comprehension and social skills. If I had become friends with her. I would have walked into my death.…
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Also. I don’t remember if I said this. Will is not my ex. We were best friends from the beginning. We were in love with each other initially, yes. But we never met or dated. And then he got engaged and married. He moved on first. I took some time. He didn’t know that I…
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I hope Will reaches out to me soon. I miss my best friend. I don’t know. Life’s been shit. I’m sorry about whatever I said. It doesn’t matter anymore. I literally don’t care who is wrong or right. I’m sorry. I know you are reading this. Please talk to me?
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My heart is in so much pain. I miss Ginny. I’m so fucking fed up. I’m also really sick. I could barely hold on today. Some days are just bad. Also. When my parents bicker in the hall. It adds to the pain. I badly want to move out but I also don’t want to…
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Please ask Jitesh Nair about blacking out at his bachelor party. Ask father about the CET placements. Ask mom about Christmas 2022. Whenever I say something. Fact check that information. I’m speaking the truth. Everything that I have said here is the truth.
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It’s because Dumbledore fucked up that he started giving me medicines. It’s because of the medicines that my prolactin level is higher than normal. Hence I was able to prove that I was not horny in 2023 and 2024. Which served as a crucial evidence in destroying the horcrux that Voldemort planted inside me. There…
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I wanted to type, “our tiny earth” but typed “the earth” without realising. (Gosh! you’re such a scatter brain Harry) There are so many typos and grammatical mistakes. I can’t even.
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……and then suddenly it’s so warm that wearing a jacket on my morning walk is suffocating. How did that happen I wonder? Did the earth do its little twirl on its tippy toes? Around our very own personal humongous star radiating warmth and cozy.
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Another thing that I like about Ginny is that. When I send her songs. She actually listens to them. She pays attention and remembers everything. Even I don’t remember the things I’ve said sometimes. But she remembers them. And asks questions when we meet. This quality is so fucking attractive. Men/friends in my life have…
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I clearly said Pettigrew is not my friend on day one itself. I tried explaining the para social relationship. But people ganged up and started torturing me inhumanly without mercy. Whenever something happens. I’m not only faced with the problem. But also public scrutiny. People lack maturity and they behave like fucking barbaric cavemen. I…
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Whatever it is. I don’t have any animosity against Neethu. She’s not my enemy. I wish her well. God bless her. I still like her as my friend.
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I guess Neethu is not speaking to me because she’s guilty for the way she treated me. She didn’t support my youtube in the initial days and snapped at me. She hypes up all her friends. But she didn’t do it for me. Maybe she thought I was cringe or because she didn’t want her…
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No one knows whatever I have written here these last 4 years. People close to me and my therapist know only 10% of what I have written here. Honestly I didn’t understand my story myself to say it to others. Also. People in my past always treated me like a doormat and silenced me whenever…
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A lot of unfair things happened to us on a large scale. I faced so much shit that no one knew about. I’m grateful that the world took responsibility and helped. Also. Listened to my story since 2022. Now it’s 2026. I have finally said everything that’s important and crucial. It’s difficult to write and…
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Father has suffered his whole life too. Because of poverty and people who treated him poorly. He took out his frustrations on mother, sister and I. Our whole family has suffered. Whatever Voldemort did added to the suffering and made it 100 times worse. My life was sabotaged in the name of help. I was…
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Today is my mom’s birthday. She was saying how her mother gave birth to her and left her in hell and died. And she started to cry. I feel sorry for her. Because she has suffered her whole life because of father. Also, because we lived in poverty. I suffered because of the same reasons.…
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When I feel like I’m the one who is always putting in the effort. When I get the feeling that I’m chasing. I withdraw. And take a step back. With Ginny, it’s different. But it’s not going to happen with others.
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When someone doesn’t care. I stop caring too. It’s called self respect and self love. Your self respect and self love should be stronger than your feelings. You should have self respect but not ego. There’s a difference.
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Unless you are Ginny Weasley. I don’t have unconditional love for you. No offense. I have it to a certain extent for people in my close circle as well, which includes my family. But it ends there. I don’t give away my unconditional love like candy during halloween.
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The thing with what happened is that. There’s a pattern in Neethu’s behaviour. She keeps saying she will do something. But she doesn’t really do it. Because she doesn’t want to. She just doesn’t say no. Like. __ If she didn’t want to post the story. She could have declined. But she kept saying she’ll…
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I asked her to take up therapy a few times when we were speaking in 2022 and when I called her in 2023. Because therapy was helping me and she was saying that she’s depressed. I guess she didn’t like that. Because she got irritated each time. I said it in a friendly way because…
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That was the only instance that we had a fight. But apart from that, things were good. We got back in touch after that incident. When I came out as bisexual. I said to her that I had a crush on her when we met in 2021. She called me home. But I didn’t go…
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I had a friend, Neethu. I’ve already spoken about her. We met through her sister who went to the same college as me. We started speaking in 2021 and got pretty close. She was good to me whenever we spoke. But we had little differences here and there. Like. After I started my youtube. I…
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Good night.
Sending this to Lockhart and psycho perfect man when they tried to rekindle and abusing them. Was one of the highlights of my life. Satisfaction UNMATCHED. P.S. I know I’ve said this a few times before. But the feeling was truly great. I cannot shut up about it. Sorry not sorry.
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I don’t understand why the world is giving India so much attention. When this is the reality of what’s going on with me and my family. The barbaric atrocities that we are facing. The whole world is benefitting out of me. And we are suffering without money to take care of basic expenses. On top…
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People in India just want the attention and glory that comes attached to me. I was treated like an animal in the emergency ward full of doctors. When I was suffering and in extreme pain. This was recently. They were smiling a twisted creepy malicious smile while assaulting me. Mind you they were doctors in…
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Also. I don’t understand the intentional and unnecessary gaslighting. If you are a friend. Behave like one man.
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My community is like Ron Weasley. If they really consider me as a friend. They will respect my personal space and boundaries. Because that’s what friends do. They will understand the fact that it’s not humanly possible for me to be friends with everyone. They won’t trouble me intentionally. They will give me the respect…
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I take absolutely no responsibility for someone else’s insecurities. Lack of comprehension and social skills. Lack of knowledge of code of conduct. Projections. Para social aggressions. It’s not my fucking problem. It’s none of my business.
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Just because someone is a creepy fan and desperate to be my friend. I cannot comply. I’m not fucking interested. I’m not interested even if it is the Prince of England or the Prime Minister of India or a beggar in Koramangala. Half the population are jokers in a white cardigan. Some people have extreme…
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I’m okay with trauma dumping as long as it’s someone from my close circle who is doing it. Also. When it’s being done when I’m in the mindspace to listen to it and when I’m available to speak. Not from a random stranger whom I asked to take my picture. Also. When I’m not in…
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I’m not interested in engaging with anyone who lacks comprehension and social skills ever again. I value my life more than socialising with stupidity. I’m not fucking interested. No thank you.
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She lacks comprehension and social skills like social experiences and interactions. She is a lonely sex addict. She gossips and is a chronic complainer. She doesn’t understand the code of conduct. She has extreme behavioural issues. She is a narcissist, sociopath and pathological psychopath. She always plays the victim card. She has an ego bigger…
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If Pettigrew had misunderstandings. She should have told the full story and said she misunderstood. The casualties would have been less for her. Because initially I spoke in a way to help her and sugarcoated the truth. But not only did she state the misunderstandings as facts. But she exaggerated it, lied and manipulated the…
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I told you long ago that. Hypothetically I would have said yes to Milan Mehta if I had not met Ginny. I take that back. On second thought. It doesn’t feel right with him. I don’t know why. I would probably be dead long ago if I had not met Ginny. So the hypothetical situation…
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My girl friends have always been generous with their compliments. But not men. As I mentioned, I was invisible. I have faced a lot of name calling growing up. Men started noticing me only after I got a make over and changed my dressing sense. After that, all of a sudden everyone was chasing me.…
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When I was studying in JNC, which is an all girl’s college. We had events. I have changed my clothes in front of other girls in the loo. They were changing too. These things are quite normal in female friendships and relationships. Girls look at each other contextually and compliment all the time. I’m a…
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Whatever the intention might be for father to keep staring at me. He needs to stop doing it. Because it fucks me up and makes me uncomfortable. That’s a good enough reason for him to stop. Irrespective of his intentions.
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Also. He doesn’t really speak much to anyone openly. Like how mother does. He always keeps everything inside him. He doesn’t have an outlet for his thoughts. Hence the thoughts keep running in his mind. Since he is caught up in them and not processing them. It triggers him when mother gets emotional or speaks…
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I guess father has his own problems and worries. He always seems to have a headache thinking about them. So he’s unable to listen to conversations that trigger him. Also. He is unable to empathize with mother half the time. Because he is caught up in this thoughts. He is good to mother the other…
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Father was a monster before. After my nieces came into our lives and after we moved to this apartment. He has changed drastically now. But not completely. He is never fully going to leave his old ways behind. He is never going to change completely. That’s the truth. I’ve accepted the truth and made peace…
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It’s not just father. Every single time I step out of the house. The streets are filled with vultures, predators and flesh eating piranhas. Who ogle at my body and cleavage. Uncles, aunties and behenjis. Minimum 5 each time. Minimum. They are sex addicted monsters. They ogle at me with their mouths open and eyes…
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I’m waiting to move out. And place as much distance as possible from that man. He really did sexually assault me. The truth is not going to change. No matter how much he tries to suppress or bury it. Even today if I wear something short or revealing. He will turn his head 90 degrees…
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No matter how or when mother speaks to father. Father asks her to stop speaking. He keeps repeating, “Can you stop.” Even when mother speaks when they sit down and have a chat. Father asks her to stop speaking. When mother says things like she’s in a lot of pain and she is not able…
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After whatever happened in August 2024. My throat got fucked again. I feel better now. But it’s not completely fixed. I feel really suffocated in the middle of the day and almost everyday night. I feel drowsy as well when it happens and my eyes start to close. I usually lay down when this happens…
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My whole life horcruxes was a weapon that people used against me and they always had it handy. After I proved my sanity. The weapon has been gaslighting. Most people are creepy fans. And they have always had a leverage. I want a normal and conventional life.
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Lockhart was the first person who called me beautiful and the first person I had feelings for. No man has ever called me that before. Men never saw me growing up. I was always invisible. They spoke to me because they wanted access to my girl friends. Otherwise no one cared. So when Lockhart called…
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Ashwin Srinivas used to keep calling me ugly. He harassed me so much and so badly. I never liked him. Also. I don’t really break the girl code. I’m not interested in my best friend’s guy. If Voldemort was a good friend and if she had just spoken to me like a normal person. My…
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For which I would like to say. One. Gaslighting doesn’t hurt me anymore. It stopped hurting months ago. So the blow isn’t landing. Two. Not only is the person who is doing it losing my respect. But they are also losing access to me. Because if someone is really my friend. They will behave like…
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People gaslight not only for false superiority and sadistic pleasure. But it’s also as a weapon against me to hurt me. It’s an effortless weapon they can use any time to provoke and rage bait. It also keeps their name clear of faults and they can look all innocent while doing it. Because people do…
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Please stop using the word aggressive positively. I don’t know why people are doing it. I don’t know if it’s the new lingo now. But I go into trauma whenever I hear it. Because I feel like they are being supportive towards the aggressive stalker. And I start spiralling. The amount of harassment and assaults…
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Back then biting of the lower lip was a common thing. It was commonly written in books etc. During my college days. I used to always copy whatever I read and watch.
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After everything that we went through together. A random stranger lied. And this is what you do man? Now that the truth is out and the real culprits are out. No one wants anyone dead? Where are all the barbaric cavemen who created riots on the road? Show me your faces. Where are you?
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Just because I’m not interested in engaging with vultures, predators and flesh eating parasites. Doesn’t make me a lone wolf. I’m not an introvert. I’m an ambivert. Also. I don’t have social anxiety. Everyone knows everything about me. And people don’t know how to behave around me. Most people suck. They lack empathy and remorse.…
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I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. The liars are already in front of the world. I’m not interested in repeating the same bloody things every single day. What’s going on? What the fuck am I waiting for?
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life. Shit will continue forever and ever. I have already explained the complexities of existing in this reality in detail. In case something happens tomorrow. Please don’t blame me. I have left absolutely no room for misunderstandings and doubts. I have broken the vicious cycle…
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I was constantly praying for world peace during childhood when I was speaking to God in childhood. So I think I was chosen. And I did bring peace. Also. I didn’t die. I’m alive and normal now. Which is a miracle. I cleared my name and now the truth is out in front of the…
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There are no accidents. Everything happened the way it happened and wouldn’t have happened any other way. Also. I was able to give proof about my eyesight and the internet history thing. Because of the advancement of technology. This wasn’t available years ago when the fight with Voldemort happened. Also. The normalization of the LGBT…
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There are no accidents. It’s because I worked at Askaban that I learnt how to speak. Because of speaking to Australians continuously for almost 4 years. I didn’t know to form even a single sentence before that. It’s because I was fired from Askaban that I joined Ministry. I wouldn’t have considered joining the Ministry…
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I’m just waiting for this to be over. I’ve had an extremely difficult life. Once this is done, I will be retiring. I want a quiet life with Ginny away from the noise and hustle bustle.
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Every single time something happens. Not only do the perpetrators misbehave with me. The world also gangs up and starts torturing me. Based on the lies and manipulations of the perpetrators. Without asking me what happened or my side of the story. It’s always a double edged sword for me. But for the perpetrators. It’s…
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I was going through something very serious. My throat was completely fucked. I was extremely sick and suicidal. That’s when these monsters like. Rahuul Rishav, monster at social, Pettigrew, Anna, monster at crochet class, aggressive stalker, Dhruv. Etc. Were lusting at me, harassing and assaulting me. They are monsters who lack empathy and remorse. They…
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Taylor Swift once asked her fan from tumblr to come home and she spent the day with her fan. Celebrities and public figures sometimes ask their fans to join them to meet. This is quite normal. This doesn’t give the fans permission to force friendship, harass and stalk. Taylor Swift wrote the song Style with…
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The truth is already out. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. The liars are already in front of the world. What the fuck am I waiting for?
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There has been a revolution in this world where everyone has learnt about boundaries. Everyone will be exerting boundaries henceforth. There’s no going back. Everyone is on their healing journey and in therapy. So it’s high time people learn how to work through boundaries and conflicts. Please stop seeing boundaries as a conflict. Learn the…
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Another thing. After Ginny said she doesn’t love me. I met so many men who were good. Some of them were really good. No one in their right mind would reject them. Because they were a catch. But it didn’t feel right with them. I don’t know why. I really tried. But it wasn’t right.…
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You can also check my Spotify history since 2022. I’ve listened to the songs that remind me of Ginny thousands of times. I’ve listened to anjali anjali thousands of times since she sent it to me in 2023. That’s my favourite song ever. Also. I LOVE MUSIC. I listen to music all the time. It’s…
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I’m way too classy and sophisticated for this shit. I know I keep repeating the same things like a crazy person. I’m sorry. That’s because I am. If people were so interested in my personal life they could have just fucking asked me. God.
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Everything comes down to ego. Honestly all these stupid man made problems are beneath me. Also. I don’t have an ego. I didn’t even know about these stupid things until couple of years ago. My friends, therapist, taylor swift etc. Educated me on ego, betrayal, malicious behaviour etc. I have gone to the root of…
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Voldemort used horcrux. Because of her guilt she thought I was doing it too. Again projection and misunderstanding. Which could have been cleared with an open one on one conversation. But no. Again ego.
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Humans are inherently good. There are a tiny percentage of people who aren’t. But most of them are good. Most of the problems are caused because of misunderstandings. Misunderstandings are seen through the lens of insecurities, assumptions and regular human emotions. When you act on the misunderstandings. You are projecting those emotions and feelings. Also.…
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I’ve said it before saying it again. Most of the problems in this world can be solved if people sit down and have an open one on one conversation. But no. They want to take everything to court. They want to fight, defeat, destroy, kill and win. Because of their ego. Definition of ego :…
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Pay close attention when someone is throwing accusations. It’s often confessions. They are projections. They are projecting their feelings, thoughts, insecurities, jealousy, envy, hatred, etc.
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I’ve never seen Varsha Vinod before because we started speaking during covid. In her Instagram pictures she was wearing a kurti and had long hair. When she spoke to me at the office in 2022. She had short hair and she was wearing western clothes. So I couldn’t recognise her. When she introduced herself. I…
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There was a foreigner who was standing outside waiting for the lift when I went to BLR in 2022. He had a really cool Mojo jojo and powerpuff girls tattoo on his hands. It was so fucking cool. I started speaking to him and complimented him. I touched his tattoo lightly with my fore finger.…
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The truth is already out long ago. The liars are already in front of the world. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. Why the fuck is this prolonging? What the fuck am I waiting for?
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I keep thinking about hugging Ginny. Every time I think about her, I start to cry. I cry randomly everyday thinking about Ginny. My heart aches so much. I’m always in my feels. I’m filled with it. I miss her so much. So much. I’m so tired of waiting. Days are just passing by uneventfully.…
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The only reason I dated. Psycho divorcee, guy with an ugly dick and the perfect man. Back to back. Is because Will got married. So I gave up and lowered my standards. I had no feelings or interest in them. I’m so glad that it didn’t work out with them. God saved me.
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When I started dating in 2019. I was on all the apps. Initially it was really hard. Because I was new to it and I didn’t know how it works. Once I got the hang of it, it became easier to handle. What helped is that. I didn’t see it as dating. I saw it…
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I have blacked out multiple times when I was being tortured in the past. Also that’s when the sexual assaults were happening. I honestly don’t know how I’m still alive and safe. Thank God I was not kidnapped by anyone. So many horrific things have happened to me. I was on the verge of dying…
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I used to black out a lot during childhood and college days. I blacked out because of my first ever conflict in my life with that guy I told you about, Ajay. That’s why I leaned my head on krutika’s shoulder. Because I was blacking out. I blacked out again in the bus while coming…
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Please don’t brush this behaviour away by calling me spiderman. It’s much deeper than that. I have explained everything in detail. I live in a state of constant fear. Because I’m helpless right now. Please put an end to this.
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Please don’t support the perpetrators who gaslight intentionally and unnecessarily. This is something very serious. It is not innocent. It stems from malice. We are all adults here. I have already explained everything in detail. People clearly know exactly what they are doing. They are doing it for sadistic pleasure and false superiority. Please don’t…
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Because of the reality and double life that I’m existing in. I’m helpless right now. People have an unfair advantage. Most people are creepy fans with a leverage. I have explained every single thing. As long as I exist this way. Shit will continue forever and ever. I want a normal and conventional life. What…
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Perpetrators need to be held responsible and accountable for their actions and behaviour. People need to introspect and reflect upon their actions and behaviour. Because my reactions and retaliations are valid, normal and justified. Please don’t support the perpetrators. When you support them, you are enabling such behaviour. When you enable it, people will have…
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I’m sure Meghana has really close and good friendships in her life. But to me personally. She wasn’t good. She was just a casual friend and random ass side character. She treated me like shit whenever we spoke. She was absent throughout my life and never there for me when I needed her. I already…
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Even Chinthu. He’s not my enemy or anything. We had a conflict, yes. I wish him well though. Rohit and Nikita Metha ghosted me. But it’s fine. I don’t have any animosity towards them. God bless them. I don’t really take these things to heart and hold grudges. Unless someone does something really awful. It’s…
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The picture that I painted of Meghana wasn’t fair. She is a really good person. She has golden retriever energy and bubbly personality. She is really nice to speak to as well. Just that we weren’t close. I mean we were casual friends and neighbours. I have known her since college days. But I don’t…
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I started feeling anxious. So I downloaded a few contact recovery apps. Because I wanted to recover Will’s number. I had to accept several shady permissions. Which I did, even if I don’t fully trust the app. (It’s from the Google play store. But idk though.) Because anxiety. I couldn’t recover his number. It seems…
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I think I became a little bit intense and went overboard with the confrontation. I feel like a dick for hurting him. I don’t want to speak about what exactly happened here because it’s private. I would like to sort it out with him. I feel so guilty and like a dick. I’m so sorry…
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When Will called me last year on his birthday. He gaslighted me brutally because of whatever was going on. I think the law made him do it. Because he will never hurt me like that. I got completely fucked because gaslighting is psychological assault. He apologized heartily. So I continued speaking to him normally. But…
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Will informed me he is not going to respond before ghosting me. He was sweet till the last message. He said I blamed him for something he didn’t do. I would like to speak about it and understand what it was. I guess I was projecting? I don’t even know. He isn’t speaking. I guess…
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I tried reaching out to Will a couple of times. In various platforms. To clear things. But I guess he doesn’t want to speak. When I think about it, I didn’t really do anything wrong. From his reactions, I felt like a dick. But all I did was confront him and bring up something that…
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My parents are really old. They are not educated enough to understand boundaries, saying no and to stand up for themselves effectively. When jokers undermine them for false superiority. They will silently accept the doormat treatment and people please and make them comfortable. They don’t know how to spot narcissists and give it back to…
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I want a normal and conventional life. Problems won’t stop when I have a normal life. But I can handle it better. I will have normal ass problems like everyone else. I won’t have these twisted psychological problems. I want credit, convention and recognition for my work. This is my blood, sweat and tears. I…
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I want injustice to be answered with justice. I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. I want justice. The truth is already out. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. What the actual fuck am I waiting for?
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Please don’t support the perpetrators. When you support such behaviour, you are enabling it. When you enable it, people will have the mentality that they can continue to misbehave and cross boundaries. And they will not face any consequences and also get public support.
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People who intentionally and unnecessarily ask gaslighting questions. Even after knowing everything clearly about what you are going through. Are malignant narcissistic. They are doing it for a sense of sadistic pleasure and false superiority. Because these kinds of questions can clearly be avoided. It is unnecessary. These aren’t just casual innocent questions. Because if…
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The whole world is benefitting out of me. And I’m suffering every single day. At this point, unnecessarily. I don’t know what kinda inhuman cruelty is this.
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The truth is already out long ago. The liars are already in front of the world. I’ve given irrefutable solid proofs. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. People are just cherry picking and dragging this unnecessarily. On top of this living with parents is hell. And the encounters with jokers.…
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The truth is already out. The liars are already in front of the world. Please stop cherry picking and dragging unnecessarily. I’m not interested in repeating the same bloody things every single day.
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Honestly. Unless you tell me what’s happening. I wouldn’t know what’s happening. I can’t read minds. __ I didn’t know why people were speaking to me in a special way till Nikita Metha told me why. __ I didn’t know people were reading my blogs and the world knew me till I watched Jawaan. __…
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Mother started crying and said. She craves to live for some more time. Honestly I didn’t say anything to her. Or about her even. I just pointed out the neighbour’s behaviour. That’s it. Her people pleasing tendencies are so extreme that she broke because of it. It’s gotten out of hand. She even hits her…
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Don’t get me started on father. He got angry. Nothing surprising there. He said things like who even knows you. He also tried to throw insults at me. He kept being verbally abusive to mother and kept asking her to stop speaking as always. He kept getting angry and asked her to stop crying in…
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Mom is a chronic people pleaser. That’s why she reacted the way she reacted when I stood up for myself when Dudley’s father crossed my boundaries. Even today. She got angry at me. And started to cry. Because I pointed out the sadistic malignant narcissistic behaviour of the neighbours. She’s crying even now. People pleasing…
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Most people are creepy fans. Because of the reality that I’m existing in they have a leverage. __ They cross my boundaries and do whatever fuck they want. They wouldn’t dare do that with anyone else. But with me there’s absolutely no consequences. __ They do whatever fuck they want and conveniently turn the table…
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life. Shit will continue forever and ever. __ Half the population are jokers in a white cardigan. They smile a twisted creepy malicious smile when they see me. It’s all fun and games for them. __ Some people have extreme cases of para social relationships…
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If you are a friend. Behave like one. How hard is even that? __ After clearly knowing what I have faced in life. A normal person won’t hurt me again. A normal person won’t be jealous of me. __ But unfortunately. Most people suck. Most people lack empathy and remorse. __
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All these unnecessary and intentional questions can be clearly avoided. Everyone knows and understands this clearly. But still people do it again and again and again. Even though everyone clearly knows what is happening and what we are going through. __ Where is empathy? Where is basic humanness? Where is compassion? Where is kindness? __…
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Even Chinthu. We’ve been speaking on and off since 2022. He has never once enquired about anything till date. Never. __ When I texted him a few weeks back. He intentionally asked me gaslighting questions to provoke me. He clearly knows what he was doing. He clearly knows it. __ In spite of that. I…
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Also, about the neighbours who came to my house today. I don’t understand what kind of sadistic narcissistic pleasure they got by asking about me and where I work etc. When they clearly know what we are going through and what’s the condition we are in. These kinda questions are unnecessary and intentional. They can…
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If I had known Pettigrew lied about me in August 2024. I would have spoken the complete truth on day 1 itself. I was going to die multiple times between August 2024 and October 2024. If mom and my ENT doctor Mahesh Meda had not saved my life. I would have died. I mentioned the…
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The whole world is benefitting out of me. Why am I continuing to suffer this way? What kinda inhuman cruelty is this?
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The truth is already out long ago. What the actual fuck am I waiting for? Why am I continuing to suffer this way?
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2 of my neighbours came to my house just now. They started putting on acting when they came. They started enquiring about me and asking questions like where I work etc. Mother went numb for a few seconds and said silently “Amazon” and changed the topic. They were intentionally poking mother for an upper hand…
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The truth is already out long long ago. Right now, people are just cherry picking and dragging this unnecessarily. Please stop wasting my precious time. I’m not interested in repeating the same bloody things every single day.
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I have written more than 4k blogs. I must have used around 1k analogies or more. I have already explained clearly in detail why I used the analogy of chess. I don’t understand why people are cherry picking and sticking to that one particular word. Also. When I spoke about chess in August 2024. I…
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The truth is already out. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. Why the fuck is this prolonging? What the fuck am I waiting for?
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Disclaimer.
My fanfictions have no resemblance to anyone living or dead. It’s purely fictional. If you are taking personal meaning out of my fanfiction. Something is wrong with your perception. You need to be admitted in the hospital. Please visit Dumbledore. Because you have no proof that I’m talking about you. I’m just saying it’s okay…
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Good Night.
Only I knew the truth. I fought through death and thunderstorms to say it. I’ve said it. I spoke the truth on day one itself. But no one listened and I was silenced. People ganged up and tried to kill me again and again and again. When whatever happened with Voldemort. I clearly said, “She’s…
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My only intention was to tell my side of the story. I’ve said it. I’ve said everything that’s crucial and important. There’s nothing left to say. I’m not interested in repeating the same bloody things every single day. I’ve done everything in my power to show you the truth. I’ve already proved my innocence and…
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I’ve already proved my innocence and cleared my name. The truth is already out long long ago. The liars are already in front of the world. Dragging this is unnecessary and everyone clearly knows that. The only reason this is being dragged unnecessarily is because I’m insanely successful. Because the truth is already out. Also.…
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A friend is a valuable word. I don’t use the word friend loosely. It requires connection, rapport, trust, safety, shared experiences, actions that align with words, etc. It takes a lot of time to use that word. People in my close circle are in my close circle for a reason. Just because someone is a…
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She’s just a random ass waiter in a restaurant I have been going to regularly since I moved to EC in 2021. The only thing I did was ask her to take my picture. She stuck to me like a parasite and leech. She was not taking no for an answer. I had posted a…
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Everyone clearly knows that Pettigrew is not Dobby. Please stop disgracing Dobby’s name. There was no friendship between us. We barely spoke. The only thing I spoke to her about is trees, coffee, laptop and weather. Also, I asked her random questions. Because she’s not my friend. She was forcing the friendship. I was constantly…
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The truth is already out long ago. I’m not interested in repeating the same things everyday. What the actual fuck am I waiting for?
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life. Shit will continue forever and ever. I’ve already explained everything in detail. What’s going on? I went through something very serious. I want to know what happened to each and every person who did me wrong. I want closure. I want to know what’s…
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I want a normal and conventional life. Everyone in this world clearly knows that I’m innocent. What the actual fuck am I waiting for?
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The truth is already out long long ago. I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence and sanity. The liars are already in front of the whole world. What the actual fuck am I waiting for?
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I don’t know why I think about forgiving people sometimes. I don’t know if this is how everyone thinks? AI says that it is. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I went through insurmountable pain and suffering. I should not think about forgiving at all. But sometimes I do have those thoughts. Please stop…
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It’s 12.53 am. I have a really bad cold. My nose hurts so much. So much. God. So much pain. I’m unable to sleep. After this is over. I’m not going to write every single thought here. I’m going to retire and be more intentional with my content. I would like my privacy once this…
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No I don’t want to forgive anyone. I want justice for what happened to me. They didn’t think about me when they sabotaged my life. Why should I think about them? I went through hell for 15 years. I was on the verge of dying and I was tortured inhumanly. I want justice.
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After seeing her therapy page. I’m no longer angry at her. As I mentioned. She is not the ultimate villain archetype. She was a regular angsty 20 year old with regular human emotions. She made the wrong choices. When I broke. She panicked and did whatever she did. I don’t think she would have imagined…
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I don’t know if I want Voldemort to face charges anymore. She seems to have changed alot and redeemed herself. Looks like she has a husband who loves her too. Honestly, I don’t know. I’m still alive. No one’s dead. I’m also normal now. It’s not just Voldemort who fucked up. A lot of people…
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I see Voldemort still posting in her therapy account. I honestly don’t know what’s going on? She seems to have changed a lot. Looks like she is helping the LGBTQ and neurodivergent community. I know she’s reading my blogs because I saw the sunset pictures as well. I assumed she must be facing charges for…
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We are in 2026. We are at the prime of human existence. We have come so far as humanity. Please show some maturity. Let’s leave the nincompoop immaturity behind us guys. Let’s heal and walk into a brighter tomorrow together. No one knows how long we are going to be here. Make the best of…
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I’ve said it before saying it again. People need cathartic release of their unhealed problems, insecurities, emotions and trauma. So they seek it in the comments and DMs of creators and celebrities. They have this feeling that they can say whatever fuck they want in the comfort of their screens. So they project and vomit.…
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Content creators, including me, create content because we love what we do. Those who vibe with us can follow us along. We are not begging anyone to consume our content. If you don’t like my content, or any other creators in this field for that matter. It’s okay. Millions of people in this world. Everyone…
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Both of them are right in their own accord. The solution would be for mom to not try to keep speaking to dad. Because he doesn’t seem to be in the mindspace to listen. He has problems of his own. Instead she should rely on her sisters and brother for emotional support and validation. When…
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The main reason father and mother fight is because. There is just one huge room that is the hall. It contains the open kitchen. Mom is constantly speaking while she is in the kitchen. Father will be watching TV and on the phone. They both don’t really have a space of their own to be…
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If people were so fucking interested in my personal life. They could have just fucking asked me like a normal person. My life was sabotaged in the name of help. I was tortured in the name of empathy. I had to fight death and thunderstorms to tell my side of the story. What the actual…
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People are dragging this unnecessarily. Everyone knows that I’m speaking the truth. This is dragged just because I’m insanely successful. Everyone knows this is unnecessary. People don’t want to accept the fact that I’m speaking the truth. Like. How is she still alive? How is she so good? Why is she speaking about God?
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I have got a rash on my right hand and it is hurting like crazy. I don’t know what exactly it is. I don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me. I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence and sanity. The truth is already out long ago. The liars are already in…
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Also. I haven’t said anything about the book seven year slip or the author till date. Yes. I mentioned the 2 star review on my youtube. But I didn’t take names. I returned the book because it was damaged/pirated. I removed it from Goodreads because Goodreads is my physical TBR. After the way the book…
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I don’t understand why people don’t realise what they are doing is wrong. Why are they not realising that I’m a human being with feelings. And my feelings are getting hurt. I was called a fucking “ugly gargoyle” in that book. This is the book that you’re hyping up. Is this even humane?
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I spoke about wanting justice for what Abby Jimenez did a few days ago. And I saw that book in the discover page of Goodreads, along with seven year slip. I deleted Goodreads and fable. I see people hyping up those books online as well. I have changed my settings on Instagram to hide book…
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I don’t want to be a part of this. I don’t want to listen to and witness these things on a daily basis. I have been enduring this my whole life. But I just can’t anymore. I’m waiting to move out. I’ve been waiting to move out since I started writing here. I’m scared if…
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Father feels that if mother doesn’t speak about these things. Her BP will maintain in normal. If she speaks about her worries. He feels she will feel fucked. Also, he gets fucked listening to it. This is his logic to maintain peace at home. No matter how many times I try to explain to him.…
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I’m either subjected to his rage or his sexual assaults or his unhygienic behaviour. (He still doesn’t cover his mouth while sneezing.) I keep witnessing my parents bickering in the hall most of the time. I really don’t like that man. I have basic platonic love and respect as a father sometimes. But I really…
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Every single time mother speaks about something. Whether it’s her worries or her pain or about her day or it is asking father not to do something that he did. Father keeps repeating, “Can you stop.” Again and again and again and again. He doesn’t let her speak or finish talking. Most of the time…
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I love threads. I’ve been waiting with nothing to do since last January. My money got over last January. I haven’t been reading because my books are tampered and it fucks up my mind. I rarely watch things on my phone because it eats up my battery. I’ve been in my room all day every…
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The worst part was that. Not only was father inhumanly sexually assaulting me like a ruthless vulture. But every single time I tried telling someone about it. They would blame my perception and try to change my perception. They called me crazy. Instead of asking that man to stop. He does it even now. He…
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Note. Not Ali Hazelwood. Sorry. I meant Abby Jimenez. I’m always confused between these two authors.
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The truth is already out long long ago. I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence and sanity. What the actual fuck am I waiting for?
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Every single person in this world clearly knows that I’m innocent. What exactly am I waiting for?
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The truth is already out long long ago. I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence and sanity. What the actual fuck am I waiting for?
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Voldemort started the fire and thought, that’s it I will die. She thought that I would never learn how to speak. She thought I would never gain maturity and figure out and clear the mess that she created. The death eaters effortlessly followed and thought, I would never be able to prove what they did…
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Half the population are jokers in a white cardigan. Just because they consume your content and are wearing a white cardigan. Don’t be under the delusion that they love you. They are burning behind their facade and are waiting for you to choke. They are desperately waiting for a loophole. They desperately need something against…
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Also because I’m slow. I freeze when I’m in danger. Honestly I’m scared of my safety. Because everyone knows everything about me. I don’t have the money to take precautionary measures as well. Some people have extreme cases of para social relationships with me. It’s crazy outside.
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Another reason why I would change in the pub was because. I was scared to wear short and revealing clothes and travel alone. Because of all the sexual assaults that I faced in life. And the rape. The way men used to behave with me. Also. The women. It was crazy.
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About the Instagram story archive thing. You can check the date on when I deleted all the saved stories. About changing my clothes in the pub. You can ask Ginny. One time I also changed in her car. I didn’t tell her about father. I didn’t say anything that I have written here to her.…
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It’s not just father. Every single time I get ready and go out. At least 5 people ogle at my cleavage and body. Vulgar aunties, behenjis and uncles. It’s minimum 5 each time. Minimum. Uncles ogle from far. But vulgar aunties and behenjis shamelessly stand in front of me with eyes glued to my cleavage…
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I can’t wait to move out and get away from that man. I’m either subjected to the sexual assaults or his rage or his unhygienic behaviours. I’m so tired of living this way. I want a lot of distance.
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It’s because of father’s ruthless ogling like a vulture that I stopped wearing shorts and skirts. When Ginny said that she loves skirts when we started dating. I started buying skirts again. But I don’t wear it at home and go out. I wear jeans and carry it in my bag. I used to change…
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I wore a short knee length dress this morning before going for my walk. When I wore the dress. I started feeling anxious because I knew father would start staring at my body. He has done that my entire adult life. When I walked out of the bedroom. He was standing and drinking water facing…
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