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Sorry I’m not accusing anyone. I don’t know what’s happening and so many things are happening and happened intentionally. It’s a little difficult to trust. Just let it be. I don’t really know what happened.
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I got up today and I have dark pigmentation at the edge of both sides of my mouth. The only thing I wear is sunscreen, moisturizer and lip balm. I don’t know how it happened. So many things have happened to me intentionally, I don’t trust blindly anymore. I’m doubting whether it was intentional or…
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Quote of the day.
…. ” I was born at Dragonstone. Not that I can remember it. I spent my life in foreign lands. So many men have tried to kill me, I don’t remember all their names. I have been sold like a broodmare. I’ve been chained and betrayed, raped and defiled. Do you know what kept me…
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I wasn’t wearing my glasses, so I couldn’t see Ginny’s face clearly when I was getting into her car for the first time. That’s why I said, the first time I saw her she was laughing. Because the technical first time her face was blur. Just clarifying. Even if no one asked. …. Also, When…
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Also, I don’t really complain against weak people. Weak as in, people who can’t stand up or speak for themselves. Because I was like that in the past. So I always respect and care. I usually keep quiet when they do something. But now, after what happened I’m scared. So I think I should speak…
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Also, I complained because I was sexually assaulted. That was the threshold. I kept quiet till then, even though she was constantly harassing me and disrespecting me. I called her for clarification before complaining. Even when I complained, I didn’t say the whole truth because I didn’t want her to loose her job. I helped…
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No one really gives me gifts. It’s so rare. My sister gave me a rose gold watch few years ago and that’s like the only gift that I really like. I don’t celebrate my birthdays too. So yeah. It’s really awkward when it happens because I’m not used to it. I don’t even enjoy thinking…
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Also, I didn’t really have much problem with Peter Pettigrew initially. I was trying my best to cut her off without hurting her. I was also trying my best to help because I help everyone and I love helping. You can go back and read. I opened up about the entire truth only after I…
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I’m saying this based on what I saw online. ….. I don’t really hit my neices. They are like my own children. Whatever I did with Aaru is playing. I pretend like I’m hitting and lightly nudge her and she also does the same and we start playing. She knows I’m playing. Also, I play…
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When someone says something couple of times. In the past, I had a habit of repeating it even if I don’t mean or feel it. Just like how toddlers do. It was because my mind was not completely developed. I still get scared because of what I was doing in the past even if I…
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Also, I feel so bad for confronting mother yesterday. I had decided not to pick a fight with them and avoid conflicts at all costs. But I get so irritated sometimes and talking to her makes it so much worser. The condescending noises that she makes and her words. I want to go far away…
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Dear Diary.
1.04AM. I’ve been awake since an hour because there is a stupid mosquito in my room, troubling me. So I switched on my fairy lights and I’ve been laying on the bed awake with my mind wandering. I remembered the first Australian customer I spoke to at Askaban. I read a quote somewhere which goes…
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Can someone please explain to me why I’m begging like this every single day for my own money? And why I’m suffering this way unnecessarily? And why the fuck am I picking at breadcrumbs when the truth is in front of the world and I’ve already proved myself? I’m the one who is making the…
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Mother was creating unnecessary drama and putting on a show because my delivery came today. She keeps saying we don’t have money etc and puts on theatrics even though she clearly knows what’s happening in this world. When I confronted her, she started disrespecting me and making condescending noises. I gave it back too. I’ve…
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Shruti removes her tshirt in front of her guy friends. She removes her jeans and walks around without wearing pant in front of group of her guy friends. She literally jumps on men and confessess love for almost every single person she meets and flirts with each one of them. She is literally so sex…
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You can check the date when we met at the theatre at MG road. The date when Bellatrix started renting the house at Kumar swami layout. And the date of the uber/ola that we took to her house. Please fact check all these information. Bellatrix texts and talks to a lot of women about really…
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After I met Bellatrix 2-3 times in the theatre in MG road. She was living in PG but immediately took a house for rent. She begged me for one month continuously to go to her house. No matter how much I said no. She promised she will only kiss me and nothing else. She started…
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Peter Pettigrew didn’t attack me because of insecurities about her father. She was jealous that I was no longer a failure and she wanted an upper hand in the conversation. I saw it clearly on her face. She knew exactly what she was doing. Also, she knows english well enough. She is not groot. She…
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In Askaban shruti used to eat idli by dipping it in a bowl full of sambar. So one day I joked idli is skinny dipping in sambar and laughed, I had watched it in a movie recently. It was supposed to be funny. I make jokes like this like all the time. Anyone who knows…
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I want even the dentists to face the consequences of what they did to me. It was extremely unethical. Even the reality TV people. They caused immense psychological pain and pressure for entertainment purposes. They put mud on my name. Each and every person who spread false accusations and defamation. I want each every person…
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Quote of the day.
….. Give ’em hell, turn their heads Gonna live life ’til we’re dead Give me scars, give me pain Then they’ll say to me, say to me, say to me There goes a fighter (oh) There goes a fighter (oh) Here comes a fighter (oh) That’s what they’ll say to me, say to me Say…
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My money is over. I’m literally so fed up of sitting at home since last couple of days. I need some change in atmosphere every now and then, otherwise I start feeling suffocated. Please give me what I asked for, I’m fed up of waiting this way.
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Creativity and ideas are better when it is collaborative. Like, when I talk about an idea to the world. Everyone takes what works for them and adds different dimensions and layers to it with their own individuality. It literally wonderful how it works. That’s what makes it better and so much more good. I’m okay…
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I’ve been stuck with a refund case in zivame app since starting of November. Can someone please look into it and resolve it? I don’t understand what’s going on?
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I do understand why everyone are calling me Jesus and God. But please don’t do that. I’m literally not God. I’ve had a different life, so I’m little different that’s all. I’m glad I was able to help. But please stop being stupid. I don’t know what my life has become, tbh. I’m not interested…
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I was trying to reduce the doze of my medicine 4 days ago and I’ve been getting these headaches, so I went back to the previous doze. Because of this I’ve been having mental health days these last 4 days. I’ve been unable to function, so the only thing I did was listen to music,…
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Big basket called me today 3 times to ask where I live when everyone in this world clearly knows where I live. I honestly don’t know what exactly is happening and what’s going on. I have just 1k left in my account and I have no money to take care of my expenses. Please tell…
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Peter Pettigrew doesn’t care or love me. She doesn’t care about building a friendship with me or how she treats me. She doesn’t care about respecting me as a person. She did everything I said that she did. She just wanted attention. Even if she is broken now or whatever happened to her, it’s because…
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It’s not that nobody cares. Everyone does care and love. Just that we all have our limitations and own problems and messy life. Sometimes we are so consumed by it, we don’t realise certain things. So we should learn to not have any crazy unreasonable expectations from everyone. People do care but be mindful that…
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When I say keep it casual while socialising, You can also imagine it like being in college. In college, we have our own group of close circle whom we love unconditionally. But we also socialise with others and say hi and talk casually. Share whatever we are comfortable sharing. We care and love about everyone…
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Spoiler Alert. Every single person you speak to will eventually hurt you. Problems are always going to come up no matter what. You can’t avoid it. When you get close to someone, conflicts, misunderstandings, fights, betrayal, etc is a default. It’s a part and parcel. No matter how much you wish life would be like…
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I remember I ordered dead romantics and seven years slip from Amazon and returned it because the print wasn’t good and I didn’t like the quality of the book. It happens with Amazon sometimes. Later, I forgot about the whole thing. I don’t know if people are hyping up that book because I returned it.…
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For example, A gardener is well versed and a pro in his garden and is educated on plants and stuff. A chef is a pro in the kitchen and well educated on cooking. A vegetable vendor is pro and well educated on the vegetables he sells and stuff relating to it. An IT engineer is…
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If someone introduces a new gadget or app or technology tomorrow. We will have hundreds of questions regarding it, we will most definitely make mistakes while interacting with it and we might even reject the idea. Until we are educated on that particular thing. It’s the same for our parents. They are from a different…
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I live with my family, so I’m not really alone. Even if we don’t talk most times, their presence is always there in the house. I play with my nieces whenever I have the energy and stamina. Otherwise I’m mostly in my room recharging, music or doing something. When I feel like it’s getting heavy…
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Most of the time, I’m thinking about Ginny or a book I read, movie I watched, songs, ideas or solving something in my head. Sometimes I remember someone close to me and miss them. Sometimes I remember something that happened and cry. Sometimes I’m lowkey angry. And other emotions too. These are my priorities and…
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I don’t want to be a fucking damsel in distress or a delicate flimsy princess. I’m a fighter and a warrior with fire in her eyes. Never a victim. Even if I am, I won’t play the victim card. I’m always either a misunderstood villain or hero. …. I used to cry when Ginny met…
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See everyone has intrusive thoughts. When someone betrays me. I feel like pushing them from the edge of the cliff. No matter how appealing that thought feels, I won’t do it. When I was raped and assualted sexually, I felt like stabbing them sometimes. I did think about it but I won’t act on it.…
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Also, I don’t want any princess and queen treatment from my partner. Like opening the door for me and pulling my chair to sit and showering me with gifts and roses etc. No. I’d rather my partner laughs and jokes when I fall down or hit my head. Call me bitch, not in a bad…
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The world is focusing and being carried away so much by feminism and patriarchy. That we are forgetting men’s rights. I’m not saying we should not focus on it, because we should. But not all men are bad. Also, Not all women are good. Sometimes we tend to get carried away so much that, we…
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When one man rapes or kills or does anything of this sort. Or a group. We don’t blame all men and stereotype them. Because all men aren’t bad. When one woman is a bitch, doesn’t mean all women are. Same way, When one person who is bisexual, gay, trans or in that community does something…
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I know my father had anger issues in the past and mother was broken. Whatever happened in the past was because of our life in poverty and driven by misunderstandings. Also, we were under scrutiny because we were in the public eye. Now they have changed and come a long way. They are trying. My…
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When I love someone. I fight for that relationship. I have realised that it’s not easy to find that kinda connection with everyone. It’s very rare. I dated so many men after Ginny and it never felt right. Even when I kissed them and stuff, it just didn’t feel right. Even when some of them…
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Whatever I said in my previous blogs is how I have been thinking in the past. Don’t follow everything I say blindly. You should learn to take what helps and leave the rest. I keep changing and growing. So the way I think might change too. It’s not written in stone. It’s true and holds…
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Billions of people in this world. You are going to meet so many people in your lifetime. Like so many. Don’t break your head for casual temporary people. Unless there is something meaningful there, learn to keep it casual. Meaning, don’t get attached. If you can learn the art of keeping it casual, it can…
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The world dehumanise me and call me cat which was a reaction to abnormal torture and even dog. And I’m not allowed to call people who abused me befitting names like vulture, bull, buffalo, psychopath etc? Hypocrite much?
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Listening to my angry playlist when I’m lowkey angry helps because it hits the right spots and validates my feelings. It’s healing and relaxes me. This is better than pushing people from the edge of the cliff, I would never do that. But you know what I mean. If it gets too much, I send…
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My abuse, anger and retaliations are justified and normal. And just 20% or less of what I faced. I don’t understand why people are hurting me even now every time I speak up. I didn’t start it. So why am I being hurt for speaking back and self defence? Am I supposed to silently take…
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I didn’t know people wanted me dead in the past, each time that it happened. I was kinda minding my own business and in my own zone and world. No one said anything to me and nothing really made sense. I didn’t understand a lot of things. I knew things and I didn’t know things…
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I don’t have a dangerous anger. I was pushed way beyond the point of what a human being can endure my whole life. So I reacted, yes. I was tortured inhumanly in all forms, so I behaved crazy. Which is a normal reaction to what happened, yes.
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Just because I’m not interested in engaging with, creepy psychopathic mentally unstable sociopathic forceful fame and attention fucking blood sucking flesh eating abusive vultures and energy vampires. Doesn’t make me a lone wolf and doesn’t mean I’m better off staying single. FYI to the person managing news on my google news page. Also for the…
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It’s because of this false reality and double life that I’m in. People are taking advantage of it, my helplessness and my past misunderstandings. And using it for their advantage and also, to bring me down out of jealousy or bitterness. Please don’t believe anything you hear about me, Unless I say it. After the…
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I don’t know if someone called me a possessive jealous ex. I saw eyes emoji next to it. If it’s meant for me, if you tell me who said this, I would be able to give more clarity. …. (Trigger warning) Also, I brush my teeth everyday since childhood. As I mentioned previously, I used…
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I had anxiety few days ago and I mindlessly removed songs from my playlists. I was doing it mindlessly. I wasn’t paying attention. I tend to open random apps and delete things and clear etc. I tidy my room and fold my clothes. This is one of the ways of coping with my anxiety. I’m…
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Quote of the day.
…. “As someone told me lately, “Everyone deserves the chance to fly” And if I’m flying solo At least I’m flying free” – Wicked. ….
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I want each and every person who did me wrong to face the consequences of their actions. Even the people who spread slander and made false accusations. I’ve taken names of each and every person who sexually assaulted me too. Like Priyali Patra, Amit, cousin brother etc. I want every single person to face the…
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I’ve started washing my briefs, bra, socks etc myself. Now that I’m not being tortured inhumanly, I’m no longer crazy. I’m able to do all the regular things and be my best self. I was not doing it because of this reason not because I was lazy. I’m not like mother’s friend’s daughter Jane Jacob.…
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Quote of the day.
…. “Karma is that girl, like.” – Taylor Swift✨ …. “I’d rather be a comma than a full stop” – Coldplay. …. “I’m flying high, defying gravity” – Wicked. …. “Let it rain, let it rain, let it rain My love for you will remain ‘Cause I am a mountain” – Coldplay. ….
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I ruffled Shrikant’s hair at Askaban. As I said, I got that habit Ashwin Srinivas. Shrikant knew it was a friendly gesture. Because he used to keep saying he’s happy we were friends. He would keep sharing his life with me too about all the women he was interested in. We were in touch for…
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Quote of the day.
…. “And our love’s the only war worth fighting for” – Bruno Mars, Lady Gaga. …. “I don’t want you like a best friend” – Taylor Swift✨ …. “I realize your laugh is the best sound I have ever heard” – Taylor Swift✨ …. “So who can stop me if I decide that you’re my…
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Also, Most people in my past spoke to me for ulterior motives and to use my helplessness. On a personal front there would be no love and the truth would be something else entirely, but they maintain a facade in front of the world. It’s a win win situation for them either ways. ‘Cause even…
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Father is not well and I don’t have money to take him to the hospital. Can someone please help? I don’t understand why this is prolonging.
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I remember one day I broke down in the exam hall during an exam. Prashant was in the same hall. I failed that exam because the only thing I did was cry. Everyone kept writing and Prashant stormed off mid way. The lecturer handed me a paper to blow my nose. I don’t remember exactly…
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Prashant, my friend from engineering told me he watches porn on incognito. So I used to do the same because those days, I used to copy my friends. Only that I used to never really watch it. I would just open and close. Because I find porn scary. Also, I saw on TV while watching…
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I gave Savita a postcard on her birthday. I give postcards to everyone I speak to. I was trying to be friends, so yeah. I write sweet things on postcards and letters because I’m a sweet person. Even if they are hurting me, I don’t mention that on there. I’ve given it to so many…
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I don’t seduce anyone. People usually get attracted to me because I’m good, sweet, friendly and I have that allure. Not all maybe, but yeah usually. Also, everyone already knows me personally so when they speak to me, yeah it happens. I don’t know anyone personally, so I’ll be keeping it casual. Also, the preconceived…
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Savitha was also constantly prying and asking me about my personal life. Which I wasn’t comfortable to share. She used to dump on without punctuation on calls too. One day I couldn’t take it anymore and I told her she doesn’t use punctuation while speaking. After that whenever we spoke she constantly spoke about “cute…
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I’ve already proved myself. Everyone knows I’m innocent too. This BS is prolonging for absolutely no reason whatsoever other than, benefiting out of me and trying to study me like an alien and exploiting me. This needs to stop. This is cruelty to the extreme and inhuman madness.
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Everyone who speaks to me always likes me and even gets attracted to me. Because I’m good. But I don’t. I have my types and preferences when it comes to my romantic likings. Also, since I met Ginny. It’s been only her on my mind, like all the time. It’s like I was sleeping till…
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Also, Savitha would constantly copy everything I did in gym. I got to know she’s a newbie, so I started educating her on whatever I know. I love helping. She would wear home clothes to gym. So I educated her saying there are specific clothes for gym and asked her to dress accordingly.
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Please watch my youtube videos again from the beginning. I call 46 ounces, “park pub” and keep talking about how I go there because it’s a park, filled with trees and it’s so peaceful. Peter Pettigrew started speaking to me few months ago but I’ve been speaking about “park pub” in my YouTube since a…
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I’ve already spoken about Savitha Nair. I posted on mygate for a gym partner and she responded along with few others. When I met her at gym. She started copying me instead of working out with me and started asking me to teach her. Later she invited me home and started dumping her 10 year…
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Father is really sick and in pain. I don’t have money to take him to the hospital and even sister is not helping. My parents won’t go by themselves because of money issue. Can someone please explain what exactly I’m waiting for?
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Wanting to have children is ambiguous meaning, According to me, The only reason I want to get married is because I met the one and I love him so much that, I want to spend the rest of my life with that person legally and officially. Having children comes later, when you both are ready…
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Dear Diary.
I stupidly order butter chicken rice from truffles and think of the time she said she likes it. Her expressions and voice running on my mind. And smile. But don’t know why my eyes are filling up at the same time. I’m so sick, it’s annoying.
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My money is over. I don’t exactly know what I’m waiting for? I’ve already proved myself enough.
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Just because I’m different and I have problems, doesn’t mean I’ll settle for any tom dick and harry who comes my way. I’m clear about what exactly I want and what I’m looking for. I have standards. My problems don’t define me. I’m so much more than that. I know my value and worth. I…
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I’ve said everything. There is nothing left to say. I don’t understand why I’m being taunted. I had a picture not just of Avril Lavigne. But green day, linkin park and numerous punk rocks images. I’ve already spoken about it. Please question everyone who has a picture of Taylor Swift in their room. Most of…
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(I’ve already spoken about this, but I want to add to it. If it helps you, that’s great.) When I’m on a date with someone, I kinda study them silently. I notice patterns, Do I like the way they speak? do I feel comfortable in their presence and feel like opening up to them? do…
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I have never said I’m God, Jesus and I want to be worshipped. These words have never come out of my mouth. The world is saying this, not me. The only thing I said is don’t gaslight me because it’s psychological assualt and harassment. And I want convention for my YouTube channel and blog. That’s…
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I’m sure the old man who masturbated looking at Taylor Swift at the tour has undying affection for Taylor Swift and is broken and crying right now. Why is no one feeling for that man and justifying his actions? I’m sure he is a ‘beloved character‘ in somebody’s life too. Why is no one assualting…
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I don’t understand what exactly people are doubting me for even now and taunting me even now for. When my whole entire life is here and I have bared my soul in front of the world. There’s literally nothing left to say. Just because I was able to persist and prove myself? Because I’m not…
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This person dumped her problems on me on day 1, when all I did was ask her to take my picture. On day 2, she asked me to go to her house when we were strangers. She was lusting on me since day 1. All this translates to her energy is off. Please stop saying,…
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My parents were continuously torturing me at home in the past and my whole point of going to a restaurant was to get 2 minutes alone time and recharge. Just because I was alone, it is not an invitation for people to approach me. I was in a lot of trauma and I was not…
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Everyone wanted me dead and constantly assualted me 4 months ago right? Without asking me what happened like I’m an animal based on someone’s lies. Now that the truth is out and the real culprits are out. No one wants them dead? No one is scheming and creating riots on the road to kill them?…
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Dear Diary.
I have this stupid cold and I’m unable to sleep. It’s 4.04 AM, I woke up few minutes ago. It hurts so bad. Aaah. I caught Aaru’s cold. That poor girl must be in similar pain too. I feel so weak and my eyes are filling up. And my thoughts are, I hope I feel…
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The lake.
(fanfic) Khaleesi and Sirius are sitting under a tree near the lake. There is a cool breeze and the loosely held tiny leaves are falling on them. Khaleesi is wearing a white sundress with butterscotch yellow flowers and honey bees on it, paired with white ballerinas. Sirius is wearing a sky blue shirt which is…
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Your friend posting a funny picture of you on your birthday as a story is okay and fun. …. But Draco and Pratigya intentionally choose pictures in which I look extremely bad and they look good and post it. When I requested them to delete it. They shouted at me and started a fight. They…
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After everything that I went through because of that Satan since day one and last few months till today. My reaction is justified.
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Peter Pettigrew never cared about building a friendship with me or a connection or loving me as a friend. She only cared about the attention that came with speaking to me, she was forcing constantly to maintain that narrative without treating me right or caring about me. She just cares about her image in front…
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Peter Pettigrew was never kind. She was abusive, harassing, forceful, disrespectful and feeding on me like a vulture and psychopathic sociopathic wolf. She had ulterior motives and just wanted attention. There was barely anything between us and there was no love reflected in her behaviour and actions on a personal front. She is a monster.…
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My money is almost over and I’m unable to take care of my expenses. What exactly am I waiting for? I want what I asked for. I don’t understand why I’m asking for my own money so many times.
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If the world wants my content, I can keep creating content in a conventional way. Also, it’s a two way street. I want my space, privacy and boundaries to be respected. I want to be treated with convention for what I’m doing. And everything else that I asked for. I do not want to continue…
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I’ve already proved myself and everyone already knows that I’m innocent. Why the fuck is this prolonging? My money is almost over and I’m unable to do anything much. Why the fuck am I continuing to exist in this false reality? This needs to stop. Stop treating me like a fucking alien and creating all…
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If Peter Pettigrew broke because of what happened or whatever it is that happened to her. It’s not because I stopped speaking to her or because she is reminiscing the so called love. It’s because she is unable to handle the enormity of the world being involved and everyone knowing the actual truth about her.…
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When nothing seems to be in my control. Which leads to anxiety. I have the control of filling colors precisely within odd shapes in my coloring book. Which is infact in my control and is oddly satisfying. And hence eases my anxiety.
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I don’t know who is controlling my content and constantly trying to taunt me every single day like this. I’ve already spoken about everything and proved myself. This needs to stop. Stop picking at breadcrumbs and understand when something is done. I don’t need a constant commentary based on whatever is happening in my life.…
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I don’t know if someone from my past is dead or alive, because no one tells me anything. If someone is dead. I take no responsibility for an adult who is unable to handle the enormity of the truth and what they did. Because as I said before, they took no responsibility after the pain…
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I spoke about what happens in a casual relationship and friendship. As for when it comes to saying goodbye to someone close whom we love and care about. It’s never really a goodbye. Even if for some reason we have to part ways. When ours souls connect a part of us is always with them…
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We as humans are sometimes awkward and flawed. We tend to do and say awkward things. It’s impossible to be perfect all the time. The idea of perfection doesn’t exist even in fairytales, in this generation. We’ve come a long way. So the point I’m trying to make is that, Sometimes, we need to cut…
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I don’t understand why people are controlling my content online and hurting me, every time I speak the truth about someone. What kinda BS is this man. Also, I have already spoken about everything, why the fuck are people picking at the fucking bread crumbs. I’m tired of playing along with this stupid mind games.
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But if someone starts BS even after this. I thrash them and go into war depending on the shit. I forgive only after I get even. I allow myself to feel the anger. Sit with it. Process and channelize it. Heal. Then comes forgiveness. But forgiveness is subjective and overrated, as I said before.
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When I say, keep it casual with people. I don’t mean you should not share things. You can share whatever you feel like and are okay with sharing. But don’t get easily attached to everyone, is what I meant. Don’t get attached unless there is something meaningful there, a bond, a connection and rapport. Just…
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This is the meaning of slightly anal, “Slightly anal” is an informal term that means someone is very meticulous, careful, or precise. In case you were wondering. Because the word anal sounds a bit inappropriate. I heard this word in five feet apart movie. So yeah. …. Also, I haven’t watched Varanam Aayiram after Sameera…
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If my life was Varanam Aayiram movie. It will end after Sameera Reddy dies and the credits would roll because moving on after meeting ‘the one’ isn’t in my dictionary. …. Have you noticed when something makes you anxious and you do that thing anyway and you sit with the discomfort. After a while the…
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I was drawing boundaries since day one with Kreacher. Even when she asked me to go to her house on day 2, I declined. When she asked me to go out with the bar group, I declined. I deleted her number. Which was a clear non verbal no and boundary. But that didn’t stop her.…
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Quote of the day.
…. “You know you’re my saving grace” – Beyonce. …. “My thoughts will echo your name, until I see you again” – Taylor Swift✨ …. “I’ve been sleeping so long in a 20-year dark night And now I see daylight, I only see daylight” – Taylor Swift✨ …. “Don’t blame me, love made me crazy”…
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I never really think anything bad about anyone or do anything intentionally. Because I’m always minding my own business. I never start anything. I always let things slide or give the benefit of doubt. My threshold is really high. Even if I do something unknowingly, I take accountability and apologize. Whenever there is a misunderstanding,…
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I don’t see anyone wanting Shah Rukh Khan or Taylor Swift dead for wanting to be treated with convention for what they are doing and their work. I don’t see anyone saying they are boasting or showing off for talking about their work. I don’t see anyone gaslighting them like an animal for wanting an…
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I never boast. Mother was gaslighting me, being sarcastic and condescending. Hence I was affirming my truth. Which is a result of lifetime of gaslighting. I tend to affirm my truth and keep repeating it and stand tall. It’s called standing my ground and standing up for myself when faced with harassment and phychological abuse.…
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My money is almost over. I don’t understand what exactly I’m waiting for. And how many times I have to repeat the same things. My mother is creating unnecessary drama and problems at home every time I buy something. I don’t know why I have to keep asking for my own money like this. There’s…
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(Trigger warning – Details of my past health issues) After I started taking medicines in college, I faced a lot of side effects. I used to shake badly. Whenever I would wake up early for exams, I would throw up. … While working at Askaban, I had to start my day at 2AM or earlier.…
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I had few health issues few years ago while working at Askaban and ministry. I think it’s because I was crazy because of the torture and also the medicines. I don’t want to write the details of the issues on a public platform. It’s a bit meh. But yeah. I just want to say that…
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I didn’t have issues with my breath or anything of those sorts after, I quit Askaban. I was regularly going to the dentist and taking care of myself. The only physical problem I had was that I had lies in my hair, which so many people here have as well. I took care of that…
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Few years ago, Nitish, my classmate from school, took me to the park at night. He told me he is not asking me to be his girlfriend because I’m small and I won’t be able to handle him in bed. He said there is a girl in his office who will say yes if he…
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Quote of the day.
…. “Take that rage, put it on a page Take the page to the stage Blow the roof off the place.” – The Script. ….
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I had a cello yo yo ma phase too. Everyone knows about my phases in music. You can check my internet usage starting from school. You can clearly see the phases. It started with rock bands then kept changing. I love music.
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Whenever I send a song to someone there’s literally no hidden meaning behind it. I send songs that I currently listen to and love. I don’t remember all the songs I have sent Ginny. There was hidden meaning behind the songs I would send her, yes. But not all. I remember sending her my current…
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There was literally so much miscommunication between Ginny and I. So many things were unsaid and I was on the verge of dying so many damn times. I’m happy that the huge communication gap has been bridged. Not just with Ginny but with the world too. Now my feelings are a salad and I’m waiting…
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After a while, Vivian completely changed and he started liking me. I don’t know what changed him. Krutika knew I was innocent because she used to tell everyone, I was like a kid and I would hold her hand and show her everything around me. I don’t exactly know what was happening but Krutika was…
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During my 12th. I was speaking to a boy called Ajay who was mutual friends with Pragya, my classmate. He said he likes me and Pragya wanted me to meet him. I honestly had no idea what was happening because I had zero knowledge on these things. That’s when Aruna and Pragya were looking at…
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Pooja had a habit of hugging and kissing on cheeks in college. She would do that to Ashcharya. I would run and hug my friends too. I remember during the mentioned sleepover, krutika was crying. Sowmya and Voldemort were hugging her. I joined them and lightly kissed her cheek and said don’t cry. Lockhart had…
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You should question the people in question instead of taunting me this way. Also, When someone betrays me and starts a fire. Speaking the truth about them is not wrong, even if it is a secret. Since the world is so interested in my past and everything that happened to me. Let’s talk openly about…
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My money is almost over. I don’t understand what exactly I’m waiting for. I don’t know why the person who is controlling my content is showing me Dobby today. Yes, Dobby is an amazing friend, unfortunately I’ve never been lucky to meet someone like him till date. Peter Pettigrew is not worthy to even wash…
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Yesterday I wore shorts to go out. When I stepped out of the bedroom, father kept staring at my body. Especially my legs. He has done this my entire bloody life. I have drawn a boundary and asked him not to do it my entire bloody life. But for some reason he never changes. And…
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If people are doing this for content generation purposes or whatever the reason it might be. I refuse to oblige. Till I get what I asked for and till I’m treated right. There’s going to be absolutely nothing of value from me. I refuse to be used, taken advantage of and exploitied this way.
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I want what I asked for because my money is almost over. I don’t know what exactly I’m waiting for. This is prolonging for absolutely no reason whatsoever. Can someone please take care of the person who is controlling my content and trying to manipulate the truth and creating all these false realities. I won’t…
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I know everyone are supporting me by wearing black and white, flannel, checks, white, stripes, eyes emoji etc. Whoever is controlling my content is trying his best to manipulate the truth and create false realities to make it look like people are standing against me. This trick isn’t going to work on me because I…
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Also, Draco had extreme anger issues, she is a bully and her ego is bigger than her head. So yeah. I will be placing what happened on the table if she ever reaches out. I can’t say, hey how are you. After what happened and everything that she did. ……
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I feel whatever happened between Draco and I, Was because Draco was extremely possessive about me. Also, I didn’t have self respect, self love and I did not know boundaries back then. So she kinda got used to and comfortable with bossing me around. We were attached to each other, like too much and it…
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Dear Diary.
Something strange happened yesterday. Yesterday night, I had a dream that Ginny got hurt. I started crying and placed a bandaid on the cut. I don’t know what to call this. But today afternoon, I got hurt on my pinky finger and I placed a bandaid on it. I was thinking about that dream the…
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There is going to be absolutely nothing of value from me. Until this psychological abuse and harassment stops. And till I get what I asked for. Everyone knows I’m innocent and everything is over and done. This is prolonging for absolutely no reason. I refuse to play along with these stupid mind games.
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Whoever is controlling my content. I don’t understand why that person is keeping the drama going and showing me old content. And continuously taunting me. Also, Controlling my surroundings and creating false realities. I think it’s someone from India by whatever I have observed. Can someone please take care of this person? I’ve already spoken…
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I used to doodle names of fictional and anime characters, hearts, stars, dialogues of my favourite characters etc on the benches and margins of books during school and college days. I don’t know who is speaking bullshit. … If Lockhart liked Lucius. It happened after Lucius’s deception, betrayal, malevolence and after he tried to destroy…
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If the jokers have something to say. They can reach out, open their bloody mouths and say it themselves. I humbly request the world to stop being a mediator for the people I don’t give a flying fuck about. There’s going to be absolutely no changes to my words till my last breath, no matter…
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Peter Pettigrew doesn’t love me. It’s isn’t reflected in her behaviour and actions, since day one till now. This isn’t love. She’s all false proclaimations and no action. I humbly request the world to stop advocating for the jokers. Every single thing I’ve written here is the truth 100%. I’m not interested in speaking about…
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Quote of the day.
…. “I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter Dancing through the fire” – Katy Perry. …
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Every single time I send a message. I press send, delete the conversation and forget. Everything I’ve spoken here is true 100%. Whatever messages people are holding against me, as so called “proof” for their false narratives. Please place it on the table and get it over with.
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I want what I asked for. Enough of this double life and BS. I no longer wish to play these stupid games. When I get what I asked for, jokers can no longer use gaslighting as a weapon to trip and stab me. Also, my money is almost over. I don’t know what exactly I’m…
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When I was going to my sister’s apartment today. The watchmen stopped me and asked me, who I am. I swear if these kinda unnecessary gaslighting continues any longer, I refuse to create anything or add value to the world.
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Quote of the day.
… I wrote a thousand songs that you find uncool I built a legacy that you can’t undo But when I count the scars, there’s a moment of truth That there wouldn’t be this if there hadn’t been you … And maybe you’ve reframed it And in your mind, you never beat my spirit black…
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Quote of the day.
…. “I was in my new house placing daydreams Patching up the crack along the wall I pass it and lose track of what I’m saying ‘Cause that’s where I was when I got the call …. When the first stone’s thrown, there’s screaming In the streets, there’s a raging riot When it’s “Burn the…
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Even though I was not good looking and I lived in the slum. Everyone who speaks to me always likes me. When I was going to the coaching with krutika, the boys who were giving her attention started giving me that attention. Vivian started liking me and there was an other boy who was writing…
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Quote of the day.
….. “Band-aids don’t fix bullet holes You say sorry just for show If you live like that, you live with ghosts” – Taylor Swift✨ ….. “All that time you were throwing punches I was building something And I can’t forgive the way you made me feel Thank you, aimee” – Taylor Swift✨ …..
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Quote of the day.
… “At all costs, keep your good name You don’t get to tell me you feel bad” – Taylor Swift✨ …. “Don’t start caring about me now” – Dua Lipa. …. “Well, I’m too busy for your business, go find a girl who wants to listen ‘Cause if you think I was born yesterday, you…
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It’s high time the world understood that people are bullshiting and trying to dim my light because of jealousy and bitterness. They do whatever the fuck they want because with me they don’t have to face any consequences. They just have to turn the table conveniently and the world conveniently believes them. It was started…
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During the sleepover with the school friends, Vivian had called and we sang “maa da ladla begad gaya” from dostana and laughed. It’s after that I did what I did. Whatever Nick did.
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I’ve said everything. I know everyone in this world knows me really well now and clearly know I’m innocent too. This BS needs to stop. I want what I asked for. My money is almost over. I don’t know what exactly I’m waiting for and why this is prolonging.
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My money is almost over. I’ve already spoken about everything and proved myself. I don’t know what exactly I’m waiting for and why this is prolonging?
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Being competitive or jealous is not wrong because I know they are valid human emotions. They are normal and valid emotions. But trying to bring an other person down in an unhealthy way, spreading slander to destroy them and dim their light, constantly trying to defeat them in an extremely unhealthy and toxic way, using…
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Kreacher is not a butterfly. What she did is worse than what Kanye West did to Taylor Swift. She tried to dig a grave for me and she fell into it. I didn’t kill anyone, I just spoke the truth. Speaking the truth is not dangerous or killing. I don’t start anything, just to be…
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I bought a lot of clothes during covid lockdown. I didn’t wear them because I was working from home and not going out. After I met Ginny, I changed my dressing sense and started dressing according to what Ginny likes. I didn’t want to donate my new clothes because they were really expensive. So I…
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If the world is playing these stupid games for content generation purposes. I refuse to oblige. Everyone already knows everything. So please stop troubling me intentionally.
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I’ve spoken about everything that happened. People should have the ability to use their mind and maturity. Understand what’s right and wrong and behave accordingly. And introspect on their behaviour. …… Kreacher is demonic monster. A satan who is evil to it’s purest form. Karma will be served by God, no matter what the world…
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The entire world is benefiting out of my words, thoughts and ideas. I’m the one making the positive changes and it’s because of me that majority of the people in the world is thriving. And I’m being tortured like an animal even now and exploitied to the core for the betterment of the world and…
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I was being inhumanly tortured in all forms in the past, so I made typos. Which is normal. I was tortured inhumanly in all forms so I reacted to the torture and behaved crazy. Which is normal. What’s not normal is, And continuing to do so even after clarifying and clearing everything and proving myself.…
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My concern was genuine, valid, verbal and agreeable. That’s what he validated. It was not something non verbal and non agreeable.
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I want to give more insight on the customer service representative whom I spoke about. While speaking to male associate, I told him I’ve been stuck with a refund case since November in an other app that’s why I’m asking for email confirmation. He said, it is your right to ask for a conformation. Don’t…
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Some delivery partners who come to my house, intentionally ask me if I’m Rachana, just to get a trip from hurting me. The myntra delivery partner today did that. A lot of people have been doing it since September. But I don’t understand why it is happening now. Can someone please take care of this.…
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I’ve proved myself enough. I don’t understand why I’m being taunted like this anymore. You should probably question the people in question and please leave me alone. I’ve went through enough trauma to last a lifetime. I’ve had enough of this shit.
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Most of the things I watch on Netflix whenever I’m in the mood, I don’t even know what it is about. I randomly just skip through things. Please check the watch time if possible. I don’t remember what I have watched because it is always random. I type “steamy” in the bar and randomly skip…
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I heard “I’ve been a bad bad girl” in a series. I think Phoebe says it to Ross. I don’t exactly remember who. I remember saying it to Ginny two years ago. I might have seen an edit online and copied it. … I haven’t watched love island. I remember skipping through it. …. I…
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I honestly don’t know why I’m waiting because the whole fucking world is benefiting out of me. And people are playing all these stupid mind games with me. I’ve already proved myself and cleared everything. I’m done with this shit and I refuse to oblige. I refuse to play these games.
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My money is almost over and my parents’ phones broke and I don’t have money to buy them new phones. I’m waiting for what I asked for. I don’t know what exactly people are waiting for?
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I used to consider ashwin srinivas as a brother during college. He used to keep calling me ugly. He has called me ugly so many times. He stopped that after few years. I was never interested in him but I would love everyone platonically back then. Like unconditional love. I was extremely shy, awkward and…
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I’ve started missing few people from my past because of whatever is happening. Even if we had problems. Atleast they knew how to be adults and they were open minded. Even though Draco bullied me, she was never jealous. That was one good thing about her and she had some good values. I realise now…
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My friends in college once looked at my boobs and said I have small boobs and asked me to wear padded or push up bra. Every time Lucius meets me, she would point and look at my ass and say, I have nice ass then she would talk about my jawline or nose or my…
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I was going to die multiple times, my throat got fucked again, I was sexually assaulted multiple times, I was psychologically and mentally assaulted multiple times. I went through immense scrutiny for months. All because this Satan lied and manipulated the truth and exaggerated innocent incidents and she was jealous. And she conveniently left out…
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If I was interested in her, I would have taken up her invitation to go to her house and I wouldn’t have unfollowed her Instagram and deleted her number. This is basic understanding. I was never interested. I kept trying to cut her off and drawing boundaries. She is an evil filthy monster.
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My female friends in the past have stared at my top and complimented it so many times. Draco, Lucius, Shruti Ren and so many others. It was all within context of the conversation. Whenever my sister buys a new dress. She wears it and shows me and I look at it and tell her if…
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I’ve said it millions of times that I looked at her sleeve for a fraction of second. Please go back and read. I don’t know what the fuck is wrong with people and why I’m being taunted and sexually assaulted this way. When I’m not the one who is wrong. That bitch is the pathological…
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I have not looked at that Satan’s chest. Also, That Satan was standing sideways with her right arm in front of my face. While I was sitting on the chair. When I flicked my eyes, my eye was on her hand because of her body position. Also, it was a flow within the context of…
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Everyone knows I’m innocent and I’m speaking the truth. The truth is already out in the open. I’m not interested in playing any stupid games or even respond to these stupid mind games. The truth prevails and justice will be served by God. Each and every person who did me wrong will get their Karma…
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I don’t have a flirty personality, I have a friendly personality. …. Bella in books used to bite her lips. I used to copy her a decade ago. Also, things about the bella from the movie too. ….. I started biting my lips again because of the scrutiny that started 3 months ago. I have…
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After all the unjust cruel pain and suffering that I went through because of the Satan since August, for no fault of mine and when I’m innocent. When finally things worked out for me after 33 years of struggling. I’m not interested in forgiving anyone. I want karma to hit her like boomerang. That monster…
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I was never friends with Kreacher. I tried being friends. That’s two different things. Because of the pressure and constant force. I caved but it felt off because of her behaviour. She was trying to lure me and calling me home and behaving extremely creepy. So I stopped. I was drawing boundaries since the beginning…
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Stop playing these stupid mind games with me. Just stop. Stop twisting and turning the reality so badly. I’ve said everything and cleared my part. Now please just leave me alone and let me be and stop invading in my space so badly. I don’t know what the fuck do people want from me? I’m…
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I have never given anyone fake hopes or promises. I’m not that kinda person. I don’t understand who is spreading all these lies and manipulations. Please don’t believe everything you hear about me, unless I say it. Please clarify it with me first. I have understood that people BS a lot in front of the…
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I don’t know who it is who is controlling my content online and surroundings. And creating all these false narratives and realities. It’s high time it stopped. Because the truth is out in the open and everyone knows what happened and everyone are supporting me too. So this BS person who is intentionally creating all…
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I don’t know why people are tampering my books to this extent. If something needs to be communicated, it can happen outside of books. I don’t want to read whatever is happening in my life real time to be played out in books, every time I read. People are killing the fun of reading. I…
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Just because I understand where someone is coming from doesn’t mean I need to agree with them. We all know Joker’s story in DC universe. I haven’t watched the movie but I know. Yes, We know and understand why he did what he did, it makes sense. But we don’t agree with him. We understand…
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Also, I need my privacy, space and boundaries to be respected. So this needs to stop. I don’t owe an explanation for everything like this. It’s beyond high time.
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Speaking the truth about someone to the world when they are spreading slander, lies and manipulations to the world. Is not called as dangerous and killing. It’s called as shedding light, retaliation and self defence. Also, I take no responsibility for how the fully grown adults are taking the truth. I suffered unjust suffering because…
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I’m teaching people how to treat me. What happened to me is not acceptable under any circumstances. I’m putting my foot down and refusing it. No. I want each and every person to pay the price for what they did to me. Starting from the prison school to Kreacher and his followers.
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I never said I want to be God, king or hero. I’ve always just said that, I want to be a YouTuber and treated like a human being with respect and convention. People never respect me and they treat me like an alien. They do whatever the fuck they want and cross my boundaries because…
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My mind is always trying to solve things and very active. I always look for cues that help put the puzzle pieces together. And then I solve it. I’m kinda always in my head. I have a lot of problems too. I’m very much intune with myself and am aware of them. So if I…
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If I have trouble speaking. I do the next best thing. I observe, notice, follow my intuition and write. ….. If you place a highly intuitive person in a chaotic situation and create a false reality and hurt them. Obviously they will behave erratic and react to what’s happening. Top it off, my added disadvantage…
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Also, Everything is over. The truth is in front of the world. Stop trying to dig false dirt and picking at breadcrumbs. People should question the people in question now. Because I’ve cleared my part and proved myself.
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If someone is not able to handle the enormity of the truth for the shit that they started. I take absolutely no responsibility. They started it. I went through unjust suffering and I ended it.
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Every single unjust pain inflicted on me on behalf of the perpetrators is going to hit them like a boomerang. Every single unjust pain. Even if they are dead or alive. Because everyone knows I’m innocent. And God is watching. Karma is on their scent like a bounty hunter. Mark my words.
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Even beggars on the road are better than that Satan Kreacher. Even construction workers are better than that deranged hyena. His face looks like an insect pooped on him and look at that creep talking.
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Quote of the day.
….. “She’s got lions in her heart, a fire in her soul He’s a got a beast in his belly that’s so hard to control ‘Cause they’ve taken too much hits, taking blow by blow Now light a match, stand back, watch ’em explode” – The Script. ….. “Here’s a toast to you ‘Cause forgiveness…
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Just because someone might have a good packaging doesn’t mean they are good inside. Please don’t go and fall for looks and their facade. I thrash people and ask them to fuck off when they wrong me. Atleast I’m not two faced and betray.
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They thought I’ll die, they silenced me, the truth will never come out. They thought I’ll disappear, they defeated me, they embarassed me and made me crazy. While keeping a good name infront of the world at all costs. But the truth is out in front of the whole fucking world and it shook the…
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Except for Draco and my family. I want each and every person who did me wrong to face the consequences of what they did to me. Every single person has to pay for their sins. I want injustice to be answered with justice. If they are dead, I want them to suffer wherever they are.…
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Whenever I give constructive criticism and point out things. It’s because I see room for improvement. …. People need to take that as a challenge and improvise. Instead of behaving like a 2 year old in kindergarten. And trying to defeat me for pointing out areas which is obviously not going right, in a flow…
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I’m not trying to criticize anyone by sharing what I observed. Because I have a habit of over apologizing too which I’ve been working on. I feel the female employee as scope for improvement because her language was good. She just needs to improve on certain things like the narrative about the manager and other…
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I spoke to two customer service associates today from H&M. I wanted to share what I observed as it might help people. The first was a female associate and then a male associate. I don’t remember their names hence I’m referring to them as this. Anyway. …. Both of them gave me the same resolution…
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I was sexually assaulted just now by a working staff in my apartment. Every pain that’s being inflicted on me when I’m innocent is going to hit that Satan even if she’s dead or alive. If she is dead, I’m sure she would be in hell and she is going to suffer for sure for…
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Honestly, I didn’t tell Kreacher the good news out of context. I had no intention of speaking about it. I had a really bad fight with my parents so I went to the park to get away and she approached me even after drawing a boundary. I told her about the fight and she started…
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Whatever the reason people are prolonging this shit. They need to understand that this has gone beyond reasonable understanding and basic humanness. The truth is out. Everyone in this world knows it clearly and knows me too. I have fought through immense BS and showed it to the world. All these false realities and narratives…
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Kreacher never loved me. Her behaviour and actions from day one was not of ‘love’. I’ve already spoken about everything that happened and that she did and that’s not called as love.
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I’m never smug or look down on people. I never make anyone look small or feel bad about themselves. I don’t do anything of this sort. I always lift people up, compliment and make them feel good about themselves. Everyone knows this. People are just spreading BS and this is going beyond reasonable. I don’t…
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People spoke shit about me to the world, spread slander and dragged my name through mud and dirt. So I cleared my name and spoke the truth about people. That’s not called being dangerous or killing people. That’s called as speaking the truth. The truth had to come out one day or the other. Also,…
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People are scrutinizing and assualting me and watching my body react to that scrutiny and judging me for the reaction. Like WTF. The person who came up with this plan should get an award. I’m not interested in anyone. Period. If this continues any further, I’ll definitely fall on the road or in my bed…
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I don’t know if people are testing me and watching me to see if I stare at women or not. I feel it could be that, I’m not sure. I’m assuming it’s that. I’ve already spoken about everything multiple times. I’m not attracted to women in real life. I don’t understand why being openly bisexual…
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I think people were watching what’s happening when I went outside because of whatever I am seeing online. That’s why I gave a detailed description of my day. While at Starbucks I remember I kept looking at my bag and cardigan at the table while I was talking to the barista. Because of my anxiety…
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After I came home, I wore a strappy top and when I went outside wearing that father was staring at me till I came back inside. After that when I wore a jacket and went outside. Father looked at me but when he saw I’m wearing a jacket, he stopped looking completely. That’s too many…
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I’ve been shaking inside since the incident at McDonald’s. I have clearly explained everything that happened, so I don’t understand why people are doing this. This is so twisted and wrong. I’m a human being. After the life I’ve had, I don’t deserve this. That Satan was the one who was lusting on me since…
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I don’t understand why people feel it’s okay to sexually assault me even after saying what exactly happened. Even though they know I’m innocent. This is rubbish and cruel. She is going to pay the price for every pain that’s being inflicted on me. Mark my words. Because God is with me and He is…
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I don’t understand exactly. People are supporting me online by calling Kreacher, Umbridge and Peter Pettigrew etc and even make movies about me calling me a hero and write books about me calling me a hero. Then why aren’t these random people treating me right? And also certain people online trying to manipulate the truth…
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I read the name tag of the employees so that I can complain but I don’t remember their names anymore. Honestly this needs to stop.
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I went out for movie today and 3 people stared at my chest today. I honestly don’t know what’s happening but this has crossed the limit long ago. People need to understand that sexual assault is wrong. Also, when I haven’t done anything wrong, I don’t fucking deserve what’s happening. Also, the Starbucks drink that…
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I had a batman pullover many years ago while working at Askaban. It was really cool. Whenever I used to wear it, few people used to look at the symbol and even point and say, nice pullover. When I used to wear graphic tshirt as well, people would read what’s written and their eyes would…
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I meant to say. I did not say make up is bad and I don’t like it. I like it but I can’t wear it. That’s two different things. …. Sorry, I’m lowkey irritated since morning. So made that typo.
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I have never said any book is bad. I have just mentioned it triggers me and I don’t enjoy it. Just because I don’t read it, it doesn’t loose it’s value, right? It’s good on it’s own and everyone have their own preferences. Also, it used to trigger me because of the life I’ve had.…
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It feels as though everyone online are supporting me. But I don’t know why they are supporting me by looking from top to bottom. The sexual assaults that happened recently was also the same. But I never looked at that bitch top to bottom to begin with. She was exaggerating the innocent incident very badly.…
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I was reflecting on why I don’t like spice in books. I kinda goes deep into my past. I feel it’s because I don’t have the experience in real life. I mean the experience of doing it with someone I’m attracted to. The only experiences I have is with all the toxic men I dated…
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I was manipulated and made to do and say things by Voldemort and death eaters when I was retarded. Yes.
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I don’t cross anyone’s boundaries or space. I know the basic etiquette and mannerism. I have reacted to abnormal amount of torture and abuse of all forms. Yes.
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I don’t know for how long I will be watched like this and people will invade in my life and personal space. But please meet me halfway and ask me anything you want to know before going beserak over things. As long as this is happening. Or even in the future if there is something.…
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I have clarified and spoken about a lot of people here and what they did. I do understand that my definition of someone is not a definite defination. People change and grow. They might be a totally different person now. I’m aware of this fact that they might even be a butterfly. I will be…
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I’m not scared or run away from confrontation and questions. Because I’m a woman of integrity and my consciousness is clear. When I cause a blunder or mishap leading to a wildlife. I face it head on, make it right and put out the fire. When I make a mistake. I’ll be present and take…
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If the world is trying to hurt me or play games using Ginny and my feelings for her. It’s not working. No matter what people do, it doesn’t affect me the way it is intended to. So yeah. Try all you want. I’m in blissful harmony inside. And all these false realities and BS mind…
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There is nothing wrong in using apps or any other way, to meet your needs with consent. Whatever the needs might be. What’s wrong is being a desperado and creep. …. I’ve socialized and spoken to a lot of people in life. I guess it was because of the situation I was in, now that…
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I don’t call anyone ugly or judge them based on their place in society or bank balance. When I call someone creepy, I’m speaking about their character, behaviour and mind. When someone is ugly inside, they start looking ugly outside too. No matter how good looking they might be to look at. It’s who you…
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If I want sex, I can easily and effortlessly get it tonight. If I want a boyfriend or husband, I can easily and effortlessly get it. I’m not bragging or trying to show off. I’m a stating a fact that happened in the past. I haven’t lost my allure, so it’s still true. I’m putting…
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My heart might be in pain. But that’s nothing new. It’s been hurting since last 2.5 years. So it’s a part of me. This pain. I’m all so familiar with it, my life has just been that. People might fret about these things but I’ve seen worse, so I don’t.
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If people were trying to hurt me today. By whatever they did. Giving me hopes and hurting me. And showing me pictures of couples on Instagram. It’s not working. I don’t even celebrate my birthday. So yeah. Also, I don’t really have to talk to Ginny everyday 247. I want to and I would love…
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I met Charan again outside the theatre when I was working at Askaban. He was good to me and we spoke for few minutes. Later after few months, I wanted referral in his company. So I texted him saying, hey I need a favor. But he didn’t respond. I think he was at the military…
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I don’t know if I’m supposed to speak about Charan. He is from my school. I met him again during the last semister of college. He used to keep texting me. He said he likes me. I said I like him too, but I didn’t feel anything for him. It was stupid. I didn’t understand…
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Kreacher is a Satan. She is a demonic monster. Every unjust pain inflicted on me for the sake of the Satan, will hit the Satan. No matter what the world does or doesn’t do. Because God is watching. And I’m innocent and He is seeing me suffer because of the perpetrators and their sins. Everyone…
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God was with me and He saw what that Satan did. He saw the inhuman ginormous unjust suffering that the Satan caused. Justice will be served by God. No matter what the world does. My anger, abuse and retaliations are valid and justified and just 20% or less of what I went through. It will…
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I’m sure everyone in this world dislikes certain things or people and they are entitled to their opinion, choices and decisions. I’m not sure why I’m not entitled to dislike things or people. I’m a human being like everyone else too. Also, my values are always in place. And I’m innocent. This is so twisted…
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Everytime I order anything from food delivery app. They give me extremely spicy or spoilt food. Both swiggy and zomato. Also, whenever I go out to eat. This is happening since September. This needs to stop. Because it’s borderline attempt to murder. Because I already have issues with my throat and it’s fixed now with…
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I don’t know how much people in question will turn the table. And try to focus on me and manipulate the truth in a way to focus on my reactions, life in poverty and flaws. Instead of accepting their behavioural issues and fuck ups. People are trying to avoid accountability by twisting and turning the…
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My sister and father are the ones who used to throw the food and my sister was the one who was competitive growing up and wanted everything equally. I don’t remember if I did that but whatever I remember I’ve already said. I might have copied them. Because I used to copy people back then.…
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She wasn’t uncomfortable by my compliments or even the flick of my eye to look at her tee shirt. Because she constantly asking me to go to her house and luring me. Also, forcing me to meet her till the last day. The pub was also forcing me to talk to her by giving me…
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The people who say things like, I don’t seek revenge and I always forgive would not last an hour in my shoes. So yeah. Thank you for the unsolicited opinions, you hypocrite.
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I thought that people were hurting me for not wanting to be friends with her that’s why I said they were blowing it out of proportion. I kept quiet about what she did to save her. But I was extremely clear since day one that she has double standards because she was proclaiming false love…
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After the attempt to murder, the sexual assaults, the psychological and mental assaults, causing my throat to be fucked again. The abuse and harassments that she caused and did since day one. When I was trying my best to help her and save her job by keeping quiet. The betrayal that she caused is not…
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I’m okay with my friends and people who are close to telling me their problems when we speak. I’ll be mad at them if they don’t. Because I’m good at solving problems. But a random creepy woman who lusts on me and forces me to go to their house constantly and keeps asking me to…
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I don’t know what exactly happened to jessa hastings, she is always soo good. She has always been good to me and showed so much love. I don’t know what exactly is the misunderstanding. I think I should just ignore since I don’t text her and we don’t talk. I think I should give her…
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I’m not calling them creeps because of how they look or their job or position. It’s because of their behaviour, actions, filthy perverted mind and what they did to me. The way they projected their mind and behaviour on me. The way they tried to bring me down because of jealousy and negativity. The disrespect…
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I might hunch a little because of the torture that I faced my whole life. But I have a fucking hot body and a pretty face. I’m well aware of my assets and allure. I have lost weight now because of the scrutiny. I’m not bluffing about what I said. Men keep chasing me like…
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I might have imperfections like everyone in this world. But that doesn’t make me any less attractive. I know who I am and what I bring to the table. I’m well aware of my allure and the effect I have. I’m also well aware of my imperfections and my truth. People can’t shatter my confidence…
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I don’t know why jessa hastings posted that story about the posture with sunset in the background. If it was meant to be empathy, it wasn’t very empathetic. If it was meant to be funny, it wasn’t funny as well. If it was meant to be helpful, it wasn’t. I’ve always said good things about…
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I’m okay being friends with Draco if he wants it too. He has to text me though because I don’t have his contact. Also, I want what I asked for before Ginny comes back tomorrow. I don’t want unnecessary problems with Ginny. I don’t want to be in this weird reality anymore because it creates…
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I don’t know what the fuck people want, tbh. Everyone who knows me, knows that I’m classy and sophisticated. Even if I lived in the slum most of my life. My mind and soul has always been progressive. Now I’m able to be my true self and I’m in a good place externally and internally.…
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I was on and off bisexual up until 2 years ago and I used to watch things. My feelings were feeble till then. But 2 years ago in 2022 I was bisexual for the first time for couple of months. I tried to understand my feelings. And I’ve understood that it’s only been online. After…
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I didn’t understand why the protagonist and the male lead character in ACOTAR directly had sex when they met after a long time. During the trial, you know towards the end? They were going through something very serious and he puts his dick inside her, the minute they are alone. If they had hugged or…
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I’m not triggered by anything online and my surroundings. Because I know my truth. I’ve spoken about everything and showed the truth to the world as well. Honestly, I don’t know what people are trying to do. Anyway. For the record, I’ve never spoken anything bad about Powerless by Lauren Roberts till date. The only…
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Whenever you speak to someone, You are not signing an invisible contract with them to stay forever and be their bestfriend. You are entitled to the decision and choice to stop engaging with them, If, There is no respect on the table, there is no genuine love and care, they are extremely shady or creepy,…
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I’m not going to dislike or feel aversion towards something, just because it was a cause of a misunderstanding. Even if I almost died because of those misunderstandings. Because my mind was and is clear. I know my truth and I live by it. I won’t let someone else’s misunderstandings, assumptions, insecurities and evil ruin…
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Quote of the day.
” When you’ve been fighting for it all your life You’ve been struggling to make things right That’s how a superhero learns to fly Every day, every hour, turn the pain into power. “ – The Script.
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For example, The mistake I made was use the word checkmate. Without having any knowledge on chess because it sounded fancy and befitting. And without thinking it through about the consequences, in the heat of the moment. I faced the consequences of my mistake head on though. Took accountability and didn’t back down or give…
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Accountability is the key. Be present and accountable. It doesn’t make you any less of a person rather makes you quite attractive and emotionally intelligent.
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When you make a mistake and your next thought is, What do I learn from this? You grow a little and also, change. This makes you a whole new person from that person who made the mistake. The more mistakes you make and your mindset is inclined towards learning, the lesser mistakes you’re bound to…
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I’m no longer going to add anything of value, ideas, thoughts, fanfiction or anything of that sort. Till I’m treated right and I get what I asked for. This is prolonging for no reason. If it is happening for content generation or exploitation purposes. I refuse to oblige. Thank you. I want what I asked…
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Stop flipping the reality and manipulating the truth and creating all these false narratives online. Stop playing these stupid mind games. Everyone knows the truth. I’m not falling for this BS. I refuse to add value to the world as long as people do all this BS.
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Just to clear. I never said I want to be God and I want to be worshipped. People are calling me God. I did not say or want that title. The only thing I said is, I want to be treated with convention for my hard work. i.e YouTube and blog. And I don’t wish…
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For the record, Mr Naidu is NOT Mr Weasley. Period. My door is permanently shut for some. I have really strong reasons for it. I’ve spoken about everything multiple times. If they are a butterfly now. That’s wonderful. They can go and butterfly somewhere else in an other universe. I will be happy for their…
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I know I don’t have certain human emotions because of the life I’ve had but that doesn’t mean I dislike everyone in this world. I have love for everyone as a human being as a part of the society and community from a distance. I’m aware of a lot of emotions because I educate myself.…
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My retaliations, abuse and anger is valid, normal and justified. It is self defence and Expelliarmus. And just 20% or less of the suffering that the perpetrators caused. They deserve it. If it was someone else a lot of people would be in trouble or in prison. The only thing I’m doing is abusing and…
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If Draco thinks we were soulmates. It’s only because I didn’t have self respect and self love back then. I loved unconditionally and I was under his foot. If he would have spoken to my current self, we wouldn’t even be friends. It’s fact. But I’m aware that people change and grow. I’m no longer…
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You need to understand that looks aren’t everything. It doesn’t matter how you look. It’s who you are inside, your soul, that matters. You have so much good in you, amplify that. Also, if you have imperfections and flaws. Accept them, embrace and love them. Get to know yourself. Love yourself immensely. When you do…
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If you are a bit heavy weighted or bald or probably dark skinned or you have a pimple or something of that sort. And you are insecure about these things. The first thing you need to understand is, The negative thought loop in your mind is happening only inside your mind. No one else is…
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When someone is projecting their sexual feelings onto you and you have no interest whatsoever in that person. And you have no such feelings towards that person. That’s when that person is called a creep. It has nothing to do with their looks. Also, when you get to know that person is not interested and…
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The only reason I was frequent to that restaurant 46 was because that’s where I first met Ginny and we had our first kiss. And also cause of the park. The only reason I was frequent to Social was also because of Ginny. Honestly, I was just thinking about Ginny the entire time since I…
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Just because a pretty woman gives you attention, is kind and empathetic to you does not mean she is “interested”. It is just her character. Some people like Dhruv, Kreacher, Deepak GS etc needs to understand this. Everyone else understands it because they have experience socializing and speaking to other human beings. Not having the…
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I was going through abnormal torture at home and I just wanted to sit alone for few minutes in the park because that’s the only park in my place. And this disgusting creepy woman kept forcing herself in my life because I was alone. She made it sexual and creepy. I kept drawing boundaries. She…
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I heard the word “fake promises” two times. I don’t know if it’s meant for me but I would like to clarify anyway that, I never make any promises I can’t or don’t keep. I have never made any promises to men I’ve casually dated. We were keeping it casual the entire time. If it…
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My faith, love and clear consciousness kept me alive and going. Also, I’m gifted. If someone is suffering, they should probably work on it and get out of it themselves. I don’t see a point why I should suffer because of their sins when I have been clear about everything that happened. I don’t know…
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I’ve already proved myself. Everything is over and done. I don’t understand why people are hurting me online by flipping the reality or attacking me through books and stuff like that even now. This needs to stop. Everyone knows I’m innocent and speaking the truth. I don’t see a point why this would prolong. People…
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What happened to me is called as attempt to murder when I’m innocent. What Kreacher did since day one was wrong. People should have handled it better and clarified with me before behaving barbaric. When I had already proved myself and spoken about everything since last two years. Justice will be served by God, even…
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When someone has been disrespectful and creepy since day one. Not respecting my space and boundaries. And crossing my non verbal boundary and not respecting my non verbal no. Also, using me and taking advantage of my kindness and empathy, inspite of knowing and being well aware I was going through something serious. Being sadistic…
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Stop flipping the reality and making me the villain. The truth is not going to change. Everyone knows I’m innocent and sane and I’m speaking the truth. I’m not going to fall for these false realities and mind games. Thank you very much.
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Please watch the below video. In this video I’m clearly saying I love grey because of Christian Hemmes. This video is 9 months ago. Kreacher’s uniform changed from green to grey. I complimented that I love grey. Because I love it because of Christian. I just flicked my eyes for less than a fraction of…
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There was no inconsistency in my behaviour. It was a clear non verbal no and boundary from me. I declined her invitations too. I have never approached her myself. I have clearly said everything that happened. I never disrespect anyone, so I didn’t dismiss her whenever she approached me, that’s all. It was a clear…
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God saw each and every person speaking shit about me behind my back to the world. God saw them throwing mud on my name and trying to bring me down and dim my light. God saw the malevolence of the perpetrators. God was with me and he saw me suffer because of the Satan. Justice…
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Being bisexual isn’t wrong. But the way Kreacher projected her pathological behaviour and mind on me and manipulated the fabric of reality in a way to make me look bad, was wrong. I’m being constantly assualted online and even sexually assaulted outside even now. Even though everyone knows I’m innocent. This is madness. Karma is…
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I wore shorts to go out today. The uber driver stared at my body as soon as he stopped the cab. I’m extremely disturbed by this incident. I was sexually assaulted by the uber driver. I’m getting scared now. Because if one driver does something, everyone will do it. I’ve already proved myself and cleared…
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Kreacher was disgusting since day one. She was lusting on me and forcing me to go to her house. She was using my kindness and empathy to dump on me constantly and consistently. I declined her invitation and even deleted her number. Which is a clear boundary and a no. But she constantly clinged to…
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If Dumbledore is saying that he already knew what I proved, he is lying. He is taking credit for my smartness, don’t believe him. He fucked up. I saw it clearly on his face. He was more concerned about proving he’s right than doing the right thing. I faced abnormal amount of torture because of…
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When people are bitter or when things don’t go their way or when they are jealous of your success and growth. Or maybe all three. They will do everything to bring you down, dim your light and throw mud on your reputation. I see a lot of things online and I hear things. Which is…
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Stop trying to twist the reality so badly and creating false realities. Everyone knows I’m innocent and I’m speaking the truth. I’ve already proved it as well. Everyone also likes me. The truth is not going to change and I’m not going to fall for all this BS and false narratives.
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I don’t know who the fuck is it who is controlling my content. They are trying their best to twist the fabric of reality to make evil look good and okay. I don’t know why that person is trying his best to advocate for the perpetrators. No matter what you do evil is evil and…
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Can someone please take care of the person who is controlling my content online and my surroundings. That person is doing his best to create a false reality and manipulate me into believing the world is against me. I know everyone are supporting me. I know the truth. Everyone in this world knows the truth…
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I already said I’m okay with Draco after the dream. My anger towards him is gone. I’m neutral about him. If he wants to reach out and redeem himself, he can. Heads up, I will be speaking about the problems and placing it on the table.
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I want what I asked for first before Ginny comes back. I don’t want to live in this strange reality anymore. I’ve already proved myself. Enough of this BS. I don’t know what exactly I’m waiting for?
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I know Ginny will come back on Christmas and I’m just waiting. There’s literally nothing in this world that I want more than her. I wish when I close my eyes and open them she’s here next to me and I’m kissing her. The battle ground, these huge windows with the faint light pouring into…
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Invading in my privacy and space is illegal and wrong. Everything is over and done. Whatever is happening now is without my consent. How is the government allowing this cruelty and invasion of my space? Why is the law keeping quiet about this? I’ve already proved myself. What is happening? This person who is controlling…
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I think it’s someone from India/Bangalore who is controlling my content. Can someone please look into this and do something about it? They are doing their best to play around with reality and are constantly scrutinizing and pressurizing me on daily basis throughout the day. And everytime I step out. Everything is over and done.…
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Can someone please take care of the person who is controlling my online content and my surroundings. I don’t see a point as to why they are keeping the drama going even after everything over and done. Can someone please look into this. I need my space and privacy and boundaries to be respected. This…
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I’m not against make up. I think women look beautiful in it. If you love make up, that’s great. I don’t personally wear it because my hands are always on my eyes, I keep rubbing my eyes out of habit. I also cry a lot. Also, I have little anxiety towards it. Which are personal…
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Oh, I will definitely forgive people organically some day in the future. Maybe. But first, You are going to face my rage and full force of what you did to me and the truth. First, I’m going to get even. And when my anger eventually subsides. We’ll think about forgiveness. After you apologize. If you…
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As long as the man is loyal and loves you. His character and values are in place. Whom he follows on Instagram doesn’t matter. Because I value people in real life more than the being petty over social media. I like people who do the same. Because neither me or Ginny are content creators or…
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Whatever certain people did to me and what I faced because of them is wrong. And wrong is wrong, no matter who is facing it. Even if you are a trans women, a dog, a baby, a polar bear, a prostitute, a special child, man or woman. Even Jesus Christ or a superhero. Wrong is…
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Kreacher is a creep. The truth is not going to change because it’s the truth. Whoever is controlling my content, please stop taunting me again and again. Stop trying to glorify people who are wrong. Also, stop trying to undermine my value and worth. Because the truth is not going to change, no matter what.…
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I respectfully request the world to stop throwing shade on Ginny’s reputation and trying to make her look bad. I know her truth and I see her. I love her. If I want to look good for the man I love and post pictures, that’s my wish. He liked me even before I was hot…
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Also, if Ginny follows women on Instagram, it’s fine with me. If he slept with other women when we were not officially in a relationship, I don’t see anything wrong in that. If it hurts me, it’s my personal life problem. I don’t wish to discuss that with anyone because I don’t like talking about…
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I respect Sid so much. Even when we were going to end things, I told him I love him as a friend and he said I’m sorry I can’t talk I’m attracted to you. I respect his integrity and character. He is one of the few good people whom I’ve met in life. We stopped…
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Dhruv and Kreacher are the ones who were attracted to me, but they projected their feelings onto me and told the world I like them. And they manipulated and exaggerated the truth in a way to make it look convincing. When I had no such thoughts or intentions. The truth is a mellowed down version…
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Please stop testing me by putting me through trials. Please stop scrutinizing me and exploiting me for content generation purposes for the benefit and betterment of the world. I’m a human being and I have already proved myself. This is gone beyond the threshold and it needs to stop. Whatever is happening is cruel. I…
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The truth is not going to change no matter how many false realities people create online. I know who I am. I’m well aware of myself. If people are expecting me to lie and sugar coat the BS about certain individuals just so they can look good in front of the world. By constantly scrutinizing…
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Kreacher clearly knew I wasn’t interested since day one but that didn’t stop her from doing whatever she did and her oppressions. She feels unwanted only after I confronted her. Strange.
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Did someone I knew die? I’m not sure what exactly happened? No one tells me anything. I saw so many things online. … I watched something related to crime online on Instagram and now I’m unable to sleep. I might not sleep properly for few days till I forget what I saw. I’m so traumatized.…
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People need to understand I’m innocent and this has going beyond the normal threshold. I haven’t done anything wrong. After everything that I have faced in life, I don’t deserve this treatment. This needs to stop.
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I don’t know if someone is dead or not. I don’t know if someone is suffering. But I don’t care and I’m not responsible for it. I’m not being cold. I went through more ginormous suffering and pain compared to them. I was going to die multiple times. Also, they started it. I retaliated 20%.…
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Quote of the day.
“At all costs, keep your good name, You don’t get to tell me you feel bad.” – Taylor Swift✨
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If they care so much they can reach out and redeem themselves. Instead of forcing me to forgive. Please ask the perpetrators to apologise. Please stop being a mediator. My words remain till I die. I’m not going to pacify someone’s ego that’s bigger than their head and I’m not going to people please. The…
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I clearly know what is a misunderstanding and what isn’t. People are trying to escape their cruel behavior by blaming everything on Voldemort. The world can fall for it, but I won’t. The puzzle is solved in front of me. This can go on forever. But the truth prevails till my last breath.
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They can thrive in the shadows behind my back where they belong. I’m revoking the privilege of my love and presence. If they are proclaiming love, they need to show it in their actions and behaviour. Otherwise please STFU and get lost to the other universe. Bloody Jokers.
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The perpetrators are not texting me to redeem themselves because they don’t have the fucking audacity to do so. Because both of us clearly know that I’m speaking the truth. There is no misunderstandings. That’s why they are staying in the shadows and speaking behind my back. And that’s exactly where they belong. They know…
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Every single pain I’ve gone through till now and I am still going through will hit the source. I’m 100% sure of it. Every single one of them. People can fake it all they want in front of the world to save face. But God was with me and He saw what happened, God will…
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When people spoke lies about me and threw mud on my name. Everyone wanted me dead and I was also imprisoned, I think. Now that the truth is out. It’s so silent. No one wants anyone dead and no one is going to prison. And people are again hurting me for speaking the truth and…
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Quote of the day.
“And I keep my side of the street clean, You wouldn’t know what I mean.” – Taylor Swift✨ …. “Our secret moments in a crowded room, They got no idea about me and you.” – Taylor Swift✨ ….
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There is nothing wrong in being bisexual, it’s not a sin. But the way people like Kreacher behaved was wrong. Crossing my boundaries and space. Forcing their pathological behaviour in my space. Later, putting the blame on me for their oppressions because I’m openly bisexual. That’s cruel. …. My retaliations are just 20% or less…
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People need to stop creating false realities online and around me. Everything is over and done. I’ve said and done everything there is to say and do. This is just BS. I’m not committed to misunderstanding anyone or anything of that sort. Instead of scrutinizing me for speaking the truth and trying to undermine my…
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Everyone in my community are my Ron. We keep fighting like how Ron fights with Harry and Hermione. We have problems sometimes. But we stick through it and we remain bestfriends. I’m sorry that I can’t engage on a personal level with everyone. It’s not humanly possible to do so and also because I have…
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I don’t know why people are creating all these false realities online. It’s all just BS. I refuse to play along. I’ve said everything and it’s 100% truth. Stop trying to undermine my worth, value and energy by sarcasm. It’s not even remotely funny. I know who I am. I’m very much intune with myself…
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Please check how many minutes I have watched the Netflix thing that I said I watched. Because I don’t really watch it for too long. I watch few seconds or a minute max. Whenever you check something that I watched, please check the watch time too. Because I just browse mindlessly at times. I haven’t…
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I never post any thirst trap. All my Instagram post is for and lowkey about Ginny. I wear skirt and black because Ginny likes them. I wear the clothes that Ginny likes. I like everything she likes.
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I’m not being cold. After whatever I faced, my words and retaliations are justified. “I’m answering injustice with justice.” – The mother of dragons. They should have thought twice before messing with me. I’m teaching people how to treat me and what is acceptable and what’s not. “I don’t start shit, but I’ll tell you…
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I suffered unjust suffering because of the perpetrators. I was going to die multiple times and went through humongous unjust pain. So I retaliated which is 20% or less of the suffering that they put me through. If they are suffering now because of what they did to me, I’m not responsible for it. They…
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Things were going good between Ginny and I, till people interfered in my life and sabotaged it. A lot of people whom I was speaking to at that time were shit. People did shit. They wanted attention or had ulterior motives or they were jealous and were trying their best to bring me down or…
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There were little problems between Ginny and I. But it wasn’t toxic. I was immature and childish back then. Little crazy too. I didn’t know anything about relationships or even the world. Mostly it was me who fucked up. I’m not interested in going into the details because it’s between us. I have said everything…
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I used to bite my lips a decade ago when I started reading Twilight. Because I was copying Bella. I used to copy a lot of other things that bella did as well. I haven’t done that again after I moved on from Twilight. I don’t know why people are bringing it up now. I…
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Please keep me safe. I’m scared of my safety. I’m got 2 missed calls from oman. It might be the psycho divorcee’s brother or someone. I’m scared.
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Ministry ended in shit but working in Ministry changed my life. I moved to this apartment, took up therapy, decided to change my life and worked on myself, started YouTube, started writing. Decided to marry and fell in love. Then the whole battle of Mahabharata. (I’m humouring you) And now I’m here. See? It’s how…
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Please don’t force me to forgive when I’m angry. It just makes me more angry. I can’t do or say something I don’t feel like doing or saying. Let me feel the anger, sit with it and process it. Let the anger subside and heal. Then comes forgiveness. It will happen organically eventually. Don’t pressurize…
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Having difference in opinion is okay as long as you don’t cause any harm. But whatever people are doing even after knowing the truth and proving the truth. Is wrong.
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Everyone liked me because I was/am an influencer. Everyone were even saying they like me online. Everywhere I used to go, everyone was always friendly and kind. Because I was friendly and kind to everyone. Everyone knew I was innocent too because I had proved myself. Whatever Kreacher did was wrong. She is the one…
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Just because I like something and I DNF something or I do something. Doesn’t mean people should follow me and my opinions blindly like sheeps. I never expect that from anyone as well. I respect difference in opinion as long as you don’t mean any harm to anyone. Difference in opinion is like different colours…
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Kreacher is also umbridge. She played different roles in my life. …… Anyway, I’m not hurt by the books I DNFed or stopped reading, getting hype or movie adaptations. I stopped reading them for personal reasons not because I dislike them. If you want to know the specific reasons people should probably ask me. Not…
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My mother is sick. I’ve already spoken about everything and proved myself. My money is getting over. This is becoming beyond ridiculous. Stop prolonging this for content purposes and put an end to this nonsense. This is real life and I’m a human being. Not a fucking alien. Stop playing mind games and creating false…
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I know for a fact that I’m not guilty of anything. I’ve already proved myself. People are creating false realities around me and online for content and exploiting me. This is so fucked up. People are playing mind games and causing psychological pressure and stress intentionally for the betterment of the world. The world doesn’t…
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I haven’t killed anyone. I retaliated when I was suffering and being tortured and going to die multiple times. With the truth which is just 20% or less of the suffering that I went through. They deserve every bit of it. I’m not the one who is dangerous. They are. They should have thought twice…
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Everything I’ve said is the truth 100%. I was fucking framed and few people are just shit. I’ve said and cleared everything. I’m not the one at fault and everyone clearly knows that as well. Whatever it is, it’s done and over. I have proved myself as well. People should understand how to behave and…
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I’m not attracted to anyone in real life. I’ve made a list of everyone I was attracted to as well. I have explained everything about my bisexuality. I don’t understand who said those things? What’s this game changer that people are talking about? All this is such BS. What the fuck is even going on?…
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Was I framed for something? But I have not hurt anyone intentionally till now. I have retaliated, yes. What is this manifesto? What is illegal about what I have written?
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I was right about the dentist. There was deposit and she poked me with the needle. I don’t know I’m literally loosing it. I’m fed up of this shit. This has been going on for too long.
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What exactly is the world doubting about me? I’ve said everything. There is literally 2k blogs. What exactly is it that doesn’t sit right with the world? If you can point that out, I would be able to clear it. Honestly, I don’t even understand what’s happening or why people are obsessing so much and…
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I don’t know if it’s deposit or stain on my teeth. I’m not really sure now. I don’t remember exactly what was there before. I’m unable to understand what exactly it is on my teeth. I don’t remember how I got hurt on my gum too. I don’t know if it was brush or dentist…
rachana rajan <3 